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Life of a Wanted Changeling Season 3: Tyrants, Terrorists, and Tiaras, Oh My! - Down with Chrysalis



The continued adventures of you, Bugze the Changeling! (Comment-Driven Story)

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Episode 78: Sins of the Past

Intro:

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POV Change: Selena

With your jaw still dropped, Sin walks into the bunker, and heads straight to the living room before finally taking a seat waiting for you to do the same so you can have your talk. You move his body since his strained mind is barely responding.


Bugze? you ask cautiously, feeling your changeling still unsteady and in shock, Are you alright? This is quite the development.

...she's alive... you hear him whisper. All this time I thought I'd left them to die, and now she's here. And my Hive... they actually found the others... and they need me.

You can hear Relief and astoundment in his tone, but they're both smothered by a wet blanket of guilt. Meanwhile you are more than a little reluctant at hearing this information. Bugze just went through a terrible ordeal which he still has not come close to recovering from, and you yourself have become a target for all the forces at Celestia's call. You should be looking out for yourselves, taking time to mend your wounds and lay low, not going out of your way to aid others! Especially Sin and company.

You make these thoughts known to your changeling, hoping to turn him away before he potentially hurts himself further.

I already left them to their fate once Selena. And now it isn't just them, he tells you.

You mentally frown and shake your head. The guilt from before coupled with his actions only a week prior are driving his conscious now. You've been with him long enough to know how the other changelings tormented him, and how they had the gall to continue doing so even after foal-napping your precious daughter.
Perhaps what Bugze did to them was far too harsh, but in your opinion, hardly unwarranted. Everything logical in your mind says none of this has anything to do with you, and that these jerks should be simply left to their fate... But you know how much Bugze is hurting, and how in his state, doing this is sure to make him worse.
So, with the stairs leading down in both directions, you relent.


Very well. We shall hear what she has to say. But Bugze, for all of us, please don't commit to anything out of guilt.

So, sitting your bug down across from Sin and keeping a wary eye, you mentally push yourself back a bit, so that your changeling can speak a little easier.

She gives you an expectant look, but Bugze hesitates as a million thoughts and emotions go through his mind and he closes his eyes.



POV Change: Bugze

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You don't want to face her, not after what you did. But you have to otherwise you'll regret it and add to the ever growing pile. Regret, regret, regret... You take a deep breath.

Agony. That is what it feels like as you force yourself to open your eyes, each inch going by like an eternity. How long ago was it, since that day? A day when you thought being vindictive was justifiable? Another day that you regret your actions of...

It's just like with Trixie.

When you finally completely open your eyes. There is no pretense, no false disguise, nowhere to hide. It’s just the two of you sitting down across from each other. Neither one of you seems ready to start the conversation.
Within her mirror-like eyes, you can see what she sees. You: weak and with eyes of a deeper shade of blue, a far cry from what you were like the last time you both met.
Never before have you felt so naked.

As you stare at her, trying as hard as you can to find your voice. She closes her own eyes and sighs.

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“Look, I know I’m probably the last changeling you want to see at the moment, but time is of the essence. We need-"

“I’m sorry,” you blurt out through your mouth causing Sin’s eyes to widen. “I’m so so sorry for what I did to you…to the others…”
She is clearly surprised by the sadness in your voice, and appears to be fumbling for words.

“I was so angry. I have a problem. I’m a monster who can’t stop trying to let others die for my rage. I’m so so-“

“Look, it’s…it’s fine,” she says in a tone that clearly isn’t fine.

“But you were pleading for help, and I didn’t give it and…”

“IT’S FINE!!!” she declares with grit teeth, before turning away and breathing deeply.

“We didn’t die, not for lack of trying. It’s fine…”

“We? So you mean that the others are also…?
She nods and you breathe out a sigh of relief.


They all lived…I didn’t kill them.
You look back at her and see that she is trying to bring her emotions under control.

"How did you escape?" you ask. The last you saw of them, Garble and his buddies were descending on them.
She pauses at that.

"I didn't. The dragon that caught me, he..." You see her barely manage to suppress a full-body shiver as she rubs at the left side of her face.

"What do you-?“

“Mongo and Biff got all of us out. It wasn’t pretty…we each bear our own scars. Some worse than others” she trails off in thought.
You look back to her cheek and see that the claw marks snake around to the back of her head, and down her back, causing you to wince.
Being left beaten and defenseless by dragons, you’re glad that all they have is scars. But still.


“H-How bad?” you ask nervously.
She sighs and says,

“Biff and I are the lucky ones, we only received some scars… but Tannen lost an ear, Vicky lost a wing and can’t fly anymore, and Mongo…” she winces before continuing. “His throat was slashed, and he can no longer speak.”
Selena herself brings your hoof up to your mouth at the image, and you would have done the same.

