Climbing Out of the Pit · 11:48pm Oct 13th, 2019

I have so much I want to say, but my powers of articulation still haven’t caught up to the range of emotions that have been roiling through me since yesterday evening. It’s not really sadness; not anymore. Even with all the feels that yesterday brought out, I think it was more of a sense of hollow resignation. We knew it was coming. I knew it was coming. Do you know that sensation of anticipation that comes the night before a big trip or vacation? It was that except the emotions were reversed. There are innumerable recollections, send-offs, and farewells. I won’t try to follow them, but since this is my new outlet, I will toss a few bits out there.

When the book of Harmony and Friendship opened on Oct 10, 2010, the book of my old life closed, and a new one opened up to a brighter future.

Since the day I found all of this, I've connected with wonderful people who mean the world to me. I found my best friend through the pony community. The creativity of the fanfic writers inspired me to return to my own writing, and it's been an incredible journey rediscovering my lost love for creating. I still have my moments of melancholy and illogical anger, but they are far less common than they've ever been, and I owe that entirely to this show and this community.

The show urged me to try harder and be better. The fans inspired me to work on trying to emulate at least one Element of Harmony each day to the enrichment of my life and those I come into contact with every day. It was those little steps taken each day that turned me into the man that eventually managed to find my wife just two years after ponies stampeded into my life.

And how can I forget the most shocking parts of the epilogue episode? IF anyone hasn’t yet seen it, avert your eyes as Spotlight Splash from EQD mirrors my reaction.

I don’t care what your preferences are regarding character shipping or your opinions on same-gender pairings that are either confirmed or not. What I loved, and what sent me into an emotional state akin to pudding, was the looks on their faces. They’re happy. Regardless of what is actually going on behind the scenes, they're happy. And who doesn’t wish happiness upon everyone, regardless of your own thoughts and feelings? What kind of monster would you be if you don’t want these characters, who have gone through so much, to have the ending they wanted? You’d be joining the stone statue garden exhibit with Tirek, Chrysalis, and Cozy Glow. Personal feelings on decisions made by the show staff, I loved the ending.

The fandom permeates my life in some fashion every day. It did so starting eight years ago, and it will continue to do so far, far into the future. A future that would not have been possible without those six wonderful characters and the countless fans who will keep the fires of friendship burning brightly for future wanders like me to find when all other lights in their lives have darkened.