it's just everything · 7:38pm Mar 8th, 2013
I know that my story is not that good but it is just that I want to live in my story world for the rest of my life and forget my human life , I know it does seem quite sad but it is how I feel from what has happened to me so far. But first off I know a lot of people hate me here on fimfiction and no-one will not end up reading this blog post, I am only posting this because I cannot talk to anyone else about this. I find that it is such an effort to get up out of bed everyday and that I want to be asleep for the rest of my life like I mentioned at the start of this post because mlpfim is probably the reason as to why I am writing this message and being here at all, no it is the reason. You see I am not very good at making friends as most of them have left so I have been alone for quite some time now. I feel bad because I kinda made friends with someone on fim fiction. But first off I kinda talk a little to deeply about things , like the pressures of life and how hard it can seem at times as I have experienced that not a lot of people do not like to talk about this subject. Anyway I sent him a present and I have heard no word back from him (hope he is okay). It has been quite a while since I have discovered mlp and Have enjoyed most of the episodes, I just think one day(or night) I will fall asleep and I will be happy forever and wake up in Equestria. I spend most of my time sleeping because of that little hope. For along time Things have not felt real. I have failed at a lot of things in my left and the negative feedback has hinder me into doing and seeing the point in anything all I want to do is go to bed. It is not that I want to get out of this habit , it is simply that I can't , my body won't let me, my parents won't let me . It is wierd it is like I don't want to do anything, but for some reason , my body wants to just do things. I never meant to hurt anyone and for anyone to have the intention to block me or ignore, it is just that I really lonely and want to look for people to talk to . I know the gramer in my story is really bad and have not incentive in fixing it. I have seven chapters up , I might tell some ideas of the story in the next plot.
There really is nothing left for me I just live for the sake of it
Okay that is my first blog post.
Hey, I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a rough spot in your life. I won't be crass and pretend to understand what you're going through, because I'm not you, and I'm not experiencing what you're experiencing. That doesn't mean however that I can't have compassion for you. You should try this: rebuke the negative thoughts and doubts and uncertainties and tell yourself something contrary to it. Positive reinforcement. Create small goals to achieve, for by the achieving of many small goals, a big goal is achieved. There is no one in the world like you. There never was before you and there never will be after you. You have value. You have something to contribute. Great men are not born great, great men are made because they act, and contributed something of themselves. Seek out your own happiness, and not the perceived happiness of another, for you deserve to be happy. Hang in there, I'm rooting for you.
Peace,
AuthorGenesis