MLP has helped me deal with my stupid friends.... · 7:57am Jul 24th, 2013
My friends? Where do I start? Hm... Lets start with the Good Friends and ease in to the bad ones. I only have two good friends. They are the only ones that I can count on by supporting me. Meaning that I care about them, they care about me. I don't have to worry about them. About them hurting themselves or worse. They are the only ones that help me on my sad days. They aren't selfish.
Now, that's all on my Good Friends. Time for the Bad Friends. Oh, where do I begin? Let's start here. I have this weird way of befriending these self harming people. And what I mean by that is they like to hurt themselves. Cutting, scratching, killing themselves, over dosing on pills. They do this because they think it's the only way to make sense of the painful world. But since I began to care about them like a REAL friend would do, I get hurt by them doing this. The worst part of it is that they tell me this crap and expect me to not care. They care about themselves... And no one else. I feel like I'm standing in front of them watching them kill themselves, And I can't do anything about it... I'm always having to put up with it... They are the only people that actually want to hang out with me. But when they do, they ditch me! I care to much. I'm always worrying that they might kill themselves or over dose... I'm always scared for their lives, I think I'm the only one that cares for them.... And you know... It gets tiring. I'm going to turn in the the crazy shadow friend sitting in the corner crying 24/7 at school.. Cause my friends have turned me in to that... And guess what... I'M THIRTEEN! I DON'T NEED THAT! I don't need anymore suffering. Sooner or later, one more friend who helps with my suffering I'm going to go crazy. I'm suppose to be the pinkie pie, that makes everyone happy! But when I learn I can't, I suffer. I die inside a little each time... And I watch my MLP FiM and learn that friendship IS magic, and I don't deserve these type of friends... I know I deserve better, but I bother not looking for better friends. And I think this is the end of my little blog of how I hate my friends... Than you for reading and thank you for bothering with my crappy social life... :-)
