ramble #1

ok so im going to have this here blog devoted to inane babble i can come up with when im in a crapposting mood.

ok?

ok.

dis will b updated wenevr i feel liek et.

all trash post go below:

ok so i was thinking, how's about we do a godhead version of bill cipher and yung venuz combined. it'll be wonderful. also i can't help but feel guilty wenever i do sad things to lenkar in my story. i mean yea bad crap happens, its a part of life, but i cant help but wonder if we're ever too harsh on our characters. like, is being sadistic then laughing it off a good thing or healthy for our storytelling? i never ever call it out because everyone just doesnt take it seriously. then again, i guess every kind of horrible garbage needs a place to rot. like this blog for instance. its a full run of paragraph. i mean sure i have periods, but good god is it inherently a wall of text. im not even indenting. lol. the fact i typed lol out here is interesting. anyway, i think i have been degrading mentally as of late. my memory is getting worse, im remembering less and less. i think i have early early early onset alzheimer's. is that a thing? idk. i also cant remember as many facts or info as i used to. i feel like an old person. then again, im seventeen, so i probably am. meh. also i really wanna do a changeling specific story at some point. im just not sure how or when. i was kinda saddened by how i depicted changelings in note. thatd be nature of the experiment btw. so everyone take note, but not really, because its my story. so gg. anyway, how about i shut up about all that and continue. ok, so, my conscience. ive been hearing it less and less. i am terrified of that. because what will happen. when i cant tell temptation from conscience. what if they suddenly both appear the exact same. and one day. i wont be able to tell which is which? it scares me horribly. yet i cant stop. so heres my question.

why?