WARNING Anon in Equestria [HiE] You X Celestia. Everyday life in the Canterlot castle can be very boring. One faithful day you decide to change it all...Will it be for the better?
One day you decide it's time to change it all. Instead of minding your own business, you accompany Celestia to wherever she needs to go to. A bond is certainly being established...But what kind of bond?
. My first attempt at a multichapter story. Celestia has been requested a lot of times for a heartwarming moment but as soon as I began, I realized something. I wasn't able to make a one shot out of it without breaking the story. Because of that, this will be the first story I've written with more than one chapter.
I have no idea how long it will be and chapters will probably be posted once every week.
You walk through the halls of the massive Canterlot castle, marching your way toward the dining room as you do every morning. Your brain goes on autopilot as you easily traverse through each spaced corridor.
Since you arrived in Equestria you get to stay at this huge castle. While it may sound fun, it actually isn't. Castle life is fairly casual and boring as nothing exciting seems to happen around here. There were times you have played chess with Celestia's younger sister, Luna. But all in all living in a castle isn't really that big of a deal.
Finally arriving at the dining room you are greeted by Princess Celestia who is sitting at the other side of the table in the middle of the room. In front of her was what she always took in the morning, tea with bread. It's very surprising to you that she, her majesty, practically a goddess would take such a simple meal in the morning.
"Good Morning, Anonymous. Have you slept well?" She asks as she does every day. It has almost become a ritual to do this every morning. Same questions, same answers.
"Indeed I have," you reply. "What about you, Celestia?"
Much to the annoyance of the royal guards and practically everypony, you refuse to call her princess ever since you came, you didn't treat her as royalty, just as a casual pony. Celestia herself never seemed to be bothered because of it. Princess Celestia's lips curl up to a warm smile. "I slept fine as well." She replies heavenly. It is her basic answer. The one you hear every day.
Today however, you didn't want to do the same again. In the past few months it has become fairly clear to you that the princess barely does any recreational activities for her own. Of course she does go to multiple towns and cities in Equestria to speak to her loyal subjects, and there are events she has to go to quite frequently but all of that is just what she is required to do, none of it is her own choice.
Sitting down at the table you stretch your arm out to reach for some bread with eggs. "Do you have anything planned for today?" you ask as you take a small bite off the freshly baked bread.
The bread you've bitten starts taking your taste buds for a wild ride. You feel as if this bread was made by the gods themselves, thus remembering why a celestial mare like herself enjoys having bread and tea every morning.
"I shall be present at the theater today to observe a new play about the history of Equestria." she responds.
With another vigorous bite off the bread, you quickly swallow it.
"How long does it take?"
"Three hours."
What she just said left you astonished. Three hours for one play! The poor soul.
"I'm coming with you." you say.
"Why would you do that?" she asks. Normally you could never read Celestia's face. She hardly had any emotion expressed on it; a small smile is the most you've seen. Now however, she appears clearly confused.
"That’s what friends do. I know you are required to go to such events for your loyal subjects. Three hours for one play is A LOT of time, and I know you'd rather do something else. Having a friend close will make it all easier to endure." you say taking a big risk. What you have said could be seen as an insult if she really is interested in that play. Then again, her poker face was too good. You have no idea what she thought of it. The seconds pass and she has still not given any answers, and this was making you rather nervous. Finally she speaks up.
"Thank you, Anonymous." she says. Phew, today is probably your lucky day.
"No problem, Celestia."
~~~~~
After you both have finished breakfast you head back to your room to put on a tuxedo. You aren't sure if it's necessary but assuming that everything you’ve seen in Canterlot so far has always been fancy and solemn, it could do no harm. The trip towards the theater was pretty awesome. You got escorted in a golden chariot, a rare sight to say the least. Arrival there was very messy as the paparazzi were basically swarming the place like flies on manure. Luckily the princess always has a set amount of guards around her during events; they were able to keep most of them away.
Finally you both make it to your seats and sit down awaiting the play to begin. The red velvet curtains swing open and a brownish pony with a black mane trots over to the middle of the stage.
"Fillies and gentlecolts!" says the brownish pony hollering to the crowd.
Already you slump in your seat. Let the torment begin...
~~~~~
After the dreadful three hours, it is finally over. Even though you know nothing about the history of Equestria, you could easily say that what you saw was the most boring play ever. It was more like a story telling. Heavily accented voices speaking with no emotion. That wasn't really your thing.
Turning to the celestial mare sitting next to you, you lean in close to whisper in her ear. “Can we go now?” you ask impatiently.
The words catch her attention as she also leans in close. “I must first make a public appearance and give my opinion. I would like for you to join me.” she insists.
“Join you?" you ask, raising a thin brow. "What do you mean?”
“Just follow me.” Celestia again insists with a soft smile.
You ended up just awkwardly standing next to the princess as she spoke to her subjects.
“The play that I just witnessed was of very high class and I enjoyed every moment of it. Until we meet again my little ponies. “Celestia says making everyone in front of her bow. It was quite a sight to see.
Both of you walk back to the chariot and are greeted by saluting royal Pegasus guards awaiting you to step in. When you both are inside and comfortably seated they take off into the skies.
As you spare a moment to look at Celestia, you hear her sighing in content relief.
“I take it you didn't like the play?" you ask knowingly.
“I have seen worse.” she replies nonchalantly.
“Then why do you keep going to them if you don't like them?” “It is my duty to show my approval at things that the citizens of Canterlot do, Anonymous. It is all for the good of my subjects.” she says calmly. She knew exactly what she was doing and you knew that it was for the best but it doesn't mean she shouldn't do things for herself.
The rest of the trip is spent in comfortable silence. Back on earth flying in airplanes was never really enjoyable for you. This however had amazing written all over it. Too bad the flight only takes a few minutes, and now you’re back on the ground again. Celestia dismisses the guards and both of you start walking towards the entrance of the castle.
“Thank you, Anonymous.” she suddenly says.
“For what? I didn't exactly do anything back there.”
“You were right. It is easier to endure with my friend by my side.”
“Surely I'm not your only friend, right?” you question.
At this she doesn't reply and hangs her head having a somewhat sullen look plastered on her features instead. “What about that student of yours; the element of magic," you snap your fingers subsequently as you process the name of the pony you're referring to. "Twilight Sparkle, right? What about her?"
“I am her tutor, that is a different kind of bonding, Anonymous. Being a ruler has its drawbacks -- one of them being alone in every decision you make.” she says depressingly.
Ok that’s just sad, but luckily you are here for the rescue. You shift closer to her and lay your arm on her shoulder. “Well then," you say with a wry smile. "We have a lot of things to catch up to."
You awake on your bed after a good night of sleeping. After you and Celestia arrived back at the castle you both went your separate ways. Today was going to be good, no matter what Celestia had to do today; you were going to make sure it would be fun. With those thoughts you leave your room after washing up and putting on your clothes.
