i might or i might not...

i might or i might not continue posting what goes in my head into stories. everything has played out in my mind as if it were a movie. but i guess i don't translate well into stories. i originally started posting because i believe that you shouldn't criticize someone else's stuff unless you had something to show yourself. i guess i'm fair like that. but don't mind me if i start swearing towards the end of this... and i'll try to keep it to select swear words and repeat them so there's not a whole list of swears piling up. i might not even make any sense in this post.

i have these stories, for my own self anyway. in my own little my little pony timeline that goes side by side with the show itself. i've explained it before in a different blog post. i know i've vented before. but it's not like anyone reads this. especially those who email me telling me how awful i am as a writer. i'm a chef/baker. my mind is also warped and i can understand that some people might not see things the way i do.

but it shocks me at how negative people are. or rude if they don't like particular things.

keep in mind i am really nice. and i can be like "ohhh this person isn't that great in english because he/she may be in a different country this is still a decent story i like it". or i still excuse that fact that they are from somewhere else but i highly dislike it. or someone telling me that i'm not that descriptive. but other people really are like "timmy woke up. timmy got out of bed and played with his friend." but there are a lot of positives and all that other crap. if i write something like that people say ummm yay he woke up. oh good he got out of bed. he played with his friend? what did he do?

here is an example. i pulled someone's whole first chapter only because i didn't know which part to show off completely. i am not giving what the title is or who wrote it. or hmmm... let me check the other two. no. nevermind. i'm lazy to switch tabs.

okay. ugh. i'm such a lame-o. it took me 30 minutes to find this story before even hitting "New Blog" to feeling bad that i'm posting someone else's work on here to say how much i want to bang my head against something hard when i read it.

but i'll give people this. instead of just writing a comment they just private message me negative shit without even an encouraging hey this is how you fix your shit if you want to try it that way.

i'm thinking maybe i should just be like those people.

For the one story i started posting aspired by the game Clue:
yeah someone said i don't do a great job because the sex scenes are too short and not that descriptive... first of all buddy, there's only so much you can do with different couples in the same story. second of all, you don't need a long extended thing to read to "get off". thirdly, you write a better fucking scene.
i don't exactly have anymore sexual fantasies because i've done pretty much everything (i don't do the peeing or pooping or animals in bed). however, i'm open minded about everyone's preferences. i'm an active voyeur. i don't really care what you do. it doesn't phase me. i have best friends who are in the industry. a couple dominatrix chics, a couple go go dancers, mmmm the burlesque performers. and i can honestly say i dated a stripper (she became one mid relationship). and damn. i am kid number 4 out of 5 and my parents told all of us how we were conceived and i'm the kuma sutra baby. and i'm a lesbian so i know what lesbians do in bed. i'm not a gold star lesbian. i've had sex with guys. ugh frustration.

For the original story posted. that's where i got most of all the negative mark downs and emails. mmmmmm shut the fuck up. i don't care what you think. and i don't care that you don't care that i wasn't ever going to post a story ever but someone copy and pasted my shit here and i had it written more movie format so they didn't translate it that great. but yeah... i accepted all the crap from it and i'm proud of my crap because i did it. if i do shit that's wrong i own up to it.
and apparently it's a troll fic. whatever.

ugh. nevermind. i wont continue to bitch considering what time it is.
so the conclusion still hasn't happened. to continue posting or not to post. it doesn't really matter. but i do really want to live in a positive world. you live longer if you smile. being let down and disappointed kills you faster. i'd rather not be like that.

~Migz