Im taking a few days, maybe even weeks off of fimfiction. I have to find a job now to pay for the physical therepy and my medication for my back since my parents arent going to. The emotional pain is getting to me and i need help...

If i am forced to visit the hospital again because of my back, which very well may happen, i plan to tell them everything...

About my depression...
How my parents didnt do anything...

about how i havent seen a dentist since my wisdom teeth surgery...

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So i have an acute muscle sprain in my back and to fix it i need to be on some powerful medications. An anti inflammitory, a muscle relaxer and pain medication.

Did my parents get the medications that the fucking ER doctor prescribed for me?

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I might not get the pills i need to help my back get better... my mum talked to a nurse friend and said nurse friend said tylenol and ibeprofin as needed. Neither of those helped at all.

I need to take an anti inflammitory pill, a pain pill and a muscle relaxer otherwise i am in a shitload of pain.

Thankfully im 18 so i can go get it myself.

Now all i need is a ride to wallgreens...

Home from the hospital. I have acute back strain/back spasms. Im on 3 different meds, and im going into my primary care doctor in a few days as well as someone that the physician recommended.

Had a really bad scare today...

My back basically turned into a bundle of painful nerves...

i cant walk walk without extreme pain...

If it dosnt get better tommorow, i may have to go to the hospital :(

Im fucking scared as hell...

Im tempted to permanently quit fimfiction because there is so much fucking drama, and my life is full of drama. I, tho my parents may be unaware of this, am a victim of child abuse. I have anxiety and panic attacks. I have depression and all this drama that is going on, seriously doesnt help.

This one wasnt as bad as the last one but it still shook me up... its because of the stupid fireworks... mind posting nice comments for when i wake up? Need cheering up.

Lets see...

Bullies.
Being yelled at.
Fighting.
IRL parents (on occasion)
My IRL brother
Guns (because of mass shootings)
Fire works.
Being alone in large crowds.
My current counseler.
Being alone for long periods of time*
Major stage fright
My neighborhood. (Drug bust a few years ago.)
Needles
Razors snd Razor Blades.
Not knowing where my IRL parents are
Mentions of rape, assault of any kind, suicide, and self harm in a joking manner.

(*Without talking to people)

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So im on a site called Sylestia, where they have a generator. If you want me to make one, post 5 colors, and i will send it to you, a big, page post, and a mini avatar. They generally take an hour maybe two to make and i can always change it if you want.

Lemme know if you want one.

Who wants to see pictures of me in both of my sets of glasses? If i get enough comments saying yes, then i will post em.