“But like I said. It’s fine,” she says shaking her head. “We’re alive, we found what we were looking for, and we’re still are able to carry out our duties.”

That’s not fine. That’s not fine at all, you think in guilt.
Alive is one thing, but they’ve all been maimed thanks to your rage. Every scar that they have, is because of your actions.

Just like Trixie…Oh gods I should have saved her, I had the ability to…
You start to fade out a bit.

Stay with me Bugze! Mayhaps you can still save this one. She came for help after all Selena encourages.

Help…Yeah…sure… you say as you try to keep your thoughts from overwhelming you.

“Wh-where are they now? Are they outside?” you ask nervously.

“They are off in their ordered positions far from here. I figured how last time…” she rubs her cheek, “Well, I figured that perhaps if it was just me things would go smoother 9001”

You don’t even correct her for using your drone number, you’ve been more like that Changeling Cog Wheel than you’ve been Bugze lately.

“And like I said, we need your help to break the Hive out.”

That statement again makes you weary. They came to you asking for the same thing last year, and you turned them down…

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"Why?" With a hoarse throat, you ask.

"Hm?" Sin goes rigid, as if ambushed.

"Why did you come to me again?" You pause, but with surge of will, you elaborate, "You, you know my answer from back then, back on that day. What makes you think it’s changed?" Your voice cracks at the end.
You yourself don’t know if it has changed or not as you still try to grasp at your rational side through the guilt.
Still a bit surprised she ponders your question.


“Surely there are others though. I even ran into some in the Crimson Knights” you interject.
A look of bemusement comes across her face.


“Yeah…Them,” she says in disgust. “Let’s just say we don’t want or need the help of a fanatical old bug who hates his own kind, or an idiot with delusions of grandeur.”
You know she’s talking about Erised and Kichi. Add into the fact that they’re locked up, you can understand her limited options.

“In the grand scheme of things, you were the only option.”

“Even still, why come to me? How did you even find me?”

"Why come to you, huh?" Sin looks to the side, pondering deeply. The few cautious glances towards you answers everything, yet nothing at all. Then, she sighs, but you notice her stiff breathing. "It feels like it’s been so long since that day. It feels almost like a dream. I try to forget, too..."


...But that won’t heal the scars. You glance away.

She seems to hold guilt as well, Selena advises.
Sighing again she continues to speak,

"And to how I found you. Well, there was new information that we’d gathered after…after that night. We’d learned about this Bunker’s location, as well as other secret locations.”
Surprised, you ask,

“Where did you get that info?”
She ignores this inquiry and continues on,

“And then we heard about that uproar a week ago…”
A cold strike of pain hits your heart and you begin to retreat a bit, but Selena ensures you don’t fall.

“And I was ord…I decided to find you,” she says, though her hesitance and change of grammar doesn’t escape you. As if she’s left something out. Before either you or Selena can dwell on this, she continues.
“Deep down, I knew your answer would be the same: Flat rejection,” she declares with a slump of her shoulders. “Of course, how can it be anything else? Not after what...home did to you." She closes her eyes, opening then again after a deep breath. Her eyes are downcast now.

"Although, I didn't expect to be apologized to." This time her hooves go still, her entire being rigid and calm. She's business once more. But by these actions you know she is anything but. "It wasn't what I wanted."
You freeze up. Meeting her eyes suddenly feels like a taboo.
However, she continues.

"Even though you apologized, not once did you say you forgave me." Chuckling dryly, she says, "What can I expect? To you, we must be monsters."
She then looks you in the eye.

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“But monsters or not, we’re still your fellow changelings. We’re family, and family helps one another.”
You don’t say anything to that.

The only family I ever had in the hive is dead. Mom and Dad…Grandbuggy…

"9001, if you come and help us we can help you as well,” she offers.

"Help me Lieutenant?" You ask in wonder. "How?"

“Actually, it’s Shell Marshal now,” she corrects.

She was promoted? By who? You wonder.


"And we can help you if you save the Queen and the Hive I'm sure they would definitely try to get Nightmare Moon out of you. The Queen is pretty powerful. Once she’s gathered enough love she would be powerful enough. We could-"

"Sin, Nightmare Moon's not evil. She's not the problem," you interrupt her immediately.
She tilts her head at you like you were crazy.

"What?!"

