The Circle Of Life
I stare outside and look at my kingdom. It's nice, nothing wrong, at least nothing that anypony knows about. The more I think about how great Equestria is, the more I think about our problems... my problems. I try to convince myself that I'm okay. Princess Celestia is strong, I am strong. It doesn't work.
I'm immortal, sounds great, but being immortal isn't all it's made out to be. You go day by day watching loved ones die... at least it feels like days.
I turn to Spike, the only person left in my life who I really know. Though when I look at him, all I can see is them. The purple of his skin makes me think of Twilight… she was so important to me. The green of his scales makes me think of the green in Rainbow Dash's mane... she was so brave, she was a hero. The white of his teeth reminds me of Rarity's beautiful white coat... so beautiful, so generous.
All animals or butterflies are Fluttershy... so, very kind. All balloons or parties are Pinkie Pie… so full of life. Of course, all apples are Applejack... so hardworking.
The friendship they brought has made my life better. Though, it's bringing much pain to me now. They were so special... so special.
I try to force myself to forget about them while I work, but when I visit my subjects, I see them. Unicorns, Pegasi and Earth ponies. They're all there, but when I see myself in the mirror it's the hardest… alicorns.
Spike, my little ponies, myself... I just can't seem to get away from the past. Everything is the past, so if I forget the past, everything and my sanity would leave. My sanity is low, but that's one of the only things I can hold on to, now.
Twilight was a princess, but wasn't born a princess. Twilight was meant to die like everypony else. Spike always tells me about 'the circle of life'. I don't want to believe it, but I have to.
We were alike in many ways. Both of us were smart, funny, loyal, honest, kind, alicorns and princesses. I cherished her and everything that she had to offer. Twilight Sparkle represented the Elements of Harmony so perfectly.
Thinking about them is so hard. A tear trickles down my face. I begin crying. I cry for so long, I don't know how long though. Minutes? Hours?
Either way it doesn't matter, I still cried. I thought it would make me feel better, but it made me feel worse... letting it come over me like that. I turn to Spike, he's stroking my vibrant mane, trying to make sure that I'm okay.
Twilight, Rarity, Pinkie Pie, Rainbow Dash, Applejack and Fluttershy were like my daughters. I can't have real daughters, I'm a princess and I don't have time, even though I want one. They were all I had and I lost my 'daughters'. They were also my friends and my family. The circle of life is just so terrible.
The world is just so cruel. The way life reminds me of them at every turn is evil.
"Spike." He turns to me, I can tell that he's surprised... I haven't talked for so long.
"Yes, Princess Celestia."
"You always talk about how there is a circle of life. Where is my circle?"
"You will age just like everypony else. You might not die, unless something bad happens to you, but you still age."
"Bu-"
"You have a circle, you've grown... Tia."
Suddenly, I remember my childhood. My fun with Luna, playing with mom and dad, being stupid and being a free spirit. I remember just recently -at least by my standards- playing pranks on Luna and having fun with the ponies of Equestria.
"You know, it's hard on me too. Everyday I have to grieve with the loss of my boss, my best friend... and my mom. I've known her my whole life. I know that this is emotional and probably the worst thing that I'll ever have to go through, but I need to be strong and not go insane... for them."
I take in what he said and then hug him. I need to focus on the good times, like Spike said... 'for them'.
I pretended sipping my tea with Mr. Cake and he spilled it, I had a fun time at the Grand Galloping Gala once it wasn't insipid and I got to watch Twilight become a princess.
I remember when I first met Twilight at the magic academy interview. I knew that she had so much potential from when I first met her. I also remember a very special night, perhaps my favorite night. The night after the gala when we sat down and hung out. Being with them was unforgettable.
"I've lived a good life Spike, so have you. You grow slower than ponies so you have to watch loved ones die too, but you Spike, have the gift of fatality. I know it's scary, but I don't want to be immortal. If I had at least Luna and Discord, I would be okay. They are immortal too. Just my luck, Luna's evil again and this time won't come back for maybe a millennium. I miss her so much and I miss hanging out with her. She's my sister, I have to deal with the extreme pain I feel in my chest when I think of her. Discord went back to his evil ways, now he's a statue. He was a handful, but he brought laughter to ponies with his crazy antics. I have tried so hard to stay happy, but it's too hard."
I smiled at Spike, that smile had been gone for so long. "I'm not happy, but I`m not dead inside. I will go with the flow, watching others die. I will resume my duties and I will try to deal with this. They will always be in my head, but hopefully I can try... just try to handle my pain."
I grab my crown off of the wall and put it on my head, it reminds me of them so it`s hard to get passed that. Spike snuggles up to me. We lie there for a while. I have only two thoughts in my head.
