I'm just really sensitive to what people think of me and it just makes things worse for me. Maybe it's because of a big ego, the fear of rejection or just the guilt of my bad actions. Not really sure...I have some real deep issues about myself.

I'm not sure what is the right way to do.

That "I have a dream" speech is too idealistic. Race is just a really complicated thing. Black people, I'm sorry that white supremacy really fuck up your people in the long run and for people who just happen to be black, just live your life. Black lives really do matter just like all lives. And yes, I'm a progressive. Bite me.

unfortunately, I have burned so many bridges over the years. So yeah, not sure what to do, LOL. I think I'll just find new groups and just leave the people that I really don't get along alone.

and it's time for me to accept the bad karma by my actions, so I'm not going to play the victim card. Anyways, I have to be way more careful now when talking to people.