However when you arrive there, you notice that Philomena is sitting on the table but Celestia is not in the room. Instantly Philomena dashes towards you and lands on your shoulder. She always seemed very curious as to what you are and is now inspecting you as you resume your walk towards the table and sit down. It isn’t the first time this happened, every encounter you’ve had with this particular phoenix has led to her eyeing you carefully. This time she locks her eyes on your hands. Heh, crazy bird. I’ll just play along.
She flinches a bit when you start wiggling your fingers but she doesn’t fly away. Instead you could see the feathers on her head lift slightly. Is that some kind of invitation for me to pet her? Better be careful...
Slowly you move your hands up to her head. It was going good for a while but eventually the inevitable happens. She bit your thumb and she wasn’t planning to let go. If it wasn’t for the fact that she was the property of the ruler of the lands you reside in you would have probably strangled her.
Fighting against the excruciating pain in your left thumb you move your right hand up to her head and slowly begin to scratch underneath her feathers. Luckily, it worked. She closes her eyes and lets your thumb go. Afraid that if you stop the massage she might bite again you just continue the massage paying no attention at all to your sore thumb.
After a few minutes she finally has enough but instead of going away she spreads her wings. It takes you a moment to realize that what Philomena wants. Preening it is then...
You thought Philomena would eventually fly away but it has been 15 minutes now and you’re still preening her. Then finally princess Celestia walks into the room and Philomena flies away. Saved!
“Good Morning Celestia, I’m not used to see you being late for anything really.” you say.
“Good Morning Anonymous, I still had some business to attend to. I arranged a royal chamber for you to sleep in,” she says.
“I’m getting a new room? A royal chamber!?” you say excited.
“Indeed.”
“But why?” you know you really shouldn’t ask and just be happy with it but the desire to know why is too overwhelming.
“It’s the least I can do for my friend,” she says with a small smile.
You rush out of your chair and run over to Celestia stopping right in front of her and yanking her into a hug. The hug only lasts for a few seconds and when you release her you notice a mighty blush is present on her face. It was an adorable sight to see.
“W-why did you do that,” she stutters.
“Just a way of saying thank you.””
You both walk towards the table, sit down and grab the casual food you grab every day.
“So, what do you have planned for today,” you ask gobbling up your last pieces of bread. Celestia was already done eating a long time ago.
“Unfortunately I don’t have royal duties to perform today,” she answers.
“What about if we go for a walk in the royal garden?”
“I’d love to, Anonymous.” she says.
“Please, call me Anon. It makes me feel more comfortable.” you explain.
“Okay then, Anon. Shall we?” She says standing up and walking towards the door.
Within the garden were only the finest looking plants in all of Equestria. It was a very peaceful and soothing place as the scent that roamed around this place seemed to make your head feel a bit numb.
“Anon, you shouldn’t spend time with me out of sympathy, that is not your duty. “She says looking over to you. Where did she get those thoughts?
“Celestia, I do not see this as my duty. I see this as spending time with the most beautiful mare I’ve ever seen and that just happens to be the ruler of Equestria. I’m your friend, let those thoughts out of your mind,” you say looking deep into her eyes trying to show your honesty.
Instead of responding she lunges forwards and wraps her wings around you. She was very soft and her warmth seemed to stream through your body. Realizing this was some kind of hug you put your arms around her as well.
“Thank you Anon.” she whispers.
“That’s what friends are for.” When you release Celestia you are surrounded by a blinding light. What the? After your vision returns you are in an unfamiliar room with Celestia standing next to you.
“Where are we?” you ask confused.
“This is your new room, Anon. I hope you like it.” She says.
Damn, it was huge! There was a bed in the right corner that was easily big enough for 3 grown men. It also had more accessories than your other room. This one had a couch, a bookcase, a table surrounded by chairs and a desk with multiple quills and paper on it. The desk stood in front of a massive window through which you could see all of Canterlot and its beauty.
“What's behind that door?” you ask.
“Why don’t you take a look?” She says smiling.
You walk over to the door and turn the doorknob. Behind the door were dozens of different equestrian wines and other beverages, from simple apple cider to the finest of all.
“You may drink all you want as it is refilled every week.” Celestia says trotting over to you. Near unlimited drinking? Niiiceee.
“I have an Idea.” you say grabbing a random bottle.
“Ugh,” you lazily groan. “What happened?” Your mind feels numb and you could feel an abrupt jolt of pain with every thrust of blood pumping through your head. The only thing you could remember is that you and Celestia were drinking...
Oh crap! Where is Celestia?
You were in your new room and bottles were spread all over the couch and table that stood in the middle of the room. Try as you might to recall that night, the headache from your hangover throbs more painfully. “Damn,” you mince a curse through your gritted teeth.“Maybe I should’ve stopped at three bottles.”
You gingerly slide your feet off the bed down to the marble floor, doing your best to keep your balance in place as you wobble your way awkwardly toward the restroom. Triumphant, you make it to the bathroom without a singletrip or stumble. But the moment you enter the lavatory your vision blurs and your stomach starts acting funny. You begin to feel as if something had ran you over, and the signs from your body indicate the inevitable. Now you really wish you hadn’t drank that much. Your instincts kick in as you rush to the toilet as hastily as possible and kneel down with your face hovering over the bowl. You hold your stomach to resist, but to no avail as you puke out what would be your yesterday’s dinner: chilly. “Good lord!” you grimace as you again let out another stream of vomit.
After that excruciating experience, you flush the yucky stuff down the toilet and must now rid the vomit smell lingering in your mouth. You survey the counter for your toothbrush and realize why you can’t find it.
It was still in your old room, you haven’t had the time yet to transfer your stuff, that includes fresh clothes. Well, no problem. I’ll just stop by at my old room before I go get breakfast. With those thoughts you leave your new room and head back towards the old one.
Getting there proved to be a bigger problem than you thought. As stated earlier, this castle is friggin huge! After getting lost a couple of times and having to ask the royal guards where your old room was, you finally arrived at your old room. Oddly enough, the room was locked. Why! Your stomach was showing massive protest to all the walking you had done on an empty stomach. Food first, problems later.
You arrived at the breakfast hall, and there, at the table, sat the most beautiful being you have ever seen. Wait what? Where did that come from?
“Good morning, Anon,” she says in her soft voice. This has triggered something, slowly memories of last night start returning...
~~~~~Flashback~~~~~
“Come, sit down.” you said to Celestia as you walked over to the couch. Doing this was quite difficult as you couldn’t seem to find your balance. Eventually you managed to wobble over to it without falling.
Celestia simply followed you without speaking a word. She seemed a bit absent minded as she too had difficulty reaching it. Several moments after you were able to sit down, she plopped herself next to you. Taking this as a cue to begin, you pass your hand through her left wing carefully lifting the feathers. Celestia visibly flinched as she moves a little further away from you.
