Fimfics im looking for

(theres a few fimfics that i had read on googledocs(back when it worked for me)
im hoping at some point,someone might upload any of the following fics ether here,or on pastbin
the fics im looking for are:

BITTERSWEET

bittersweet is a really sad story of pinkie dying from dieabeetus,incase that helps

MY LITTLE ASSISTANT

my little assistant is a story where spike gets mad at twilight for saying he's not allowed to go out to see a movie,at wich point he yells the most notable line of the fic: "YOU'RE NOT MY MOM!!" before storming out,leaving twilight to cry

(theres also another fic,but i dont remember the name of it....the gist of it is,dash is in the hospital,the doctor reviels to the mane six it was attempted suicide,AJ isnt very suprized cus she helped dash from suicide when they were foals,it goes to a flashback thing where dash's dad beats her mom to death,then beats & rapes dash...dont worry,he gets arrested)

THE VINYL SCRATCH TAPES

vinyl scratch tapes is a great fic about vinyl & octavia hosting a radio show,slowly they quite obviously end up.....liking eachother,apperntly theres a second season of the series already(really,this is one of my fave fics ever)

ROCKET TO INSANITY

(im really amazed,theres like 2 or 3 sequel things on here of it,but noone has ever uploaded the actual fic)
rocket to insanity is a fic where dash has been having nightmares about the events in "cupcakes",she goes more & more insane until finally,she breaks,stabbing pinkie many times
(if someone uploads this,i would prefer you combine it with the alt ending where pinkie lives)

CUPCAKES

to make myself clear,im actually looking for one of the many sequels to it,the one im looking for is the one where rarity is the victim

if anyone ever uploads any of these ether here or to pastebin(or allready have) please,link me to it

.....sidenote: can anyone tell me how to set colors for words? i used diffrent color things for all the titles but none of them will change from the default color