Venting, no biggie...

I never post, but I'm feeling pretty boxed in after losing my job.

I remember when social media used to be a safe space to rage post, but at my age it's inexcusable. Potential employers are all over those places like dung beetles, and friends are rare to comment on anything remotely controversial because of it.

It's like shouting into a void that can get you fired, or just prevent you from getting a job anyway. I've never considered myself one of the "whiney" crowd. BUT when I finally get pushed to the edge, I find the edge is crowded with a bunch of people that are like me, and disgust me. So what does that say of my self esteem, huh?

I say, I'm not nearly as smart as I thought I was, and I need to get over it. If I'm scared of posting my thoughts, I've probably been repressing a lot of shit. I need to swallow some if my own medicine and nut up.

But this is for you guys. Not them. You're my people. And I love you.

I'm getting better, I think. Well at least I'm trying.

Cheers