“Oh sorry, did I hurt you?” you asked worryingly.
“N-no, w-what are you doing?” she stuttered as she looked at you with wide eyes.
“I wanted to preen your wings, but I won’t if you don’t want me to,” you explain. Philomena seemed to like it... Are pegasus wings more sensitive?
She doesn’t answer, instead she just moves closer again spreading her wings in the process. You grin at the sight and begin once again, although this time you do it more carefully, lifting her feathers one by one softly touching the skin underneath. Every once in awhile you could hear small hums escape her mouth. Wow, she’s liking this. It was fairly dark by now and the chandeliers suddenly ignite. How the- oh yeah, magic. The candlelight's illuminations fell on Celestia and you noticed how majestic this mare actually was. The perfect curves her body possessed, followed by her beautiful wavy mane that flowed besides your body. Suddenly Celestia shifted her head, meeting your gaze. You caught yourself staring into her soft lavender eyes. Why is she so attractive! I know that alcohol makes the ugliest girl attractive, but does it make horses look like sex bombs?
Celestia slowly half-lidded her eyes and gave you a sly grin.
“Please, go on.” she insisted in a seductive tone.
At that moment you started feeling slightly uncomfortable.
"I-I think we should call it a night." you managed to stutter as Celestia crept closer.
"Oh, why that sudden decision?" she asked, repositioning herself. She was now laying her body on your lap, her eyes still staring into yours.
"Eh... It was a fun night, too bad everything must come to an end so soon." your mind failed to come up with logical answers as you tried speaking whatever was the first thing that came to mind.
"It doesn't 'have' to."
She obviously drank too much as well, more reason for me to send her away.
You move yourself away from Celestia as she was getting uncomfortably close.
The vision starts to blur and from that point onward you can’t remember anything else after that.
~~~~~
You still stood in the breakfast room and Celestia was giving you a curious stare.
"Oh eh, morning Celestia. D-do you..." you weren't able to get it through your throat, you wanted to ask her about last night, but fear was stopping you. "D-do you know what happened last night? I-I can't seem to remember."
"I seem to have little memory about what happened last night as well, I do remember however that you send me away in the middle of the night." She says taking a sip from her morning tea. Phew, maybe we didn't...
"Sorry about that, I just wanted to make sure that nothing happens that we would later regret.” Celestia visibly flinches at your words. Oh crap, something did happen! If she, master of the pokerface, manages to flinch. That means it must have been pretty bad. Somethings are better untold...
“Soo, where are we going today?” You quickly ask trying to change subject.
“I have taken a day off today, so I’m the one who should be asking.” she responds with a small smile. Ah great, more stuff to think about. Instead of answering, you just walk over to the table and sit down. “Maybe we c-” A loud squawk nearly made you jump off your seat as Philomena, the majestic phoenix she was, appeared next to you. The feathers on the back of her head were lifted, just like the last time.
“Fine, fine. Let’s get this over with.” you say unwillingly. Swiftly, Philomena hops down onto your lap and spreads her majestic wings as she awaits you to do the first move.
Several minutes of preening later, you notice that Celestia was curiously eyeing you from the other side of the table. Well, not exactly you, but more like your hands.
“Is something wrong?” you ask.
“N-no, I was just thinking about something, it wasn’t of any importance.” she says looking away. Oh, speaking without looking me in the eyes? That’s bad acting, you knew for sure she was lying.
“I can preen your wings if you want.” you offer straight away. Again you notice a visible flinch from Celestia as her eyes go wide.
“W-well you see, ahh. I think you should read this, Anon.” she says as her horn glows white and a book appears in front of you. “Pegasus anatomy” read the book’s title.
"I sincerely recommend you read that." Celestia says in a shockingly serious tone. What is wrong with her, did I do something? You had no idea what was happening here whatsoever.
“Ok, I’ll read it later,” you say grabbing the book.
“No I really, really recommend you read that right now.” Celestia heavily insists, her brows barely narrowing to further display sternness which you greatly notice.
Sheesh okay, relax woma- err... mare.
“Uhh, ok? I guess I’ll see you later,” you grab the book and say your goodbye, leaving the room and starting to walk towards your own. Heh, Pegasus Anatomy. Reading isn’t really your thing, and being forced into reading something doesn’t help on that preference either.
~~~~ You were sitting at the desk in the middle of your room with the book in front of you. Ok, here we go. Opening the first few pages only revealed some boring stuff about who wrote the book and in what year, quickly you skip all those pages until you arrive at the table of contents.
She didn’t say what I should read, she simply said “Read it”. We all know that isn’t gonna happen. IF, I’m going to read this, I might as well start with the things that interest me.
A supposed hour has passed as you continue perusing the table of contents, searching for a subject that isn’t too boring. Then, your eyes fall upon that one topic that has always boggled your mind.
“Pegasus Wings,” read the subtitle. Time to unravel the mysteries of flying horses.
You go to the indicated page and begin reading; sadly enough it wasn’t as interesting as you thought it would be. Most of it were boring facts like:
Pegasus wings are bigger and heavier than bird wings. The wingspan of a pegasus does not affect the ability to fly. Sexual pleasure is achieved by softly touching the skin underneath the feathers.
“Wait... WHAT THE!?! SEXUAL FRIGGIN PLEASURE? All those times I have... and she didn’t...”
You continue reading.
When aroused, the wings of a pegasus stiffen to the point that folding them back is impossible.
But, but... that night, Celestia and I were drunk. I was stuck in a room with an aroused horse and I can’t even remember what happened...
“NOOO!” You throw the book off the desk, run out of the room and start running back to Celestia’s chamber. Have to Apologise. Have to make sure nothing happened.
Moments later you arrive there and hastily knock on the door. The second the door opens you simply lose all control and start blurring out everything in your mind.
“Celestia Im so so sorry, I mean, I didn’t kno-... and your wings, we were drunk-”
Suddenly, a bunch of your mixed stammering and jabbering was halted by a goddess’ hoof planted on your lips.
“Don’t worry, Anon, everything is fine. You did nothing wrong.”
“B-b-but there is!” you nervously stutter. “I… I touched you. While we were drunk! And I don’t even know what happened after.”
“Ah yes, that night was quite fun, actually,” she says with a small serene smile. You were left mouth agape.
“D-do you m-mean we... and that you... ‘n your wings,” you say shakily. No please no...
At this she simply lets out a giggle.
“No, we have not. Once again, don’t worry. I forgive you for molesting me.”
“MOLESTING YOU?! But you sai-” She then bursts out in laughter on the floor in front of you.
“You should have seen your face!” She slightly gasps between breaths. All you could do is awkwardly smile as she slowly regains her composure.
