People Who Pretend To Be Suicidal For Attention Or To Look Cool · 12:50am May 4th, 2014
I was in my math help group since I'm not what they would call genius (in that category, at least) and we had to partener up for an assignment. I'm pretty shy, so I ask to be partners with a girl I had gone to elementary school with. Her name has been changed for her own protection, though I highly doubt any of you guys would break a law or something (WWPD), but nontheless I will call her Tiara. So, I partnered up with Tiara. I was talking to her about music and such. Then, she changed the topic. She pointed to the hospital bracelet around her wrist, and said, "I drank bleach last night. They had to pull it out of my blood. It hurt like He**." I nodded, totally concerned. Now, I do not like this girl, but I'm not the type of person that would think that was "awesome" as some others might.
Then, she grabbed the scissors I was using, and opened them the whole way, and began rubbing the blade agaisnt her wrist. She wasn't trying to cut herself, but it was still weird to watch. After some time, she just cried out, "I almost died, and I liked it." she said multiple prhases like this, leading up to the end of class. Needless to say, I was glad to leave.
Now, her actually bragging about this, like it was cool readlly bothered me. Reason number one, I knew several people who'd commited suicide, or commits self-harm. I have an older brother name Brandon, who's wife committed self harm, and some of my best friend's relatives committed suicide. So, I was really annoyed about this. Suicide and self-harm and depression is not something to take lightly. Certainly not something to joke about. When I told one of my firends like this, she told me a story. Here it is (I copy and pasted it because I emailed her); "Thats dumb. Especially since I know a girl, Katherine, who was being threatened. These older boys were telling her to commit suicide, and she almost did. She slit her wrists or something like that, and her mom found her almost dead in the bathroom. She called an ambulance after that."
After hearing that, I was really annoyed with Tiara. I really wish she wasn't such an idiot. And,s eh kept bragging about how she's all depressed or something. This bothered me. Mostly because I really am depressed. Born with this disease that doesn't let me feel love. I guess you could call it sociopathy. I think its actually called Adonisis--its a depression of sorts, and it doesn't last forever. But, I try not to go around telling everyone that (Oh, and now I'm posting it online). And this is because I hate it. Because, since I can't feel love, I can't be....Like everybody else. Erhg. Off da subject.
So, yeah. Thsi really annoyed me. A lot.
And, for the record, this all really did happen.
Yea she just wants attention. No one drinks bleach to commit suicide. That was originally just a joke. If you do you're a complete moron it would take a lot, and take at least 12 hours to kill you. You can't just pull bleach from your blood. You would have to do a complete blood transfusion to do anything near that. I have a history a brutal self harm, and you don't go around bragging about it, or showing it off as it's really embarrassing. The people that do have have tiny superficial wounds that are just for show. Anyways confrontation is a good way to stop her behavior. If it continues to bother you just say listen I know people that have committed, or tried to commit suicide, or done self harm, and that her talking about it makes you feel uncomfotable. As for your inability to feel love, I think you are most likely suffering from depression because symptoms vary drastically from person, to person feeling depression, but the suppression of emotions, or the inability to feel is very common. Just remember that teenage years can be tough. Your body is going through many physical, and psychological changes, and chemical imbalances are normal, and also the cause of depression most of the time. Hang in there, and just be honest with her, and yourself, and she will most likely respect your boundries. If not, then find someone else to work with. Good luck!