An Update and A Confession

Chapter 3 is complete and will be posted in a few days, probably tomorrow of nothing happens.

There are three reasons why this one took so long: first, school; second, I'm a lazy bum who would rather be on tumblr all day than write a story I really need to get a move on.

The third reason is why I'm making this entry.

Back in the summer of 2011, when I first began making plans for this story, I was very excited about it. I wanted this to be bigger than anything I had written before. I wanted to be a fantastic conclusion to the adventures of the Doctor and the Mane 6, full of twists and character development and conflicts.

It was only when I actually began writing the story that I realized that the final product was going to be nowhere near as awesome as it was in my head.

Not only did the story itself change several times since the project began, but I was slowly beginning to hate my own writing. I looked at what I was putting down on paper and could only see flaws - this description wasn't good enough, that bit of dialogue was too wordy, this reads much too boring. I looked back at Life Among The Distant Stars, thought about how fun that was to write and read, and thought, "Why am I not having fun now?"

I even went through a point where I considered scrapping the story entirely, since I felt there was no point in releasing a product to my followers that I thought was garbage.

Chapter 3 seemed to be to have all these doubts all at once, and I had to seriously consider what I was going to do.

On one hand, I was very close to hating this story entirely. Maybe I just needed to give up and write smaller stories from now on, or maybe just not ponies for a while. Maybe I should just stop writing altogether.

But on the other hand, I knew the story was only just beginning. After chapter 3 came the parts that I had been really looking forward to write, where the story really started to pick up. That, and I made a promise to myself when I first made my account on deviantArt - where my writing career really began - that if I ever did start a multi-chapter story, I would see it through to the bitter end, because I hated it when I found a good story online only to find that it had been abandoned.

So I resolved that, for better or worse, I will finish this story and try to make it the best I can. I feel as if I owe it to you, since I gained most of you after The Emotional Illness was posted on EQD. And I owe it to myself as another step to becoming a better writer.

So don't worry, the end will come. It just might take a while.

(On another note: sorry I have been keeping you guys out of the loop. I've never really cared much about this site, but since this is all EQD accepts anymore, I figure I ought to give you guys more attention.)