“Well, I actually didn’t...not like it,” she says when she’s done laughing. Didn’t not like it? As in, she liked it!?
Several awkward moments pass as your mind processes all the information you just received.
“Ehh yeah, I think... I should get back to my room,” you say, trying to escape all the awkwardness.
“Very well,” You were about to turn around, but she spoke once more.
“Oh, and could you be present here at my room tonight?” Celestia asks. At her room? Tonight?
“Yeah, sure? Is there a special reason?” you ask out of curiosity.
“Not In particular; I simply need to discuss some things with you.”
“Ok, sure.” Please don’t let it be related with what I just found out. With that thought said,you gingerly say your farewells and leave the room.
Well, that went better than expected. Only now that I have to be at her room tonight for who the hell knows what... But until then, I think I deserve a nap.
~~~~ On your back, you lie dead asleep underneath your soft and plush comforters. Scratching your bare chest, you then roll over lying flat on top of your stomach snatching your pillow in the process and hugging it as tightly as possible
"Mmmm," you inaudibly moan in pleasure.
"Gee, Celestia, I never knew how incredibly soft you are," slowly you start planting small kisses on your pillow.
“You’re so beautiful... I wrote you a poem... When I close my eyes you’re all I see, that reminds me every time that you mean the world to me. When I look in your eyes full of passion and fire, I realize you’re the only one that can please my hearts desire...” You open your eyes abruptly at the realization of what the heck you were doing. Great, so I’m infatuated with the princess of ponies now?
You throw the pillow off as you squirm out of bed. A quick glance at your clock reveals the time to be 9PM!
“AH CRAP!” You exclaim panickingly. In haste, you grab your clothes, put them on, and storm out of your room as swiftly as your tired legs can move.
She said tonight, right? 9PM is tonight...right... With no time to lose, you sprint through the halls of the castle on your way to Celestia’s chamber. Upon arrival, you spare some time regaining your composure and lower your heart rate. When you’re finally calmed down you knock on the door. Hoof steps could be heard behind it and after several moments the door opens revealing a rather stunning Celestia.
“Wow Celestia, you look positively amazing!” You say admiring the sight in front of you.
“Hello to you as well, Anon.” She says with a soft smile.
“Ehh, sorry I’m late...” You say, swallowing the lump in your throat.
“No matter. Now come, follow me. We have things to do...”
Slowly you walk in to Celestia’s chamber and close the door behind you. The chandeliers were not lit, the only lights available in the room came from a few candles on her desk and next to her bed. Celestia trotted off in front of you, letting you follow her through her room and out to the balcony. Upon reaching the balcony, she stands still. Oh crap, what now. You simply walk over and take place behind her... At an appropriate distance, of course.
“Come, Anon. Take place beside me.” Celestia says with her serene, soothing voice.
You walk over to her slowly and stand next to her. Oh jeez, she’s not trying to set anything up, is she?
“Behold, the glory of my sister’s night.” The stars seemed to shine brighter than ever and the moon seemed almost magical, expanding its glow throughout all of Canterlot. You have to admit, it’s a beautiful sight to see despite the nervous build-up you’re having.
“You see, this wasn’t always the case, such a beautiful night. The past thousand years I was in charge of the day and the night. I was never able to truly show its glory because that simply wasn’t my specialty.” Celestia continues.
“The banishment of Luna...” You mumble. You could remember reading a book about it in the royal archives section of the castle. It was more interesting than tragic, actually.
“Those were lonely years... Even though I had the support of all my little ponies, losing my sister for such a long time had hurt me more than I thought it would; it left some kind of dissatisfaction within me. It wouldn’t go away, until that fateful day, the day you came along...” Celestia’s voice slowly muted at the end of her sentence. Even though it would normally be almost inaudible, you heard that somewhat loud and clear.
“Anon, I need to show you something. I want you to close your eyes...” You realize what is about to happen. The story... It was practically screaming her intentions. Yet, like this, looking at her in the moonlight. You’re unable to refuse and simply do what was told. You lean your body towards Celestia, closing your eyes, awaiting her next move. Tension begins to accumulate within your body. You’re expecting her any minute now.
And there it is, you could feel the warmth of her gentle lips pressing against yours. In a reflex you open your eyes, yet you don’t pull away, you couldn’t. It feels wrong,but oh so good at the same time.
Several moments later she parts from the kiss and looks passionately deep into your eyes. Thoughts race through your head, you have no idea what words to say next.
“Why, Celestia.” Is the only thing you could spit out, your mind astonished and even though you knew this was going to happen, it still left you speechless.
“Like I said, Anon. A thousand years alone. It left me with a feeling of need -- a need for somepony’s warmth and embrace; somepony I could rely on... That’s why I immediately offered for you to stay in the palace. I know it sounds selfish but I needed you close to me,” she says with a sad tone.
“But now it is for you to decide, Anon... What is it that you want?” She asks staring blankly at the ground. You know whatever you were going to say would change everything. Forever.
Celestia shuffles a bit uneasily on her place, awaiting your response. Even in this awkward position you can’t really deny how stunning she looks right now. You’ve always been able to laugh with her, share your memories with her, and enjoy spending quality time with her. It’s a perfect match... If it weren’t interspecies... You steal a quick glance at her face and note the rising disappointment. It’s now or never.
Instead of speaking the words, you place your hand on her cheek, “Celestia,” you whisper softly.
The moment she gazes up, you lean towards her and return her kiss because you are aware of what is truly happening. It feels a lot better this time even though Celestia is the shocked one now.
After you’ve had your moment, you end the kiss, leaving a stunned Celestia in front of you. Moments pass and when she finally realizes what you have done she throws herself at you, wrapping her wings around you as she squeezed tightly. Her embrace is so warm, you knew you did the right thing, for her and for you.
You couldn’t even answer, sudden euphoria prevents you from doing anything and left you only thinking of how happy you are.
The hug seems to last forever; you both standing there, sharing an embrace, on the balcony of the royal palace. Though you never wished for this to happen, but it still seems like a dream come true.
After the hug ends, you are the first one to speak up. Expressing your love felt great but you knew that it was going to get awkward again soon enough. You can’t keep hugging forever...
“So, what do we do now?” You ask.
“I know a little something we can do, “ Celestia says with a sly look on her face.
~~~
“I must say I’m disappointed.”
“I’m sorry that I couldn’t hold out longer, how did you get so good at this?”
“A thousand years of experience has given me a variety of skills that come in handy,” Celestia says with a divine smile plastered on her face.
“Yeah, I never knew you were so good in chess. I can forget winning mind games.”
You stifle a yawn while you stretch out your body, todays events have strained your mind and left you extremely tired.
“It was fun Celestia, but I really think I should get going now, I’m pretty exhausted and I don't think you’re wide awake either.”
