I feel like a hypocrite, and I appologize · 1:21pm Jun 14th, 2013
I've already said this on DeviantART so I don't intend on going into full detail here. The fact is that I haven't exactly lived up to the ideals of FiM in the first place. Yes, I still hold my negative, caustic views towards reality, that spin off, and my worries about Season 4, but I shouldn't go around voicing them like I have. I've repeated the same worries again and again ad nauseum to those I've considered friends.
But the thing is this, although I'm willing to listen to their problems too (and hoped they would vent to me if they're having a bad day) I didn't make it clear enough that this was the case, and I mistook the concept of talking to them completely. I would talk to them about issues that I was having every time that they arose, sometimes EVERY DAY, and they would be similar to, if not the same as, the issues from the day before.
Fact is this: Friends are NOT psychiatrists. They're not there to listen to every last problem one has. Yes, you can tell them about problems you're having, but not to the inexcusable amount that I have. I have no right to talk to them about things that they feel are so depressing that they get sad merely by hearing it, nor should I ever go around repeating the same problem until they're sick of hearing from me at all. It's a waste of their time, and I have wasted much of their time.
Assuming that I talk to them for 1 hour, just one (and this is shorter than the amount of time I've talked to them on a daily basis, I'm sure of it), every day for the past three months (roughly assuming 1 month = 30 days) that means that I've wasted a good week and a half of their time (and that's assuming I only talked to them for one hour per day).
A week and a half.
Per person...
Inexcusable, as far as I'm concerned right now.
That said, with all the drama and worry from the fandom and myself over FiM, and the fact that I feel like a hypocrite for having said that I wanted to follow the morals of this show and then didn't, I'm going to call this:
Until further notice, as far as I'm concerned, FiM ended, completely, at the Season 3 finale.
That's it.
Unless the show goes away from the route that I hope it does avoid, and that spin off doesn't go anywhere and ends with Twilight back in Equestria as an alicorn again, and I somehow manage to fix the damage I've done when it comes to venting my problems on others, I'm staying away from it for a while (potentially a very long time).
I'm not done with it though; I still have a story to write on here, and I don't intend on forgoing fan art creation either, but it'll be at a reduced rate.
For what it's worth, I am sorry for all the damage I've caused, and I honestly miss the days when FiM was still fun.