What does it mean to be Pinkie Pie? What does it mean to dedicate an entire life to bringing others joy? The truth is that it means forgetting her own. Eventually, a lonesome, deprived heart and an isolated mind will always take their toll. For Pinkamena Diane Pie, that crisis comes suddenly, as she realizes, in the one place she thought she was safe from the world, that she has unwittingly faced herself with a decision that might well be her last -- and she has no idea of what she wants.
Cover Art by Imalou of Deviantart.
Expect Mild Language and non-graphic adult themes.
Chapters (1)
Well, that good have done something for me, but, to be honest, it didn't. The author's note was too long, the ending was anti-climatic and it's impossible to drown yourself anyway.
That should be an 'i'
Anyway, I really think you need to go and revise this with this magical new thing called an editor. It actually helps you with your writing, y'know!
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It's true that in most cases survival instinct will cause someone who tries suicide in this manner to abort the attempt -- exactly like what happens in the story. Pinkie wasn't aware that she couldn't kill herself this way. That's part of why I chose this method. It's not about whether or not it's possible. It's about her commitment to the act.
Thank you for pointing out that capitalization error. I will fix it.
Also, to be blunt, I'm not bothering someone with the job of editing my fanfiction. I don't mean to sacrifice anyone's sacred pony, but I would just like to point out that this is a story by a 27-year-old man about a talking, pink pony with magic ass tattoos attempting suicide by drowning herself in a bathtub -- which we've already established wouldn't work, to begin with. I'm content to let it be a little imperfect.
1593256 I'm 13. No excuses.
i also think that the ending was anticlimatic, i mean it could have been good if you left it after Pinkie gets out of the tub and start crying, because the part with Twilight its just there you know, it just doesnt add almost nothing to the story except that Twilight needs to put a Open/Closed Sign on the door
Is this gonna have more chapters, because if it does than ill totally wait for them!
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Well, derpdragon, this is actually just a one-shot thing that I wrote as a part of an alternate continuity that I play around with a little. It's all based around a short novel I wrote called "The Sun Eater." You'll have to have your mature filter off to see that one, due to some pretty graphic violence that happens at one point, With one exception, "The Greatest Day of Her Life," which is an unrelated Derpy fic specifically meant to be E-rated, all my stories are set in this continuity.
My "mane six" are a little different than Hasbro's/ Lauren Faust's. I pretty much maintained their overall personalities, but they act more like people from the real world, and all of them have something or other that's sort of a vice or a stumbling point for them. Usually, it's just something taken from their show personality, and made more real. Pinkie is pretty bipolar and mentally unstable in the television series, so I wrote this to explore how that might manifest itself in a world where there's no "TVY7" rating to act as a safety net.
Or for another example, in the show, Twilight is obsessive-compulsive and introverted, so my version of her cranks that up a notch by adding a pretty serious caffeine addiction, workaholism, chain smoking, and some pretty severe interpersonal issues. Those are all the sorts of problems that come out of that personality type in the real world. You don't see them in this story because they just didn't come up, but they're there.
The one rule that I keep in all this is that I will not write anything that would lessen my own respect for the character. In other words, I don't do clops or anything I feel is objectifying. I will acknowledge that sex exists (like in this story), but I'm not going to go any further with it than is necessary to get a point across. In this story, it gets a brief mention because Pinkie is obviously suffering from severe depression, and the loss of sex drive is a real-world symptom of it.
So, in a sense, there are more "chapters" of this kind of thing, but each one focuses on a different character. Then, there's "The Sun Eater," itself, which tells a much longer story involving these particular versions of the mane six. I'm writing the last of the one-shots right now, which is about Rarity. After it's done, I intend to start on a follow-up to "The Sun Eater," which I had intended to abandon since season 3 sort of invalidated some things about it. A real life friend of mine read it, though, and he sort of suggested I continue with it because he had some unanswered questions. I guess I'm going to go ahead and do it, just for fun, but the other one took me nine months to write and edit. Also, I have work, and other real-world projects, so it will probably be at least that long again before it's done.
Wow. That reply went a little longer than I meant for it to, but thanks for reading, and I hope I answered your questions!
1709490 that was a long comment
Thanks and it sounds real interesting.
OFF TO READ!!!
Isn't it odd I do not consider this THAT sad and dark? I mean, it was serious, but in my view, it ended quite well.
After all, by the end of it, Pinkie does not kill herself, but finally decides she wants to dedicate her life for herself now - since she made up her mind, this is just the first step in a long way to go, but knowing she got out of the water before drowning herself means she will make it. All in all, all's well in the future. At least is the way I see it.
And very good job!
3858340 something can be dark and still end well FO:E is good example of that. A dark story mainly is classified based on the atmosphere and themes in the story. i believe you're confusing dark for grimdark both share the first part (atmosphere/themes) but grimdark's are the ones where people/ponies die or have a bad (grim) ending. pinkie killing herself would've made this more of a grimdark for example. although the two can mix (has death/killing but a somewhat happy ending). i think the only real thing that stands between them is if the the ending is alright/good (most darks) or bad/horrible (most grimdarks but can be in darks depending on themes).
3859688 Ahh, makes sense, I agree with you
I didn't know that "dark" (in this meaning) could be used both these ways in english language - in mine's, it is either literally dark (no light) or as real sad/serious (but grim).
The language threw me a little, but not nearly enough to make me dislike the story. You write a compelling angsty Pinkie.
This was a great emotional one-shot, and with a realistic problem too.
I really liked it! Although the ending seemed.... a bit abrupt. I get wanting to leave the story on that sentence, though.
I don't get why you put the cursing in there and I don't particularly like that you did, but it's easy enough to ignore I suppose.