“Anon wait, you know you can... you can stay here tonight... I mean, we are a couple now, right?” A couple... ofcourse.... It still feels very uncomfortable when you think about it, but you’re pretty sure your mind will get used to it as the time passes.
“It’s all I want ,Anon. You have no idea.” She says looking deep into your eyes. Her gaze was piercing, yet soft with so much compassion, understanding, and love... You knew she was the one, you felt she was the one, but why didn’t your mind accept this?
“Okay then.”
“Finally,” Celestia says giggling in glee. She radiated so much joy, you could only smile in response.
"Hmm," you murmur a bit as you try to open your eyes. Your mind felt a bit numb and your eyes were all groggy, the one thing you were sure of was that you weren't in your room and the sun has not risen yet. You remember everything what happened last night clearly, those were pleasant memories how you remember them. I have a gi- err, marefriend... now...
For some kind of reason those words actually stung deep inside your mind, waves of doubt were flooding you. She's a mare... A beautiful one, but still... Is this ok? You shift a bit uncomfortably on the bed, you knew Celestia was still sleeping behind you so you were trying to make the less noise as possible. Of Course it's okay, I mean look at her. At that you decide to turn around to look at your 'new found love'... To your surprise she was looking right at you, a soft smile present on her face.
"Good Morning, Anon," Celestia says shuffling a bit closer towards you. The sight of her made you internally happy, in a strange way actually. You were about to meet her halfway for a kiss but right before you were close enough...
"Ahh!" You scream as you backfire off your bed. Images of real horses back from earth began flashing through your mind. She's a horse! This is wrong! Get out of here!
"Anon, sweetie are you alright?" A concerned Celestia asks as she leans over to look at you. You were laying spread out with your back on the floor with little droplets of sweat covering your forehead.
"N-no, I-I,m sorry I-I have to get out of here," You stutter as you stand up quickly and start walking to the door. You were trying your best not to vomit in her room, it would only make things worse.
"Wait! Where are you g-" you cut her off.
"I need some time alone!" You say as you commence running towards the only place you could ever call home here in equestria, your own room... Other than some strange looks from the royal guards, everything goes well and you arrive at your room unscaved. You enter it and try to lock the door. Great! No locks when you need them.
You barricade the door with a chair instead, you needed some time to think this through. Things were going great... Why did this have to happen. To make things worse, t'was a fact that you resided in Celestia's castle, meaning that if you got on her bad side, you were a homeless foreigner in a land of magical talking ponies who'd probably know by then that you insulted their princess.
Minutes pass by as you lay motionlessly on your covers with no Idea what was going to happen, and no idea what to do...
Then, the silence was broken by Celestia's serene voice.
"Anon?! Don't worry, whatever is wrong, I can help you, I promise! I'm coming in now," Celestia says as the doors begin to glow.
You were expecting a loud bang, flashes of light or an explosion of some sorts. All wrong, the door gratefully swings open easily pushing the well placed door away.
"Anon, there you are! I was wo-."
"Wait," You spoke, halting her and stopping her from speaking.
"I need to ask you to leave, princess Celestia," You never called her princess before, it felt strange to you and you can only imagine how those words would feel to Celestia.
"P-princess, w-why would you call me that? Anon please tell me you're joking," She asks softly, you could see her eyes turning a bit reddish and you knew what you were doing would probably hurt a lot.
"I'm not joking, I'm sorry your highness bu-"
"No , Anon! Don't," She says leaping towards you. Instead of being able to grasp you in a hug, your reflexes made sure she was hugging air. By now you had a massive lump in your throat and were desperately trying to hide your true emotions.
"I can only ask you to go... Do it for me please," You say turning your back to her as you now faced the wall.
Moments pass without a response, small sniffs were the only things audible in your room. After some minutes of deadly silence, hoofsteps could be heard slowly muting into the background as your door clicked indicating the departure of the princess.
With the doors finally closed and Celestia gone, the first few tears start streaming down your cheek. Why does this have to be so hard, why couldn't she be human...
The rest of your day is spent sobbing into your pillow at the thought of the loss of a true friend and potential lover. No matter how much it hurt what happened this morning, you couldn't get over the fact that she wasn't your species. Images of horses kept floating through your mind. Damnit brain, why do you have to be such a bonerkiller...
It was already starting to get dark outside, but you weren't tired, most of your emotions already drowned away hopelessly. You knew you couldn't just go back and apologise, not yet at least...
You lift yourself off your bed and make your way to the balcony, a bit of fresh air can do no harm. Upon arrival you could see the setting sun and its beauty, followed up with the rising of the moon.
I shouldn’t even have let this go so far. It always felt so strange, yet I never knew what it meant. Maybe we aren’t meant for each other after all... Moments pass as you gaze thoughtlessly at the starry sky, absorbing the peace and quiet of equestria’s night. Feelings of emptiness are making your mind Drowsy. You could feel your eyelids getting heavier and the things around you were starting to fade away.
A soft thump on your back shocks you and stops you from dozing off, you quickly turn around to see what it was.
“Princess, Luna,” Luna spoke, her voice was fairly emotionless so you couldn’t recognize how she felt. Fear was filling up your mind, this couldn’t mean any good.
“W-what are you doing here,” you struggle to say, her very being here was freaking you out, especially after what you’ve done to Celestia...
“What hast thou done to our sister? Thou hast done nothing wrong to you,” She spoke again, this time a little more serious though.
“Listen, this has nothing to do with your sister. I just don’t think I’m ready for it yet.”
“For now, I simply want to be left alone. I-I want to get some things off my mind,” you spoke whilst your voice slowly muted.
“We don’t think so, if anything, thou should not keep thy worrying thoughts for thyself. Speak Anonymous, it brings up pain and let’s it go,” You think about it for a moment. Maybe she’s right, and I don’t really have other peop- pony’s I can talk to...
So you began. “Ever since I came here, no matter how much fun I was having. I could never let go of the thought that I might never go home, that I don’t belong here. Even though ponies seem to have accepted me, I still feel the distance, I can feel that I am not part of them.”
“And then, came your sister’s confession... A-and the mixed emotions, I just couldn’t take it anymore,” you confessed, it didn’t make you feel a lot better though.
“I see... Follow us, Anonymous. It might do thee well,” Before you could ask what she was going to do, you were levitated in the air, which felt pretty awesome, but frightened you at the same time. With a mighty flap of her wings she starts flying off your balcony, taking you with her.
“Wait Luna! I don’t want to go anywhere, alone time, remember!?” You desperately cry, you really hope she doesn’t take you to her sister, you couldn’t handle that at the moment.
Luckily for you, instead she lands on a soft cloud nearby, placing you on it aswell. For some reason, you didn’t fall right through but felt bouncy instead, that was a good thing though.
