Ramblings: The Second Set · 4:24pm Jun 22nd, 2013
Working through the night (it's midnight where I am right about... now) does seem to have its benefits. I've made good progress on something I admit has stymied me for quite some time. I remember one of my favorite quotes: "Avoid sleep if you can. Sleep... Is for the weak." Sadly, I still need it, which makes it a bit problematic that I work best when I'm roughly half - conscious.
Which makes me think, just like practically everything does these days - from the simple act of sitting upright in the morning, to giving a beggar free lunch. What came through my little head this time was a bit different. Usually I think of the arbitrary nature of health, of kindness, of tasty food. This time, I found myself contemplating why I'm a bit self - destructive. Not literally, although it would be cool to think of (Imagine what would happen if someone suddenly poked me! *poke* *massive explosion due to shock*), I'm not capable of spontaneous explosion.
As mentioned above - the sleep conundrum. I work much, much better when I'm as tired as arrow - in - the - knee jokes than when I'm fully rested. For some reason. I'd guess sleep deprivation just allows me to incorporate my half - conscious dreams into my thoughts. It takes its toll on me though; my late night work tends to leave me sick. A little cold's not much of a price to pay for 2000+ words in one go, but what of the future? What if the day comes and my neglect breaks me?
Far too fatalist and perhaps unrealistic, yes, but very, very possible. Control is one of the easiest things to lose, right next to money and TV remotes. And one day when that control disappears completely I might do something I'll regret - scratch that, I'll SURELY do something I'll regret. Sounds like a fun idea but not all that interesting.
Shorter rambling this time... Interesting. To me. That is all.
Completely unrelated: Trust, but verify. Always verify.
