A long Hiatus, and my stay at a MHU

Not that I am an author, or that I know many/any at this point who check my profile, but for a while I vanished from FimFiction and a whole lot of other things I was active in online. I was on Paxil, Wellbutrin, and Clonapin as needed for Stress, Anxiety, Depression, OCD, and a few other slew of mental issue, that resulted in an attempted suicide and a stay in a Mental Health Unit until I was both mentally and physically well enough to get back to being in life. So here I am, a week after getting out of the MHU, which I was only in for a week, and hopefully back to reading some wonderful stories i have missed, and also figuring out why my starred stories still does not always work properly (One story from it always seems to vanish, even though when I find the story through a search still starred. Not sure if others vanished this way.)

I am doing better mentally but still a little to early to truly tell if the suicidal tendencies and other mental issues are gone, or if I just sort of in a certain euphoria after the failed attempt and the massive release of stress and anxiety from the attempt. (Truthfully that night, even with the pain I had never slept so well.) I highly regret my decision to attempt taking my life, seeing the pain it caused my family and friends really dug deep into me showing that while life can be pretty shitty, it could be a lot worse. I have a roof over my head, food in my belly and an internet connection. I am still employed at my job and start again on Saturday(Well probably Sunday, I never worked Saturdays), but my job is also what partially led to my current position.

Also, anyone have any good scar removal tips, looking down upon both my arms and seeing my throat in the mirror in the morning is slightly unpleasant reminder and I really do not want to find ways to hide my neck scar all the time. Though if I grow out my beard.....

The MHU was not bad other than no computer/cellphone. So I thought I was going to go another type of crazy while staying in there. Sure they have groups we go to, but it is the free time that is annoying. Here, have a few hours to do fucking nothing with your life. Oh, we books if you want to read romance novels your mother would probably like, or the World Encyclopedia; I started reading the World Encyclopedia on the letter T. It seriously starts off by defining the letter T and talking about it's origins.

Well, I am done rambling for now, good to be back and at the moment more sane.

Oh, and I remember mentioning a Job, yeah I got employed in October. Working overnight stock crew with a bunch of morons is a bitch, specially since everyone always tells me I am to smart for the job. Yes, I may be, but no one else will fucking accept me

-Takis