“This is where we used to go, when we felt alone and not accepted by our little ponies. Here we were alone, nobody to be afraid of us, nobody that cowered away in fear at the mere sight of what they thought was Nightmare Moon,” Luna spoke, even though her voice did not betray her emotions, you knew she didn’t like talking about this because... who does?
“Lonely, lonely nights were spent here Anonymous. Fiddling with our own thoughts, not knowing how to let them go. Eventually hurting ourselves so much, we didn’t even realize it until we changed...” She went on, you knew what she was talking about because you read a lot about. Hearing it from the mare herself made it feel more real, as it was as if you could feel it instead of just reading it.
“We do not want you to make the same mistakes, even though thy emotions are different than that of ours, it does not mean it can not scar you,” With that she stopped speaking, instead choosing to stare off into the distance. You think she was expecting you to talk now, but for obvious reasons you couldn’t really concentrate uphere... It can be relaxing for a winged creature to relax on a cloud, but being here, so high up in the air with no control of being able to save yourself if something happened didn’t make you feel so well.
“Can’t we talk somewhere else? Someplace with less altitude, you know, where I can’t die if I fall off,” You asked nervously.
“Why don’t we go back to my room, a bit of cider might help me open up a bit,” you suggested, you really didn’t want to talk, no matter what she said. But being back on stable grounds had a higher priority at the moment.
“As you wish Anonymous.”
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You arrived back at your room safely where you sigh in relief. You knew you could trust Luna, but it doesn’t mean that your gut feelings stop going apeshit when you are in an unknown environment.
A simple shake of the head is the response that you get. A satisfying response, with all the problems you already have, you didn’t want to hear the ones from a formerly rejected princess that could probably talk all night about what kind of depressing stuff had happened to her.
Moments later, you returned with a few bottles of random beverages. Taking a seat to the opposite of Luna, you open your first bottle and take a swig.
“Okay, where should I begin...”
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Everything seemed to be a bit foggy, you could see a vague image of a blue pony in front of you, and you were talking to her. You couldn’t even understand what you were saying nor what was being told to you. You tried to move, but that seemed to be impossible for some reason. In another attempt, you tried to move your arms towards your face that felt all warm and tingly, but with no success.
What the fuck is this.
No matter how much you squirmed, everything you did was with no result at all. You were about to start screaming when you could finally understand the words that were being told to you. The images were starting to become more visible as well and it became clear that Luna was the one speaking to you.
“We know enough Anonymous, it’s time for you to wake up...” Luna spoke. Wake up, wake up. Those words kept dwelling through your mind. Even though your eyes were wide open, you try to open them anyways, with success this time.
Slowly your eyes creaked open, revealing familiar decor. You were staring straight up at the ceiling with the burning sun shining in your face, for some odd reason you didn’t mind that this time. Heck, you woke up in your room for this once, that’s a good thing. You were completely satisfied with yourself until you felt a bit of movement beside you. Oh no, I can’t remember taking anyone to bed...
Fearing the worst you slowly tilt your head sideways to the right. You could see an object beneath your covers but were unable to identify who or what it was simply by guessing the shape, so to get a better view you decide to sit up straight.
“No way...” you whisper to yourself, before you lies the princess of the night herself... Yeah, I fucked up big time.
Ah I see... The princess of the night in my bed just after I broke up with her sister. Well that’s kinda... You simply lay back down on your bed. It’s not as if I’m not going to get locked up for this, why should I even try to struggle. You thought nonchalantly. However, after a while of imagining yourself in the canterlot dungeons, it still frightened you., so instead, you slooowly slip out of bed.
Good thing the bed was of good quality, you didn’t even make a sound whilst slowly escaping. It only tooky a matter of seconds to reach the exit.
Great, now to just slowly open the door...
“Good morning, Anonymous,” you heard Luna’s voice speak. It was too good to be true anyways.
You turn around nervously, expecting her to be right behind you. Instead ,she was still lying on your bed, simply faced towards you.
“Ow eh, hi there eh... Luna. Slept well?” You ask a bit shaky.
“We did not sleep, we simply observed,” She answered softly, an awkward grin plastered on her face. Okay...creep...
“Well ehh, Anywaays, I think I should get going, I’m pretty hungry byeee.” you say hastily as you turn around and speed out of your room. You could hear her say something right before you closed the door. However, it was inaudible thus it was never spoken...
Halfway through the hallways you realized that If you went to the breakfast hall to eat now. You’d probably encounter ‘youknowho’.
Back to the bedroom it is then... You sigh as you stop right in your tracks, almost tumbling over, and start returning back to your room. Seeing Celestia now wouldn’t do any good. It was still a good escape though... You internally high five yourself, even though it was an epic fail.
Upon return to your room, you slowly creaked open your door, revealing luna, still in your bed, looking straight at you.
You gulp. “On second thought, I’m still a little bit tired and need some more rest. No need for you to stay though, I’m sure you have lot’s of royal duties to perform.” you say with a big fake smile.
“On the contrary, Anonymous. For our sister takes responsibility of our duties in the day whilst we have control in the night,” she states calmly.
Ohh great, she’s not in the mood to leave... Veery convenient.
“Soo, Luna, about yesterday. Can you tell me err, what exactly happened?” you ask as you slowly make your way towards your bed.
“Ah yes,” She hummed in delight. “Twas a marvelous night, Anonymous. Thou hast made us the happiest mare alive last night. We promise not to enlighten our sister about what we saw unless thy feels the need to. “
“Ahh thanks......” Wait WHAT?!
“Ehh, enlighten her about what exactly?” You ask as your heart starts beating faster and faster, you didn’t like where this was going, not at all.
“But do you not remember anything of it? Tis a shame, allow me to show thee.” Luna said as her horn started to glow. “A simple memory spell will enlighten thou of the situation,” a light blue ball of light floated away from her horn and towards your head, engulfing it.
Moments pass with nothing happening, and you were about to say something about it, until...
“Ah!” you gasp as suddenly massive amounts of images start blurring your mind and everything around you starts fading away, until all went black...
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What feels like forever, later.
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You slowly creep open your eyes, revealing your bed chambers. Nothing special, except for that it was awfully dark. As your eyes adjust to the darkness, you could see Luna and yourself still sitting at your desk. You were obviously shitfaced drunk and Luna looked quite sober. Ah, so she didn’t drink after all. This could actually mean awkward things didn’t happen right? I mean, she was capable of thinking reasonable and would’ve stopped me if I was trying anything fun-
Your thoughts are interrupted as you see Luna slowly creeping closer to “you”, well actually, the “you” of last night. You could see her lips moving, yet you couldn’t hear a sound, everything was extremely muffled and even if you tried your best, not even a word was comprehensible. Suddenly, your very being was being sucked towards the ‘Last night you’. Your body started to deform, turning into a spiral as you were being sucked towards ‘your body’ Every muscle in your body tried to move away, but it was with no success. You were sucked right in and were now looking through ‘Last nights you’s vision.
