Apology.

Alright, so this is awkward...

Hi everyone! I'm not dead. For the twelve of you who follow me, this is great news! It also doesn't mean anything.

My absence can be attributed to a few things: School, life, video games, and spiraling depression.

My school life has been hectic, and I barely have enough of a break to type this out. On the positive side of that, my time in my English class has thoroughly improved my writing style. Adversely, my ability to plan things out and get them on paper is still shit.

My home life has been even worse. I really don't want to list any details, but we had to kick my grandfather out of the house, and there are family members who... don't have much time left. Shit's been breaking left and right, and OF COURSE, anything tech related that breaks gets redirected to the household IT Department. Me.

The breaks I have been getting, have admittedly been spent playing video games. This is a bad habit of mine. It really needs to stop. Please. Help. I haven't gone outside in three weeks. Not really, but you get my point.

And of course, the kicker. Depression due to ALL OF THIS. The realization of the fact that 90% of my time is spent on school, with another 10% in free time, which may or may not be subjected to takeover by my family and tech related issues. It's hard to stay positive with that kind of environment.

With all of that said, I would like to apologize. Not only to the twelve of you who may or may not have been patiently waiting for the next chapter of my ANYTHING to come out, but also to myself for not giving that content to you. The fact that I have not been using my brain in a constructive manner when I'm not using it in a constructive manner for school related things bothers me. Yes, I enjoy playing video games, but I enjoy progress so much more than that.

And now, I would like to thank YOU. Yes, you, reader. I would like to take this opportunity to thank you for the amount of my procrastinating, shitty writing, and scrapped ideas that you have endured through. The fact that a whole twelve people of whom I've never met are willing to deal with this for my sub-par writing skills is astounding. It's honestly one of the couple of reason's I'm still alive. I'm not going down that road, though. Don't worry, that fight is already won, as far as I'm concerned.

Finally, a status report:

I'm starting over. All of my previous story ideas are erased and gone. Fresh beginning, clean slate. I'm going to take my time, and not be as impatient as I was previously. Plan, write, revise, edit, revise again, proof-read, edit, revise once again, and POST. Get a base storyline set, and stick to that storyline. No more winging it to see what works. Everything I produce from this point forward will be more eloquent, structured, and neat. I plan to post only my BEST writing on this site from now on, and that's how I should have started. No person I know would want to read sub-par pieces of literature, so why would I supply as such? I'm aiming for the top. I may get shot down, but that doesn't matter. What matters is the goal, not the obstacles.

Aaand... that was all of my inspirational writing for the year. See you next year for the "Hey, I'm still not dead" post. All kidding aside, I'm seriously trying to be more active. It's just difficult.

Happy writings,

Strad.