Happy Birthday to Me... · 12:56pm May 26th, 2021
Today is my birthday... You know, in my life, people have always called me pessimistic for my view of birthdays. "Another year closer to death" I always say. But I don't mean in it in a negative way. Er... let me explain.
It's only a negative view depending on how you view death. Some see it as an inevitable end to the road. Other see it as simply life ending. Many see it as a horrible thing in general, hence this view towards my own view.
I, however, see death as a new road. You've already walked the familiar road of life, so now, we get to experience something unlike anything before. Death. We do not know what happens next. Some think Heaven. Others think Hell. Will we simply cease to exist, our consciousness on an indefinite hold? Or will we find ourselves in a new body with none of our prior memories? Who else is there? Is there a world after death, just like in life? Then what about a solar system? Or a galaxy? Or a universe? A death universe? Or, will it be off to the existence of haunting houses as a ghost?
When I say that I am a year closer to death, this is not me being suicidal or morbid. No, no, this is me being curious. Deadly curious. I'm so curious about what happens next, I could die!
But! I will not. I will enjoy every single day I have in this life, idly wondering about what will surely take me one day. For death, truly is inevitable. We're fragile creatures. Stepping off of a curb wrong can cause a break in our ankle, which can cause a clot, an infection, and subsequently spread through our body, killing us. So think about everything else we survive on a daily basis. By all means, I've been face to face with what should have been my own demise so many times, I'm almost certain my life won't flash before my eyes anymore. But I am still here. I managed to make it another year. And so, with this kind of life, I get to actively think, not "I'm dying tomorrow" or "This is it", but instead, that I am, in fact...
Another year closer to death.