“No Luna, we shouldn’t,” You say shuffling backwards on your chair, you couldn’t convince her though.
“Trust us, Anonymous. This is something thou needs, we shall make thee feel better. Show us thy true feelings Anonymous.” Luna says with a seductive grin. Damn, talk about a hot sister...WAIT WHAT!? You weren’t under effect of any form of alcohol at this moment, yet still your mind found the need to fill your mind with naughty thoughts. Your body recoils back, as you fall off of the chair, only for Luna to take advantage of the situation and jump you.
She was on top of you now, and before you knew it, She was creeping closer, ever so slowly. Every muscle in your body tried to move away, but you couldn’t. You couldn’t stop the motion of Luna, you couldn’t stop her with your hands. You tried to scream, but not a sound could be heard. At the last moment, just before you thought the worst might happen (or has happened) her horn touches your head instead, making another flash of images spawn within your thoughts.
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This time, Celestia shows up in your field of view. “So this is some kind of flashback, in a flashback?” You mumble to yourself. To your surprise, you could actually hear yourself this time.
“Indeed you are correct, Anonymous” A regal voice surrounded you, not coming from any specific direction.
“Thou hast seen this before, but has forgotten once again. Last night it made thee very decisive, let’s hope it does once again...” With that the voice slowly faded away. You wanted to respond, but once again you were not able to speak. You could still see Celestia in your view, but she started moving now. Slowly at first, but after a while the images went full motion. It were the moments you had spent together with her, the images focusing around her emotions.
You used to think that Celestia was a complete beast in holding her pokerface, but these flashbacks proved you wrong. It was the little things that made her flinch, or fluster. The small touches, the are hugs, the whispers in her ear.Even if it was for only a mere second, you could notice now.
Damn, we sure were together for an awfully long time...
The Images started to turn towards more recent times, just a week before her confession. The emotions most visible on her face were becoming blushes more often. There were so many, it felt like you had failed miserably not being able to notice any of these.
Suddenly, your vision turned black, for just a second, before it returned. You had been transported to a new place. It was a very dark room, lit by some chandeliers and the moonlight streaming in from the balcony. You recognized this place all to well, it was Celestia’s room.
To your delight, you had regained the ability to move around freely, and started exploring the room. It was quiet, not even the small flames seemed to flicker or pop a bit. Eerie silence covered the room.
“Move closer towards the bed, Anonymous. T’would be a shame if you missed out.” There was that voice again, seemingly within your own mind. You decide to do as it says and move closer to the bed.
There lied Celestia, underneath her covers. It wasn’t quiet anymore, you could hear whispers and soft mumbles. To be able to hear it, you decide to move closer, until you were standing mere inches away from Celestia. Positioning yourself behind her, you were now able to understand the words she was speaking.
“Anonymous, why is it that you won’t leave my thoughts...” You flinch at that, thinking she was actually speaking to you. “ Why is it that I feel this neediness within me, why is it that I crave you... W-why... It’s such a meaningless thought really, but it won’t leave me alone. C-can you truly love me?”
Can I? That thought has roamed my mind aswell...
“I’m probably silly for thinking so, but even if you break my heart... you’re worth it...”
You wanted to hug her, right here right now. But just as you were going to move towards the mare in question. Your vision blurs once again.
Damn it! I was just about to-
“T’was a mere illusion, Anonymous. Thou wouldn’t have been able to interact with it. However, thy waiting shall be over soon. As we have arrived at the final moment I wish for you to see. Tis a dream of our sister, the one she had after the night thy had spent together.’.
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You regain your sight once more, you were in the same place, but this time both of you were present. You could see yourself and Celestia in her chambers, both of you lying on the bed. You were busy preening her wings, like you had done a few times already. This time however, you were positioned directly behind her in a sitting position, you both looked so happy.
“A-Anon...” Celestia stuttered a bit.
“Hmm?”
“Please promise me... promise me that we’ll be together forever.” She whispered.
You chuckled a bit as you grasped Celestia from behind, hugging her tightly. A small squeak escapes her mouth as she wiggles within your hug.
“Celestia. I promise you. We’ll be together forever.” You say with a small smile.
You could see her eyes becoming slightly watery as she turns around in one swift movement, knocking you over whilst positioning herself on top of you.
“T-thank you...” She smiles, as she slowly started leaning towards you.
Her lips... You could remember them from the last time. You wanted to feel them again, kiss them. You didn’t get the chance however.
Your spirit seemed to escape your body, giving you a third person view of this situation. A small tear rolled down your face as you looked at what could have been. At what you were going to miss out. Yet you were so foolish... She dreamed that it would last forever... and her dream got smashed only a few hours later...
What have I done... Your body slowly started fading away, upwards, slowly disintegrating into nothingness. I’m sorry...
And everything went black once more...
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You slowly open your eyes, revealing yourself to be back in your own chambers.
“I-is this another flashback?”You mumble a bit. With that, Luna pops up right in front of you, inches away from your face with a massive grin on her face.
“Thy has awoken! Hast thou remembered?.”
You recoil backwards, smacking your head against the wall. “FUCK, that hurts!” You curl up, biting through the throbbing pain.
“Y-yeah yeah, Thanks L-luna, I have to g-go. I made a big m-mistake.” You say grimacing through the hurtful throbs within, rubbing your head in an attempt to relieve the pain. You felt extremely dizzy, but you felt as if there was no time to lose.
Nearly falling over, you crawl off the bed and start sprinting towards the door.
I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid. Those lines kept repeating themselves over and over again as you sprinted through the massive halls of the canterlot castle.
If I could kiss her before, why can't I kiss her now?. And if she could accept me, why couldn't I accept her!? Each time you thought about it, the decisions you made kept becoming more painful and started to sound more stupid each time.
I'm going to set things straight now though, I'm going to tell her how I feel and I'm going to hug her and, and - Your thoughts were cut off by hoofsteps sounding from the other side of the building. Slowly and elegantly the mare you were looking for trotted through the hallways.
But what if she doesn't want me back...
She seemed to notice you as you both made eye contact. What frightened you was that she had her pokerface back. This time it felt colder, though...
"Greetings, Anonymous." She spoke first. Crap, my full name.
"Oh eh, he- hi, pr- eh Celestia." Not even one meaningful word was able to escape your mouth as you failed miserably in the most simple of greetings.
With this small exchange of words Celestia started to walk again as she broke eye contact and stared straight forward. She probably wasn't planning on reïnitiating the conversation, If you could even call it that.
"W-wait I need to talk to you Celestia," you spoke quickly. Luckily, she stopped, she didn't answer though.Well it wasn't really a question...
"I'm sorry, Celestia... I... " Again you were at loss of words. "I'm so sorry, I mean I-" Celestia cut you off this time.
