Jun
1st
2012
I don't know anymore · 4:07am Jun 1st, 2012
Can't explain it, but I feel like shit again. Those thoughts of "I'm useless" and "I'm a pathetic fuck-up" are back in force. Don't know why I can't shake it, but it's real easy for me to say no one gives a shit about me. Family says it because they're family and friends don't mean it, at least, 99% of the time they don't care. I keep saying I'm lying to myself, but I don't really know which one is true at the moment. I apologize for any sad thoughts this causes, even though ain't no one gonna see this.
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Bud i can tell you i sufferd depresson in my teenage years but i live by one thought think of anyone one on earth from the humble kid with a low income family makeing a change for the world. Me myself i grew up with my Mom and alcholic step father he was never physicaly abusive but mental scars never heal after a devorce my Mom has opend her own business and I'm on my way for renting out an appartment never under value your self the world has endless opertunities you just have to put the will power into finding them
~your understanding brony Corey Skidmore
P.s I'm writing this on my phone after working 15 and a half hours i hope everything turned out right. Talk to you tomorrow also if you ever want my phone number just pm me when I'm not working if you need some one human to talk to I'm here
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My folks divorced when I was one; I've never seen them happy together. They've both told me not to think it, but I will always think it's somehow my fault. I also have a feeling that, even if he doesn't say or show it, my dad is disappointed with me for not being good at anything useful.
I'll be fine. I don't know why I ended up feeling like that last night, but I'll be fine. Eventually.
Actually, I think I know what it is. Like I said, I've never been good at anything and before you say it's an excuse, I've tried a lot of different things and have failed miserably at them all, but I learned if you're not good at something incredible: sports, playing instruments, singing, writing, then no one care about ya. That may be morbid and cynical, but it's what life taught me. And while, yes ponies did help, 5-10 years of a certain thought process will win out over 1 year of happy, colorful singing ponies.
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Dude I cant even begin to understand what your going through but im here for you man. Don't think that noone care because that's not true. You're the coolest guy ive met since I became a brony. Ive had those times when you fell the world wont stop shitting on your head but instead of tearing yourself apart alone hit one of us up. Ill send you my number to so you cant text me whenever you want. Feeling that way sucks but keeping it in makes it worse. We're here for you, that's what friends are for.
P.s. I saw your new sketches and you're improving.
you should download draw something and we can practice and have fun at the same time!