Why did the good times half to die?: A rant on my DA account ban, and how i could have prevented it. (Contains: a lot of wining and angst, you might not pull through)

Mood: Does wanting to die count?
Reading: Nothing
Listing to: Mother (Tori Amos)
Watching: PBS Kids
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing

Ok, i know i already made a blog about me getting banned from Deviant Art for doing what i love, making Fan Fiction for everyone to enjoy. But now im going to give my full analysis on the matter. Like, why did the good times end so much. And to do this the right way, i need some background music, *points to guy backstage* "You, insert my Tori Amos Little Earthquakes cd into the disc drive, track 9, dont play unless i say so." Ok, we shall begin,

(Music plays)

Ok, here we go, why did i half to be cut down in my prime like that? why?!. It makes no sense, yes i made pony erotica, and im sure God is frowning upon me or whatever divine being is up there. But really, i know that this was my fault (HEAR THAT ~Snarky-Snarky! I TAKE RESPONSIBLY FOR MY ACTIONS!) and i know that i did not read said rules in there integrity. I did read them once, but i had to do something so i only had a briefing. As stated above, on my many list of haters there a guy by the username of ~Snarky-Sharky. He is nothing but a troll who whrites long ass comments explaning why "you fail at life". And according to him, i "Blame everything on my ADD medication." well...I DONT! I FUCKING DONT, HEAR ME PRIVATE!?!?! IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGG DDDDDDDDDDDDDOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!! *building explodes*

I take full responsibly for my actions, because im a mature person unlike some people. My dad was in the Air Force and my mom has a high stress job being a nurse. I have been raised to know that in life, if shit hits the fan, and you did something to cause it, you have to suck it up and take one for the team. Yes i overreact, yes i take a Medication for my ADD and without it i don't function properly. But there is a difference between the two, see. Adderall XR (Extended Release) 30 Milligram medication is an artificial drug created by Human Beings to make people like me be accepted in society, It has no brain and is lifeless. Human Beings are creatures in the Animal Kingdom in the classification of Mammals. We have brains and we rise and fall based on our choices in life. So, when blaming something i caused i always blame myself. Because a pill i take everyday is not the cause, its not like someone takes the pill and says "Well im on Adderall im going to fuck up my life." because if that was the case, i would be living in ether a cardboard box, a homeless shelter, or a prison.

So i know what i did was stupid, and i want to kill my soul for knowing i could have prevented all of this. Because if i had just left Love and Bondage and Flutter Fire on here, i would still be on Deviant Art, and i would still be happy and making fan fiction. And to my fans, please log on more here so i can have people to talk to. People who actually love me and read my work. You know, maybe i should just give up entirely!.

I may never write a another story again. Because why devote my time to something no one loves?. Few people like my work for a reason, it sucks. I have lost my joy writing, and it can only be restored when i get my Deviant Art ban lifted.