In Absentia (A Poem)

In Absentia
By: TOBB

What have I now become?
My life is a visceral game of chess,
of which I have been the queen my entire life.
I can't even remember the light,
yet I fought so hard to become
the one who I am today.
Yet now that I have arisen
my soul has died.

For within my blood stained hands,
I am riddled with the screams of those I slayed.
Their tears stripped me of thought
so that I may rise above the rest.
As I climbed the ranks I
left a trail of blood
that consumes all that it touched.

And now the sun burns me,
so I shrink away into the night.
I've become a monster
no longer welcome in the world of the light.
While I have tried to block out the screams
they're seeped into my dreams
and I can no longer ignore them
while I pray for reprieve.

There is no solace from them
they will come to haunt me all my life
because I wanted to become more.
These machines around me
they grind in my brain
and strip away
the soul I once contained.

I have fallen pray
to those lies that consumed my dream
and manipulated me into this.
I want to break away
to free myself from their evil chains
yet even if I will
what difference will it make?