"Her name is Selena, and she's changed. She's... my best and closest friend in the world, much more than anyone at the Hive. If anyone's my family, it's her and my daughter," you declare.
As consumed with guilt as you’ve been, you’ve never really thought about the consequences in regards to Selena. Sin has rectified that.
The Changeling mare gives you an odd look before you declare,

"It doesn't matter if you don't believe me. You won't believe us anyways, so there's no point in trying to convince you. Just know that she and I are closer than you think, along with our daughter, I have no plans of getting rid of either of them."
Sin seems to think deeply about your words about your true family before she shakes her head and says dully,

"She's manipulating you 9001. Come with me and we'll help you if you help us. Then the Queen can ensure that you live happily with your daughter.”
Both you and Selena give an incredulous look before she continues.

“Even if Nightmare Moon is possessing you, The Hive wouldn’t care. You’d be a hero, you’d be praised, accepted.”

“That never happened before,” you reply unsurely.

“You have a better chance with us than with the ponies. They’ll never accept you, not after what’s happened. But we NEED you. The prison is impenetrable, and with you on our side, we have a better chance of succeeding.”

“Yeah, but I doubt Chrysalis would ever try to keep me around. With my powers she’d see me as a threat, and sooner try to kill me than help me,” you reply in dejection.
She seems a bit unnerved that you used the Queen’s name so informally, but she shakes her head.

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"9001, we’re on a time table here. The hive has been locked away for more than three years now; the majority of our species are confined to castle with no access to the outside world. They are barely above being starved for love…” she then takes a breath. “I wouldn't have come to you if there were anyling else that could pull this off,” she punctuates by slamming her hoof for emphasis before giving you a pleading look. “We’re going to bust them out, with or without you. We have to.”

“The five of you? All by yourselves?” you ask.
She looks to the side,

“Not exactly…” she trails off, before looking back to you, “But regardless this is our Hive and Queen we’re talking about. We can’t just do nothing.”

“Not exactly?” you ask.
She groans and says,

“While the majority of Hive is locked away after their failed incursion into Ponyville, there are still many like us who have been separated. We have a plan to regroup, but with you joining us, it’d go more smoothly.”

“How?” you ask.

“Because while I may now be Shell Marshall, you are still a Dominant Alpha now. Your power and leadership would ensure victory.”

She wants me to lead? You think.

"Look... I know we were mean to you in the past, like... really mean." Sin tells you, "But we really need you now. Because like I said, we're going in with or without you. And we'd rather go in with you."

But I can’t lead. I can’t be trusted with other’s lives. I can’t…

"You've made your case." Selena speaks through your mouth startling Sin who’s eyes widen. "We require time to consider this."
Selena then keeps a tight hold of your body and mouth as the two of you move into the kitchen while the flabbergasted Sin just watches with a dropped jaw.

Bugze-

We have to help them, you say firmly.
You wait for some kind of argument from Selena, any kind of fighting response. But instead, all you get is a sigh.

I know. But I don't like this. Putting yourself in harm’s way to save innocents is one thing, but these changelings, your old hive... you heard what she wants to do. What will you do if when they are released they try to invade Equestria again? What will you do if this attempt fails and we are captured, taken to the the Elements and they- She trails off before continuing.
I don't want to see you or Nightshade hurt because of this.

I know, You think, knowing you're on the losing side now matter what you choose to do. But like Sin said... we can't do nothing.

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Selena groans at this.
Alright then. If that is your decision, I will support it.
Selena, I just don’t want anyling else to get hurt because of me, you admit. But I won’t follow them to the tee.

What do you mean?

I want to free the changelings, but that doesn’t mean I have to free Chrysalis. The rest of the Hive, they might have a chance to live peacefully if they were separated from her.

How do you plan to accomplish this? She asks.

I don’t know yet. Maybe if I learn more of their plan...Look, I need to help them, not just for what I've done, but even still I won't be a pawn. A pawn can easily be used to hurt someone. Can you take us back to her?
With another sigh she relents and takes you back into the living room. You see that her eyes faintly glow green until you sit down again.

“So it is true. You are the host of Nightmare Moon…” she says in awe.

“It’s Selena, and yes of course it’s true. We’ve made our decision.”
She perks up at this.

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“I’ll do it,” you declare.
Sin is shocked. Her expectations are now blown to pieces, and in its place is hope. Tiny, muted, it is still something. However, wariness overtakes her first. Stiffly, she asks seriously,

"Why? Why change your mind?"

"W-well..." For the umpteenth time in the meeting, you look away, hot with embarrassment. You're not sure how to express your reason. Even so, your mouth moves anyway. What came out is an echo, an abridged recital of something you haven't heard in a very long time.

"I'm just like you, and you're just like me."
I art thou, and thou art I.


Even after his erasure, your Shadow from another universe is there to give you a video game reference to recall. It doesn't sound as bad as it used to be.
With a slight glow, you speak,

"If there are changelings like you and me, I want to know for myself if the Hive is worth saving anymore." You then smile slightly. "Things change all the time. Right?"

