Speaking out

Back in September 2022, I went through a terrible experience in Discord. It was an interaction that I had with a talented artist from the NiGHTS fandom who turned out to be a shitty person. I happen to have screenshots of what transpired, though I obscured their username.

The DMs took place after they kicked me out of their server after I posted replies to their messages in the venting channel. I sympathized with their situation and expressed my disdain towards their ableist manager.

As you can see, I was polite and civil towards them in the DMs, but this person went out of their way by berating me for a mistake that I already apologized for. It left me with a bad impression, so I blocked them as they came off as harsh, impatient, arrogant, and unforgiving. I also blocked other accounts that they have as I didn’t want to deal with people like them ever again.

Afterwards, they posted a series of tweets about our interaction and the way they described me blocking them is so absurd and disgusting. I underlined it in red.

After I explained what happened in a series of tweets (I also posted it here), one user replied, thinking it was too far for them to kick me out like that and feeling sorry for what I went through. I reached out to this user and they revealed they went through a similar experience with the shitty person. It made me feel a sense of relief that I wasn't the only one.

Then they offered me words of reassurance, saying I'll find much better people to chat with, things will get better, people who are genuine will be there for me, and I don't deserve such mistreatment. I've been friends with this user ever since.

Truth be told, I struggled with moving on from the horrible situation. This shitty person living in my head rent-free took a toll on my mental health. Time and time again, I couldn't stop being mad at them and venting about what happened. I’ve been doing a lot of healing for several months and right now, my experience in Discord has improved and is much better.

Looking at their art isn’t the same way as it was before. Instead of enjoying them, I get triggered and feel strongly negative emotions towards them. It’s for the sake of my mental health that I avoid looking at them.

While you may have the liberty to criticize this shitty person’s actions towards me, I’m not encouraging you to harass them. This is just me speaking out about my terrible experience with them. I appreciate you for taking the time to read this lengthy blog and may you have a great day.