Being Different · 11:05pm Jun 6th, 2013
Today I was watching Brony Curious Replies and at the Fanfics and originality question what he said resonated with me, he said to the effect that one 'shouldn't try to be different' they should try to be good. I couldn't believe how dense I was being because the reverse is what I kept in mind in accordance with my fic When Rainbows Fade. I had been excited at the idea of this story when it first came to me and was even more so at the release of my first chapter but to my dismay, later on after I had been perusing EQD, I found that someone else had come up with a similar idea and was receiving more recognition, it was because of this that I felt less than motivated to release a second chapter and fell into idle-minded laziness. A lot of times I tend to be this way, I don't want to pursue something someone else had first, I wanted to stand out and be admired for being brilliant and original but you can't always have it both ways. Sometimes I had even quit on things completely because not only was someone else doing it but they were better at it, this is utterly wrong. The reason I partake in something shouldn't be because I want to receive substantial amounts of recognition and admiration but because its what I love and I'm passionate about it, and it took sometime for me to realize this. I love to write and it feels even better when someone acknowledges it and gives it a positive review, teachers fawning over my essays had always made my day, but that alone shouldn't be my drive, I can't write to please others or my superficial tendencies it has to come from the creative side of my mind that lets the wackiest of ideas flow. If I ever want to become great I need to let go of my envious and disdainful perceptions despite how hard it is, I want to be remembered and glorified but I can't let that corrupt what makes me feel closer to who I am. I have to thank Brony Curious for making me realize what does matter when it comes to my self expression, it doesn't matter who sees what I've done, the important thing is that it matters to me.
Glad I could help. ^_^