I had a bad day. · 10:10pm Dec 18th, 2012
So, today was one of the worst days i've had in a long time.
First, I came into school 3 hours late.
I missed a japanese quiz, so i guess i'll be retaking that afterschool.
I came right in the middle of my 3rd block, health.
I missed all of the notes I had to take, and now my favorite teacher hates me.
Then, I went to 4th block, In which I was expecting a pizza party, which would brighten up my day.
Turns out, i'm the only one who brought money, so we didn't have that.
Then, I had a Biology test, which I was told by the teacher was extremely easy.
She hadn't covered any of the topics in class, so i'm pretty sure my B- in that class will drop drastically.
Second, I had weight lifitng.
It's usually the highlight of my day.
Not today, which was one of the most depressing experiences of my life.
First, I whacked my head on a weight lifting bar during warm ups, giving me a headache.
Later, when everyone made groups, I didn't have one.
I forced my way into a group of my "Friends" who apparently don't like me.
We were doing max squatting, the thing that i'm the best in my weight group at.
I was only at 135, basically nothing for me.
I did it with ease, and then the coach said my form was wrong, and I needed to squat deeper.
I did, and fell.
I pushed all of my weight on to the back of my calves, collapsing them.
I basically threw the bar up, almost whacking one of my spotters.
The spotter behind me (he weighs roughly 70 pounds less than me) grabbed the bar in one hand, and me in the other, then returned both to their right positions.
Oh, and I may have forgot to mention this.
This was in front of 50 other kids, all people who hadn't met me before, and upperclassmen that i'll be on the same team with next year.
I can tell I left a great first impression.
and lastly...
One of my friends was doing his max, about 170 squatting.
He went all the way down, his butt almost touching the ground. (Not a good thing, usually.)
He seemed to be struggling, and the coach said "hup!"
I thought he said "help", so i lifted one of the bars with all my strength, eager to show everyone i'm not a weakling.
He actually meant "up", so my friend was trying to stand up.
He collapsed, and I almost killed him.
And now, I have 10 days of math homework to do.
I.
Am.
Not.
Happy.
And Alex, relax.
I'm going to do it now.
TLDR version;
My feels
Was it worse then mine? I've been holding my head all day praying to anything that will listen for the pain to go away. I have work to be done on the computer for someone but can't do it due to my left eye being so light sensitive that looking at the monitor for more then 1-2mins forces me to stare at the ground for 10-15mins waiting for the pain to subside so i can work again.
Sorry to hear you had a bad day but yea... at least your not me right now.... I'd trade this pain to be in a body cast instead
Dayum.
And I thought turning in my math HW late was bad...
625662
You have no clue how F*CKING depressed I am right now.
You know what?
Screw it.
I'm FUCKING depressed.
625639
I don't know.
I... can't say i've had a day THAT bad... well unless you count fighting the entirety of year 8 because they can't learn to fight 1 on 1 like the cowards they are and ending up with an almost cracked rib, but then again i'm too young to have shit like you have to happen to me
625691
closest i've had to an experience like that is fighting 6 "friends".
I almost broke 2 noses.
Not mine.
625623
Thanks alex.
I fucking knew that.
625670
I would gladly trade you. your day only lats one day my pain has lasted a week now. So people will think your weak. That means you'll show more improvement. Now my head hurts again and i forgot what I was saying... either way tomorrows another day.
Okay, actually read the blog post now that it haz words...
Holy shit in hell I've only had three days like that ever!
Just damn, dude...
Damn Indeed.
625716
I don't think you understand.
Imagine the thing that you're best at.
Your cutie mark, if you will.
No one else in the world is as good at it as you.
Now, imagine while doing the most easy thing in that skill, you screw up, big time.
In front of a crowd, with little self-confidence. (the only confidence I have is in squatting. It's the only thing I was good at.)
Also, you almost just killed one of your best friends.
Now, Squallock.
How do you feel?
Do you feel good?
Or do you feel like any amount of physical pain couldn't amount to the pain you just felt.
Because I sure feel like the second.
625718
Yeah.
625725
writing and art are my 2 things. I have not been able to writing anything for 10 years now. My art has suffered so badly that it's not even worth bringing up. I've been called a failure most of my life. I've been told everything I do i fail at. Everyone fails even at the things they're best at because no matter how good you are someones better.. Besides it's not like it's the end of the world, that's on Friday then today wont seem so bad.
