Not Much to Say · 3:08am Oct 7th, 2015
I will be at the hospital for the foreseeable future... My Mother is having a major surgery that could take at most two days to complete... I'm a little on edge. But I'm trying not to thing about it, in fact my stomach only just started turning when I started typing. Okay let's face it. I'm scared guys, if something goes wrong... No she's in capable hands. SO I shouldn't worry, but this will put things in an even more grounded perspective than I already have. I am a twenty year old college dropout, that's still living with his parents, jobless and too lazy to do anything productive.
Lately my whole and seldom divided attention has been towards help my mother do the most menial tasks such as getting dressed or tying her shoes. And I'm kinda wanting it to stay that way. but during this time I've come to the conclusion that she isn't going to be here forever, and that it's time I grew up. I'm actively pursuing returning to college, getting a job, and eventually moving out, but not until I'm sure that my mother can fend for herself or if worse comes to worse, I know I have friends that I can rely on to pick me up should I fall. I'm not leaving this world until I'm good and ready to.
I'll be on to talk pretty much all day tomorrow so feel free to give me a distraction, maybe I'll finally get a story farther than the planning stage. Maybe.
All for now,
Debonair
3448957 shes out of surgury and being kept in icu for the rest of today and most of tomorrow. Even though shes awake and smiling it still broke me seeing her stuck in bed like that. The only thing i hate more than hospitals is seeing someone i care about in one.