I will miss you. and Everything's going to be okay.
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Right in the FEELS man!
So much for being a goddess eh, Twilight?
Overdone Meme vs. Feels....
It didn't have any effect at all.
When are people going to learn that just blarging out 'Oh woe is me, everything I knew and love is gone' without anything else to it doesn't actually have any emotional impact?
Short and simple, and really hits me in the
2231468 I totally understand. Thank you for your opinion. I just wanted to write a quick one shot from Celestia`s perspective. I think it turned out well.
Well that was short...Poor celestia.
2437212 I actually had a hard time getting it to be that long. My first draft had about 735 words. I had to extra words or adjectives wherever I could. During my school day I came up with some more ideas. I actually wrote the first 735 words in the ten minutes I had before school. Inspiration sure appears in odd places doesn`t it? I dreamt about it slightly the night before and then woke up with this idea. Also, poor Celestia is right!
2437413 Inspiration does come at random times, and whenever it does for me, I must heed it. One time I wrote somethin' down at 10:00 at night lol derp but anyway, yeah...
OH and my dreams are SO WEIRD, but sometimes they do give me ideas :D and I think I've dreamed about ponies at least twice, but it wasn't set in Equestria or anything.
One of them, I think, had Pinkie and Dashie in my kitchen.
It was like an arcade thing on the wall at the back of the kitchen between the fridge and the pantry.
And Dashie was looking at grinning, standing-on-hind-legs Pinkie like
Whut.
LOLOL
Anyway...
Sweet and emotional...
So many feels!
2460673 Thank you!
P.S. I like your profile pic.
2461037 Thank you.
Oh my God,this is one of the most saddest stories I have ever seen
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EMOTION! 
I'm guessing we're going to need an intervention for Luna and Discord, rather than using harmony. Harmony can be broken-- interventions on the other hand are incredibly saddening and offer and ultimatum.
The story itself: beautiful and thought-invoking. Immortality is such a troll...
2503522 Thank you for the positive review and for the story suggestion! Also, for your immortality thing, in short, immortality sucks. Living for 100 years is epic, living for 1,000,000+ years is
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The only problem is that Celestia was meant to live forever (granted, that doesn't mean she's exempt from pain.)
Time for some bioethics/food for thought:
Whenever people ask me about my thoughts on immortality (I have no doubts that if we don't blow ourselves up, we'll eventually be able to prolong ourselves indefinitely with technology) since I'm a pretty tech savvy guy, I always respond with:
"If we were meant to live that long, whoever willed this universe into existence would've made it so. Yeah, we can circumvent our physical problems to the point that we won't age, but mentally we'd fall into the despair of eternity."
Let the thinking begin.
2507493 Seriously, dude, I truly respect you. I LOVE it when people are poetic and can actually have an intellectual conversation! Not to mention your vocabulary! Write a story! I`m thinking about following you just because of your intellect and vocabulary! While you`re at it, get a profile picture! You have potential and I barely know you! In fact, I am merely just an acquaintance, yet I can already see your potential!
2507845
I'll see what I can do in the Summer. Unfortunately, I lack the time to truly commit to a story, and I despise when I can only get half way through something before it stagnates in my PC.
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The capacity of memory is finite. Eventually your mind would succumb to the fog of ages; unless we invent memory modifications, in which case you would have to keep several brains in storage for holding the overhead.
I prefer the Neil Gaiman version of immortality. It's just more of the same, except you start forgetting the beginning. Then the middle. Then everything.
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We'd have to pull a Arthur C. Clarke move: sew ourselves into the fabric of time and space and thus gain an infinitely expanding capacity. Also, dang-- that's an old comment of mind, haha.
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The capacity of the cosmos is finite, and as you expand into it, it fills its own memory. It's a paradox.
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Looking back on this (thanks to the person who commented to me a minute ago), I have to say I was right. I started to write 3 things: a Fringed-esque story that would explain so much in the show with that insane logic that Fringed brings to TV, what another deity sees from the schism between Luna and Celestia, and a letter to Celestia before Luna gave in.
None of them came to fruition, but heck, I think I might do a one shot during December and give it a shot. I need to start out small, not large. Guess we'll see in 4 weeks, eh?
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Hm, depends. I always go way too scientific on it (dark energy, expansion, etc.) and compare it to that of a computer that gains infinite capacity. As it gains more, the entropy in the entirety of it increases, thus corrupting it while at the same time giving it more. Hm, gonna have to stew on that one for a while.
Princess Luna is evil again? Mind explaining why?
3728298 Um… well… you see… To make the story work.
I almost cried when reading this.