Struggling

Unfortunately I have been very unlucky with friendship, and not too long ago I lost what was my most important friendship for 9 years.
At this point I'm just wondering if there is something seriously wrong with me, because I keep losing people, even when things seem going in the right path.

My social anxiety has made it extremely difficult to get people to be interested to be my friend, and if I can't reach anybody, I'll probably be alone for the rest of my life. I have done things so there are hopes for me to make or keep friendships, but everyone disappears from my life eventually.
It is genuinely haunting how some people who I've been with for a long time suddenly stop talking to me, respond rudely to anything I try to ask or just hate me all of a sudden, and I will never know why.

I've got very few people to talk to nowadays, not even my family has got time or energy for it. My only chances to fix this are inevitably reaching out to someone, and it may work, it may not, but I have been doing this for years, and it has gotten to the point where it's depressing.

I was hesitating to make this Blog post, since I am new to this place despite creating this account in 2022, but sometimes I can't take it, and apparently nothing I do works.