625793
I'll reply my condolences when I stop being a worthless ass.
Or at least, when I feel i'm not a worthless ass.
625725
Meh I screw up a lot, in front of loads of people, in front of a few, get my ass handed to me, almost break my best friends neck with a chair, you know the usual in my area, hasn't really affected me much though, then again lack of empathy and autistic tendencies really lower the emotional score
625832>>625793
Dammit guys!
Stop having awful lives!
(That's sarcastic, in case you didn't know. I have to put this here because of Alex. Long story.)
625840
Nah i don't have a terrible life, I'm just a bit unlucky that's all, and alex, STOP STEALING MY NAME
625849
I didn't get the last part.
AND TO EVERYONE:
I'M OVER MY BAD DAY NOW.
I'LL GO BACK TO NOT BEING A DOUCHEHAT.
625856
Wait which one is alex?
625866
Xaxalot2774
625803
don't feel bad for me. It all helped me become who I am now and gave me insight to life that others wouldn't think of. In my mind the only worthless people out in the world are the ones who keep the cycle of hate going and being happy with the work they've done.
I've talked to a lot of people since 2003. Most of them were depressed or had other issues that lead them to thinking they were worthless. To be honest I know some of them were doing it just for the attention but.I'm sure there was at least 2 of those people that I was the last one to speak to them...If you truly want to feel worthless then try talking to someone who wants to end their life try to get them to chose to live and fail at that. Because of that I went down that dark path myself. I even have a scar on my wrist from that time. either way by now i lost my train of thought and nobody survived (need to put new safety stuff on those things) so since i can't think of anything else. have a hug.
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625895
Leotard?
What the hell?
You squat in a tshirt and shorts!
625888
I'm almost positive i'm not entirely worthless, that just comes out occasionally.
Especially when i'm "depressed"
I'll explain my and leaf's usage of that term:
We use it when we're sad, and we can't get happy.
We get angry, and we don't know why.
So no, we don't try to kill ourselves, it hasn't gotten that bad yet.
(Well, once for me, but I talked myself out of it)
(And I dunno about Leaf. He seems always happy.)
I used to be good at squatting, but i'm not really now.
i'm not unintelligent, so i have that going for me.
I too tried to keep a friend from killing himself, and also failed.
Luckilly, someone else stopped him.
And as for that hug...
*hug*
625945
Huh?
In high school, you wrestle in shorts and a t shirt.
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This is 2 wrestlers from my school.
AND WHO THE HELL IS KEITH?
625965
The hell is wrong with you?
625965
Oh, Keith Hart.
silly canadians.
625977
Alex,
*Punches you in the neck*
Shut the hell up.
625983
Good!
*Kicks you in the shin*
625999
...
Fine.
626016
WHO THE FUCK IS CODY?!?!?
AND,
*Shoots you in the kneecap*
626038
So why the hell are you on his fiction?
And if you have a gun near you, please shoot him in the other kneecap now.
Oh wait!
It was you who suggested that!
*Shoots you in the kneecap*
626058
WHY THE HELL DO ALL CANADIANS LOVE ANIME N' SHIT!
And man the fuck up, Alex.
626083
I dunno.
Mind reminding me?
626097
GAHK
*falls to the ground, unconscious.*
626113
*Begins coughing up blood*
626150
*Blocks with flailing legs, then they hit your balls*
626178
*Chokes* *M-Me..*dies*
Sanity has died.
Respawn?
Yes.
OR
No.
OR.
Ragecry.
626201
ERROR 313.
Sanity does not exist currently.
Please respawn, and then execute previous action.
Sanity will be informed of you actions when he respawns.
626235
ERROR 23.
Calling "hax" will not fix issues.
626250
ERROR 63.
You are actually female.
626302
ERROR 80
That is disgusting. Now revive your friend or I will be forced to delete his account.
626310
*Shoots you in the testicles and takes your clothes.*
There.
Now we're almost even.
Eww, why do you wear flannel?
It's so hot!
Whatever.
*puts it on.*
626456
*rolls his eyes*
Whatever.
I shot your testicle, and I'm now wearing it.
626484
I wear around an 80 pound weight vest.
I think I can handle it.
626502
No, that's a ballistic vest.
626541
That's kinda what mine looks like.
626547
I only wear it occasionally.
626571
Same, kinda
I only wear it when working out.
626579
I have no abs, or upper body strength
Or stamina
626603
I HAVE EPIC LEGS.
Thunder-thighs.