Why... · 8:26pm Mar 8th, 2013
AAAAGH there are so many people I know that are depressed and sad whether off or online and I was always considered a Pinkie Pie and I always wanted my friends to smile even when I hide my sadness because I would be nothing without my friends. But what happens when you see them slip into a worse state no matter what you do YOU feel like a failure all I wanted was them to be happy and to make them smile a BUT I FAILED. I don't know what to do anymore I feel myself slipping into my own pit of darkness but I can't. I have bad days or angry days but I always bounce back the next day. I can always recover and get back to helping my friends because I know I can't stay angry forever. But when nothing you do makes your friends laugh or smile you slip into and never ending darkness. I have seen the symptoms of my stress it started with the headaches and pain but it's invading psychologically. I think I am hitting a party of one but I don't want to slip that far. I have a few friends who keep me going there but they seem to only prolong it. One of those friends is Cobalt Dawn. No one knows what goes on in my head and it's always better that way if I ever let out my stress or sadness people tell me I whine to much or others have worst lives but they don't know my life fully or before I know there are worst lives than mine and frankly most of those people don't fair much better. I fare so well with stuff to look forward to and Cobalt don't worry about me it's not your problem as I said before I never say these things out loud because honestly you guys no me but you don't really care and you don't really worry which makes me feel better seeing that I can vent and if one of these days I snap or die no one here would be worried or care I would just seem like an inactive member and after awhile I'd just be forgotten. It makes sense I've done nothing here to remember by, no stories or anything. Luckily I don't think that day is anytime soon I hope... I'm just glad to get this off my chest. Twizzle you made me realize this hehe reading the blog I finally realized everyone falling to darkness. I want to help but can't and it's rebounding. I know nothing I have is worst than what's going on with you I don't think so I hope you get better too.
Pinkie Pie took more than a day to make that mule guy smile.
900414 Lol she is the professional you know. Again just venting something I just needed to get out I feel better now.