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Author's Note:

Well here is the second chapter and I feel more proud about this one, I really do. I feel thrilled about this, I mean just fucking great! Sorry, I'm on speed right now and I'm running wild!

No, really though. This chapter was pretty cool to write and I think some of you naysayers will like it because it does explain some aspects of Apple Bloom and how she has or is becoming the way she is leaning towards now.

What inspired this chapter was st. Anger by Metallica, 'Till We Die by Slipknot, some songs off of Load by Metallica and Of Wolf and Man by Metallica.

It took about three hours to create.

Surprisingly, no Swans made me inspired to create a chapter this time around.

I sat here on the uncomfortable chair, in the humidity that beamed from the sparkling windows of outside, while the light shining through the thick curtains were dimmed and particles of dust flew around the center of the room before drifting out of plain sight. The room itself wasn't all that spectacular, the boring old grey rug stretched across the room with useless furniture placed at precise points that was meant to give this a warm feel, but instead only dumbs the average pony down and hampers our creativity. Maybe that was the purpose of this whole shindig that I’m stuck in, but whatever, I don’t really care for this place but I’m here now so I might as well get used to it.

The curtains were ragged and scuffled like they were once gripped by a ponies hooves or fluttered with our tails consequently that it left this velvet black curtain looking bleaker than the pony sitting across from me with that dumb old look that I always get from her since I started these stupid sessions. The dull cheeks on her face slouched more than I did, big droopy cheeks worn from the years of stress and pent up anger of dealing with whining and self-hate fillies like myself. She did have three little freckles in the middle of her cheeks that did bring a short blush across my face, thinking of Applejack meant the world of joy to me deep inside but the connection between us was so distant that to try and convey a message would end up with a long pause before awkwardness settled in. The mare didn’t catch on to my little glee of joy and instead just muttered some discouraging words into my folder as she read through the file a second time, than a third, than a fourth. Her mane set back into a ponytail with a pencil stuck between it while she fidgeted with her forehoof across the couch, why was it that I had to sit in a chair while she rested her rump softly on that delicate couch. The cobalt color blended nicely with her dress suit that I began to drift off into my own world of finding the perfect coat of colors that could compete with hers. I’m starting to think like Rarity probably, weird.

I haven’t slept all day and my bow was all ruffled up and my mane hadn’t been combed properly but she didn’t care, obviously. She was worried more about her paycheck and her bills than what my sorry rump had to offer. The sun glared and brightened up so vividly that the black curtains turned solid brown momentarily before slowly regaining its original hue. The mare looks tired, as I am, but she looks as if that she really loathes me specially. I’ve been meaning to ask her about that, might as well since she has been an unworthy grump after we first met, my first greeting wasn’t all cheery either sister, but I still know how to freaking smile, at least. Time feels like it’s going slower than it should, everything feels slower, the light feels slower, her random coughs feel slower and the receptors in my brain feel slower. I feel as if that this session has already surpassed its due date for the week and I should just buck the heck out of here, now. I try to get her attention so I cough uncontrollably only to really cough afterwards because I nearly choked after the first run. She doesn’t buy it, and instead just gives me a glare and a small huff before droning out towards my file again. She begrudgingly snorts and swipes the paper back and forth as she tries to not make eye contact with me. The sweat on my forehead starts to peek out of my red mane and I’m starting to feel the heat, the burn, the itch on my arm but I refuse to scratch because whatever motion I make might set this mare off and strangle me.

As much as I hate to say this, I’m sure she wonders why I would be in here of all places, it’s something I’m starting to question myself with also, why am I here? I’m fine, I’m okay, and why do I have to be here, in this place. There is nothing special or of any clarity in this place, at least back in school I can draw for peat sakes! Here, all I do is watch this dried up mare shift through my file before grilling me about my life, and how or why I’ve been so disconnected and less sociable about, than when I was a kid. I already knew all this, so why does she have to badger me about it? At least if Applejack told me off or decided that having one of our ‘talks’ was necessary, I could choose to leave, so why can’t I leave this cesspool of garbage? I choose to stand up and walk out but before I do, I hear a loud tap with her forehoof on the table right beside her and when I look back, she raises her other forehoof over to my sturdy, hard, annoying brown chair. I give her a look but she gives me a look back and those eyes of hers had always crept me out, so I sighed and walked back to my box and waited until she decided to close me up and lecture me unto I either got frustrated again and refused to speak, or stormed out in anger. It was only the second time I did either of those two things out of our three sessions together. I began to play with my bow just to pass the time, trying desperately to fix it perfectly like how I usually kept it as, without pinching the top of my head or my scalp. I wish I had magic like Sweetie Belle, damn if she could contain her magic I mean, she’s okay and all, but if you can develop a crush for colts first before and don’t know to use magic yet, than you are doing something wrong.

