Masks

You may not see it but it's still there no ones seen me with out my mask yet they still pity what they don't know why is that? Is my mask still there or are you able to see through me time and time again? How do you see right through it even though I don't know how to remove it? That is all I have been asking my self. But is it true that some people can see right through your mask? Stop looking through my mask I am tired of being weak and defenseless! No matter what I can't get away from it. In my reality I am alone and hated for being different. Polydactyly doesn't make me an alien or a monster it makes me different even though you've never seen it I still see why I am treated like that. I avoid your eyes because it is weird and I am scared of what I will find. Those who accept me eventually are taken away or I lose them to the bullies. I try to smile and be strong for you all my friends but the more friend I lose the weaker I feel because I didn't do something right. I try to convince my self it was not my fault even though I know it is. That is why you will never get close to me but I keep smiling. As long as I have memories I will smile even though I wish I'd forget so I can lose the pain of being alone. I am weak I know I am but that doesn't mean I won't stand up for what is right. I just wanna cry I wanna show that I feel pain I wanna let out how I feel but I can't I need to keep the illusion up for now until I can show others that I am like them.

I am sorry for those who don't like things like this but I had to get this off my chest some how.