Depression's coming back

Hey guys. I know I said my Hiatus was over, but lately when I've been writing, drawing, or even trying to make a game commentary I found myself... strained... I don't like to worry you, but I have a problem with depression, sometimes even bordering suicidal thoughts... I'm going to try to get out of this slump, but I won't be able to work on two fics a day like that one fluke.
Also, I'm considering leaving the clop fic business, it's not as fun for me to write as my other story driven fics, so after five or so more chapters on the Lavender Dust fic I'll possibly pull out of clop fics completely, reading or writing. Clopping is for Tumblr if you ask me, FiMFiction is far more civilized than that, but reading some of the comments on my only clop fic made me feel like I was on 4Chan with pretweens who don't do anything but review others content instead of making their own.
(Here's where my inner Raven kicked in)
And here's another thing I want to bring up, if you sincerely don't like my fics, then why tell me? If they're not enjoyable, then why waste your time replying to it as if you can do better? If you can do better, why bother commenting when you can write your own fic and get praise for your good work?
Maybe you can do better, maybe you can't. If you can, go write that fic, become better than me, I dare you! If you can't... then don't waste my time with your self pity and find something that tickles your fancy better than my fics.
(And here's where Hour came in)
But there are thousands of users on this site, thousands of creators, and hundreds more sites just like this for creators and fans alike. I'm not the only creator here, and I rather my fans make something with their lives instead of let self pity pull them down or put others down because they feel bad... I don't want you to make my mistakes... I want you to be better than me one day, and when one day I'm reading your fic and I see how amazing you can be, I and my many OCs will all have smiles on our faces and be proud to say you are a creator.
(Back to Mic)
Might as well take this last few lines to tell you this weeks plan (if I don't butcher it later).
Monday: Start (and hopefully finish) chapter two of Ghastly - The Inverse Twins
Tuesday: Work on a quick Bio for my OC's in case any of you needs a spare background character in your work.
Wednesday: Continue work on the series premiere of Raven.
Thursday: Restart Daughter of Time by writing the series premiere from scratch
Friday: make some sort of Minecraft Gameplay Video.
Saturday: Write Chapter Two of False Front: Sunlit's Choice