"...right." For the very first time, Sin genuinely smiles. “This is fantastic. With you onboard, there’s no way we can fail and…”

“But…” you say causing her to pause, “If I’m going to do this, we have to ensure that nopony is hurt.”
Her eyes seem conflicted at this.

“B-But they are the ones who are imprisoning our kind. They’re the enemy.”

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"I understand that you want me to help. But I'm not going to do it for the wrong reasons. I don't care if you think it’s a betrayal, but I want every one to live in peace."
She seems surprised at this,

"9001 they're our food! We're the predators here it's how life works!"

"Then how did I survive? Because I haven’t eaten any love since the invasion."

"I... that's not the point. They are our enemies, we can’t afford to go easy on them."

"I don't...I can't hurt anyone else. I'm not going to help unless you promise to not hurt any pony,” you declare with confidence. You don’t realize that you’ve moved up further into your body, which makes Selena smile.

“That’s not a promise I can keep 90-“

“My name is Bugze, and I can’t help if you can’t promise that. I'm sorry Sin.”
She seems very very flabbergasted by your resolve.

"Then how do you expect us to survive?! We’d all starve to death.”

"No you won't. Form peace between the ponies and you'll be able to survive."

"Oh yeah, like that's turned great for you," she declares with a bit of heat.
That hurts because she’s right, you have screwed up any chance you have of having peace among them.

"My faults are my own. My decisions have led me to this point and I accept that. I’m a monster…” you then say in determination, “But you all can change that, you all can try to give peace and harmony a chance. You can learn from my mistakes."

She appears conflicted by what you’re saying.


“B-but. The Queen would never…”

“I know, I doubt she would. But there is another way. A way that doesn’t involve her.”


With all of these declarations, you don’t even realize that you’ve more or less taken back your body. You take her hoof in both of yours surprising her.


“You don’t need Chrysalis. None of us do.”
She is startled by what you’ve said, as she slowly takes her hoof out of yours.

“How? How can you say that?” she asks incredulously.

“Because it’s true. I may seek your forgiveness, I may wish to resolve our problems, but Chrysalis has never done anything for me. I will help you and the others, but not her.”

She then looks at you as her eyes faintly glow green.

“But…weren’t you two friends once?” she asks confused.

“What? I don’t…” you start before foggy images flash within your head. Phantom feelings of happiness and joy, followed by hurt and loss.

Bugze? Selena asks in concern.

“That’s why she sent me to you in the first place,” Sin says in confusion.

“What? What are you talking about?” you ask.
She looks at you and declares.

“I told you we found the Queen. We were able to speak with her in secret many months ago, but we couldn’t free her on her own. That’s why she entrusted us to enact her plans.”

“You’ve spoken with her?” you ask in surprise. “But…why would she say she and I were…?”

“After last week, she immediately ordered me to find you because you two used to be close. I wanted to speak with you anyway, so she chose me to-”

“She did? But how did…” you then notice the faint glow of her eyes, causing your own to widen. “She’s linked herself to you hasn’t she?”

“Yes, and it’s an honor," she declares in determination. "How else do you think I attained the rank of Shell Marshall?”

What does that mean?

She’s directly linked to Chrysalis. She can communicate with her even while in prison, you answer in dread.

Sin then sighs and says,

“Look, given our history, I can understand your hesitance, but…” he eyes then flash brighter for a moment causing her to stop midsentence.

“Yes Ma’am,” she says aloud as her eyes roll over with green and she takes out a smooth black stone with a hole in it and place it over her horn
She then channels magic into it, before a circular image appears in-between you and her.

Slowly but surely, a blurry image begins to sharpen taking your breath away.

Bugze…is that?

You nod. She looks paler, thinner and her mane is ragged, but she still holds an air of power about her that you wouldn’t mistake her for anyling else. Her identity is solidified more when she uses your real name.

“Hello @#$%&…It’s been awhile hasn’t it?”

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“Shell Marshall Sin says that you still have misgivings. Perhaps I can change your mind?”

Your former Queen’s image is being projected to you from her prison. Her eyes hold expectancy, arrogance, and even a bit of nostalgia.


WHAT DO YOU DO?

Outro:

Author's Note:

Hey Hive Mind,
Eyup. We went three whole years without speaking to her in person. Let's rectify that.

Remember, Bugze's still a bit out of it, but he does have has his convictions, and his past memories are still fuzzy, including his memories of her (Was she the mare at the dance? More than likely :raritywink:)

Anyway, Usual Rules: No Princesses, Discord, Doctor, Elements, Revealing Identities, or Killing.

Also, still no leaving the Bunker. This is a conversation 3 years in and out of the story in the making. Make it good guys.

Next Chapter By Monday at the Earliest if I have enough comments.

This is Brown Dog signing off.

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