She then slugs over to her briefcase and reaches for it, struggling, she groans before lifting herself up just to pick up the damn thing. After reaching for it, she asks me if I’m okay. I respond that I am, she repeats it once more, and so do I. She dismisses me as a loss cause and returns back to opening her briefcase. We both sat in silence for another duration of a few minutes before I broke the silence to her.

“Ah mean, ah’m not fine, miss.” I finally admitted.

“Hmm.” She scoffed almost humorously.

“Well, Ah can elaborate if ya feelin’ it.” I tried to reassure us both, without sounding like a total boob.

“Uh, huh.” She fondly sounded off before zoning away with the contents inside her briefcase. I tried to make out what lurked beneath that dreaded colored case but all I can see was a sea of papers overlapping one another in a hoarder fashion.

Well, this is total crap.

“Look, well ya listen to me, Ah’m tryin’ here alright?” I finally broke, my voice cracking and my throat felt dryer than all of the desert in the Middle East. I changed positions and no longer had my legs crossed, my back relaxed a bit but still kept a tense firm to the situation that I’ve been currently caught in, my shoulders felt restrained against my own will but I knew I was just reeling this through my head. My chest tightened and my lungs tried to conceal each breath it took as it felt it was its last. Even my head was screaming shouting out the right words, but it’s like my tongue couldn’t register it properly because whatever I said now wasn’t going to be what my brain is thinking, instead it was what my fear that wanted to do all the talking and have me shut in the corner and die within the confinements of this wooden chair that I’m currently bind too.

“Alright, shoot.”

“Okay, ah mean, ah mean, look, ah know things haven’t been so…kind on your end, but ah can try to lighten up the mood, alright?” I pleaded, I begged, I just wanted the silence to stop.

I sat there impatiently as she pondered the poor choice of words that I enforced, wondering how this will go was more gut-wrenching than watching your friend stumble home after not feeling so lucky.

“Sure, fine. Look, I don’t want to come off as harsh, but you haven’t exactly given me a lot to go on. Besides your family giving me some of the gritty and not so gritty details, I’m an open canvas and I need you to fill me up, so can you get a move on with this and make a commitment.” She raised her eyebrow and gave me a short wink before placing her briefcase down on her lap and watched patiently as I made the final decision.

The soothing sound of her quiet and pleasant voice was a breath of fresh-air from the impassive, mundane and lukewarm way she had carried herself over the last three weeks. I guess I can admit that I was probably not easing the situation with the outbursts and random cussing.

“Ah think ah can?”

“No. I want you to know you can, otherwise what was the point of sending you here.” The mare belittled.

“Ah’m sure ah can, miss.” I stated, half-sarcasm, but half serious also, and maybe a bit half-delusional too.

“Alright, then. Now that we got that out of our chests, you can stop sweating and breathing heavily because I have other clients that like to use that chair when they want to talk about their issues too, you know.”

“Oh, ah’m sorry miss, ah’m really sorry.” slouching a little bit, but I kept my posture up.

“It’s okay, now shall we begin?” she cut to the chase and was full on back in her state from the first day we met.

My life felt on pause that moment as I wondered through my head once more, coming up with fantasies and dream worlds that all catered to me and my family and friend’s needs. Dreaming seemed a lot more thrilling than actually making a go of it, I remember those days when being the CMC meant so much to me, and to my friends and it’s a sham now that we hardly discuss it, let alone consider it in our conversations, those were wonderful times and those are times I feel the most appreciative about since I first met those two fillies. I will never forget the day when they caught me at my most awkward moment of my life, having to be ridiculed by Diamond Tiara was a bucking hate train throughout my days in the school house, so much hazing and lame snarky comments. I think I want to talk about her this time, no being quiet and shallow me, time to be an honest and truthful mare today. Somewhat…

“Apple Bloom, shall we begin?” the mare asked again, this time with a little grit in her voice, a little more demanding.

“Yes, yes we can,”

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