I......don't know what to say....

So recently, I went to Vegas and was gone for quite a noticeable time. I got back with a shiny medal around my neck and the first thing someone said to me.

"Francis? Where were you? I thought you killed yourself."

Wow......let's rewind that to a few days ago....

Before I left, I was very depressed to the point where I could.....do that and I left a message to tell my friend that if he can tell my other friend to say that I'm going to miss her. He asked where I was going but I said not much and left the phone and went to the road the next day.

Now back to where we left off.

At lunch, I decided to see my friend and the moment she saw me, she ran up to me and gave me the strongest bear hug. Then scolded me of making her thought I committed suicide, the way she said it made me want to apologize dearly (which i did).

After school, I asked her why she looked sad earlier this morning even that I heard she was acting normal as usual at my absence. She said she wasn't. Well, it didn't look like it to me...

Right now, I'm starting to have mixed feelings for her now. Pity, affection, longing, something in that line. I used to like her back last year but it's starting to come back. Maybe this can be my second chance, to start all over of this insanity. Now my heart beats harder then ever, my body warmed by her affectionate hug. Just, don't know what to say.........but help.

Comments

[monsterlord18]

sounds like someone's in love

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2561952

[monsterlord18]

2562115 what?

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2562243
It's so complicated....

[monsterlord18]

2562727 oh?

[AmethystFire]

Intriguing for something to happen like this. monsterlord18 has a point, but I can understand that it's a complicated situation.

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Well, she was my friend I mentioned a long time ago.

my year-long friend, when I first met her, we didn't get along that much but as months roll over I buttered up on her. We were great friends, we learned more of each other. I was her protector. It breaks me as one my other friends asked her out once (he was rejected). She helps me when I'm in depression and comforts me, she's kind. She's a huge fan-girl of Naruto and is immersed to creepy-pasta, I gave her a special gift at her birthday. A home made replica knife that I called Rapislash. She's the reason I'm not suicidal and have many friends now. Without her, I would've been a dark individual who lashes out at people, I would've hate fun if she hadn't came to my aid.

2562873

It's complicated because she's my friend. I don't think she thinks of me that way...to her, just a friend she nicknamed "Cuz". Not to mention if I ever tried to ask her out, everybody would have different opinions about me (mostly bad) and I can't get through to being bullied again.
Plus, I was a huge @sshole when I knew her a year ago, she doesn't forget. And some other more things.

[AmethystFire]

2563154 Aw!

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2563173
That's why it's complicated...she was one of the only people who actually care for me.

[AmethystFire]

2563596 *Warm cyber hug* There there

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2565138
Thank you...

I wrote a song of her.

[AmethystFire]

2565265 Awwwwwwww