my take on impulse

More specifically my impulse control, and why I need to work on it

Hi, it'm ilp or iluv2pause that name was taken on my first account on the internet, but that's for another day. Today I would like to start a monthly blog to describe the things that either make me human or make me an incredibly TERRIBLE human, this is because I have a large amount of flaws, flaws that I know will not get better if I do not acknowledge them, and because what's better than sharing your flaws.... right?

Anyways imma get this started.

Impulse, a word to define in human nature an instinctual split-second decision based on the desire of instant gratification.

I am HORRIBLE about this, I let the things I want at the moment, cloud my knowledge of the things I need at all times,

A few examples are :exercise, what I eat, what I drink, and things I say.
Lets start with exercise, when the time comes for me to go to the gym, my first thought is to actively look for a reason not to go, i.e. tired, play games, read, stream(shameless plug)
When I eat, which is why I need exercise, I always choose the thing that tastes the best for me, then I get more, with no thought as to the outcome of this again, and again, and on and on and on...
i'm not old enough to, and I don't drink alcohol whatsoever, just putting that out there, I tend to drink what tastes best, and one of those things, is coffee creamer, I know, disgusting, but when I go to eat, I always end up drinking, and in both situations I never thought about it before doing, (yes I'm getting treatment)
I am gabber itself when it comes to conversations, this is a fact, I literally never and I mean NEVER filter what I say to people, and it has cost a lot of issues with people, many of which turned out as bad as they could be, all because the things I say and things I think, are literally one in the same, it just comes out and that's not a good thing, is've been told that I need to think before I speak so many times that it just sounds like background noise to a song nobody's listening to (points if you can guess what song that's from), my point here is that my decisions in my life are not life changing, these choices are more of the liking to legos, each piece you add on makes the problem bigger, and more lifelike, until it've created a monster.

So comments, what would be your monster and what would he be made of?