Couple of things.

Twilight Sparkle needs to get out of my head. I have checklists for days, a long term goals list, and all kinds of anxiety about shit I need to do. The result is that I'm trapped and not doing anything. I don't blame her, I blame myself.

Yes I personify ponies and have them running around in my head. It helps me think and function. I may be crazy but it's kept me from doing worse things than talking to myself.

I'm almost out of food in the house again. I don't qualify for food stamps because my girlfriend gets almost 800 dollars in disability each month but having to pay off that court thing really fucked us for funds this month. I've got a 5pack of ramen, half a box of cinnamon toast crunch, 2/3rds of a half-gallon of milk, croutons, craisins, and two half-loaves of bread, plus a couple of jars of peanut butter, a jar of nutella, 4 cans of sweet corn, and two small jars of home-made grape jelly.

I also would like to get us both a new computer, which runs 1300 dollars for the parts for one that can handle what we need it to handle. I'm debating starting another gofundme page, but I don't know if that'll work out well, since I hate begging for money. The only reason I put up that one for court was it was my last chance to get the money or end up doing time in jail. Again, thanks to everypony from here who went and donated or passed the message along.

If anypony does one want to donate to me, my paypal address is [e-mail]

I'm also offering writing commissions at a penny a word for counts under 10,000 and growing discounts depending on how many words you want. Mostly just willing to do non-clop pony fiction. You can see examples of my work by reading any of the stories I've posted here. I'm also working on my novel but I can't really do a kickstarter for that since I plan to go through an agent. If the agent doesn't pan out then I /will/ do a kickstarter to self-publish in ebook and print format.

That's also why I haven't really been working on anything on here for a while, I've been trying to get that to a point where I can submit it to an agent, but I need 200 dollars to do it. I do have a "real" job but it kills my back so I can't work there that often. I am planning to be gone all day tomorrow working, but I would like to write for a living. I'd also like to draw better, but that's neither here nor there.

Anyway, that's the state of the Starshine. I'm always in the IRC chat, so just say my name and I'll see it, I get notified. I also leave this page open and check notifications every so often, and I'm always on my tumblr. My youtube channel can also be used to contact me if you would like.

Well, I'm off to organize some paperwork, do the dishes, and render the next episode of my Dead Space 2 Let's Play. If anyone has advice, wants to help, or anything, contact me. I don't bite, and I'm generally pretty easy going.

If you don't want to talk through any of those methods, my skype is terashell, just pm me on here as well so I know who's who.