That "best" friend (Rant) · 12:04pm Apr 7th, 2016
This is just a silly little blog post because, Arctic is feeling a little down in the dumps and feel the need to rant... feel free to ignore this.
Friends are something of an oddity. I love all of my friends, and im thankfull for each of them. But recently I realized something, I dont really have anyone I can call my "best" friend. I have had one in the past, during my childhood, most of us have a best friend during those times. But friends often grow on us with age, and so often out oldest friends are our best ones.
Most of us have had a "best" friend at one point or another in our lives. A person you can share anything with, and the feeling is mutual. That feeling that there is always someone that you can count on, and that they count on you just the same.
I moved around a lot as a kid. And now, I am on everyones number two, three or four when it comes to their priority list. Always an option, but never a priority. I have friends, I see as my best friend, but never their.
And this struck me because I started to think.... how many of my friends truly know me? And I realize that it was quite few of them, if any really. Im quite a closed off kind of person, always has been really. And I know that a lot of people have it the same way, its just when im with my friends, and I know that each and every one of them has their "best" friend, makes it scarier to talk to them about something... to share something with them, because I know that they have another person they do that with.
I still love all of my friends, and im reallt thankfull for each and every one of them... its just a thought that has been with me for a while....
Feel free to share if any of you guys have felt similar things or been in this situation.
I would be able to be much more empathetic if my best friend, who I've know since kindergarten, moved away, or her family did something to where I can no longer see her in person. But I have had this thought several times when said friend went away on long vacations, to were I didn't see her for several weeks.
Back when i was in first grade, i found a friend and we became best friends. After a few years, our interests changed, and after one get together, we just felt that we were more as just friends than best friends. Still, i do have someone else i call a best friend now. we hang out a bunch and try to find our way to school events together (like game night at our old school that our younger siblings still attend)(that was the most recent one)
((oh and arctic, i miss seeing you on discord, though i bet it's cause you don't have the time))
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((Yeah, I have been abseloutly swamped, sorry. Ill try to make it on if only a little bit every now and then))
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Thanks... needed that.
Hugs^^