My dog just died and I need to anonymously vent and get my emotions out · 10:24am Dec 28th, 2023
I had a good 12 years with my girl, and I know I gave her an incredible life. It's just hard and weird not having her around. We were practically attached to the hip, and I loved that. I don't really remember a time she wasn't in my life. She was my little protector. She knew how to use the ominous Chihuahua and guardian Frenchie in her. She would stand somewhere dark and watch you. It was so adorably creepy. She helped me through the worst days of my life. I was in a roll over crash a few years back, the "real deal" in my bio, and after the world stopped spinning, the first thing I saw was her looking up at me. Her being okay was a miracle and the only thing that let me get through it all. My bed feels colder without her, and the world smells wrong (or maybe that's because I have the smell of the emergency vet stuck in my nose). I've always felt comfort in caring for her, the one constant in this crazy world.
We had brought her home once we realized that there was nothing we could do for her. I had her in my arms and was walking her around our property so she could be out in the sun and fresh air one more time when everything just stopped working. One of the first signs of death is self defecation as the muscles relax. Her heart stopped beating shortly after, and she was gone. I just hope she wasn't scared. At least she died happy. Seeing her once energetic body limp just isn't right. She went from a happy, bouncy elder puppy to dying in the span of a month. It's scary how quickly it can all end.
I feel better now.
I don't know what to say to comfort you
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There really isn't anything you can say. I'm just getting used to my new norm. It's weird not having my little shadow around.