"Apology accepted," She spoke as she started walking again. Again, it sounded so cold. You weren't sure of what you had to do, should you persist? Do you have to confess? Did she truly forgive you? Time was ticking as she already had passed you and the distance between you two was slowly increasing.
"I love you..." Were the words that came out of your mouth, the words were broken, muffled, monotone... Yet it was truly all you had to say. Celestia stopped right in her tracks once more, giving you a small sliver of hope.
"H-how can you still speak those words..." Her voice cracked slightly at the beginning but she quickly regained her composure as she finished the sentence.
"I made a huge mistake, I really do love you Celestia, it only took me a while to real-" She cut you off.
"Liar! You've spoken those words before, but you... You..." This time she was unable to keep calm as a tear trickled down her face. "Y-you told me you loved me, you held me, you kissed me... People who love each other don't hurt each other A-anon... Yet... yet you broke me... It really hurt Anon..." You could feel the emotion in the words she spoke, you really did hurt her.
"I need you... I'm sorry," You spoke again, trying your best to think of something, but being unable to.
"Liar Liar Liar! How can I know you won't hurt me again... H-how can I know you won't just run off again... Leave me alone again... " Her tears were forming faster and seeing her like this wasn’t doing you any good either.
Instead of responding you started to walk towards her, you had no idea what to do, but you wanted to embrace her, cheer her up. Anything but looking at her like this was good for the moment.
You didn’t actually get the chance though, right before you were going to make contact, she spoke up.
“I-I can’t...”And with that she disappeared right in front of your eyes, no trail of smoke, no flashing light. Even if her horn was actually glowing, you wouldn’t have noticed it anyway. All that was left was you with one arm in the air. As you slowly let your arm fall, you let out a defeated sigh.
“I guess I lost, then.” The words you spoke were cold, but you were burning on the inside. You could feel sadness slowly building up inside you as you turned around and started to make your way back to your room.
A flash of light from behind stopped you right in your tracks. Maybe she came back. With a small bit of hope you turned around as quick as you could.
“Celestia you came ba-” Instead of being greeted by the sight of Celestia, Luna was the one who had appeared behind you.
“Too good to be true anyways...” You weren’t really in the mood for another deep conversation so you just turned around and started walking again.
“Where art thou going, Anon.” You could hear her regal voice speak from behind you.
“I don’t know, to my room probably. Somewhere I can slip down into depression in peace.” You spoke in monotone, not really caring anymore.
“Fool, our sister is giving thee a chance. Why ruin this opportunity?” She spoke slightly irritated.
“A chance? Did you actually see what happened right there? She rejected me, to the face actually. It was a simple ‘no’, she didn’t give me a chance.”
“She told thee that she lacked trust. Show her that she can trust thee, show her that thou can love her once more. Our sister is in her room, we cannot force thee, but know that thou are not allowed to make any more of mistakes if you still wish to regain the heart of our sister,”
You didn’t know what to say, you knew that Luna was right though. If you wanted to set things straight, you couldn’t make any more mistakes. Each one you made was a stab in an open wound from now on.
“Okay, I’ll try once more.” You responded. A small smile appeared on Luna’s face as her horn started glowing.
“I wish thee luck, young Anon.” Suddenly the glow started to make it’s way towards you and started to spread throughout your whole body.
“Wait what are you-” Suddenly you were sitting in the hallway towards Celestia’s room. Why you were actually ‘sitting’ in the hallway was something that confused you, but the teleporting itself was actually quite amusing.
You could see the door that lead into her room from where you were, and the guards who stood before it... Well, thanks Luna... You quickly stand up and dash towards a pillar, hoping you haven't been noticed by the guards yet.
“Where art thou going, Anon.” You could hear her regal voice speak from behind you.
“I don’t know, to my room probably. Somewhere I can slip down into depression in peace.” You spoke in monotone, not really caring anymore.
“Fool, our sister is giving thee a chance. Why ruin this opportunity?” She spoke slightly irritated.
“A chance? Did you actually see what happened right there? She rejected me, to the face actually. It was a simple ‘no’, she didn’t give me a chance.”
“She told thee that she lacked trust. Show her that she can trust thee, show her that thou can love her once more. Our sister is in her room, we cannot force thee, but know that thou are not allowed to make any more of mistakes if you still wish to regain the heart of our sister,”
You didn’t know what to say, you knew that Luna was right though. If you wanted to set things straight, you couldn’t make any more mistakes. Each one you made was a stab in an open wound from now on.
“Okay, I’ll try once more.” You responded. A small smile appeared on Luna’s face as her horn started glowing.
“I wish thee luck, young Anon.” Suddenly the glow started to make it’s way towards you and started to spread throughout your whole body.
“Wait what are you-” Suddenly you were sitting in the hallway towards Celestia’s room. Why you were actually ‘sitting’ in the hallway was something that confused you, but the teleporting itself was actually quite amusing. You could see the door that lead into her room from where you were, and the guards who stood before it...
Well, thanks Luna... You quickly stand up and dash towards a pillar, hoping you haven't been noticed by the guards yet.
You quietly move from pillar to pillar using your super impressive ninja skills. One by one you get closer to the guards, you actually had no idea if they had already seen you and just hope for the best that they did not.
After about 5 minutes of sneaking around you finally manage to get reasonably close to the guards, there were only 5 pillars left so you decide to sneak a peak.
Poking your head slightly left from the pillar, you peer at the guards that stood before the door. It was at this moment that you realized that you can’t simply sneak past guards when they’re guarding a closed door. There was literally no way you could actually open that door and pass through that only entrance without them noticing.
You sigh in defeat.
“You guys have already spotted me anyway haven’t you.”
“Yep,” Both the guards respond at the same time.
“So can I come in or nah?”
“The princess has been expecting you, Anonymous.” One of them speaks up as they both make way and open the doors.
Oh, that was easy.
You’re glad you didn’t do anything rash or irrational at this point, but you knew the hard part still had to start. You take a deep breath and step inside.
The room was dim, a few candles on a table were the only sources of light. Thanks to the soft glow of the candles you could see where Celestia was. She was lying in her bed, no movement at all.
“Hey,” You awkwardly start, you had no idea what you had to say or do.
Celestia not responding wasn’t helping at all in this situation. A slight twitch in her wing was the only evidence you had that she might not be sleeping yet.
You decide to walk over towards the bed and slowly take place on it. Still no reaction from Celestia.
“Celestia, I’m so so sorry,” you began. “ I have no Idea what came over me, but I’ve never regretted a decision so much in my whole life!”
“Apology accepted,” Celestia finally spoke, but she had already spoken those words once, and yet again, they felt cold. You didn’t want her to accept your apology, you wanted her to...
“Do you still love me?” You decided to ask. This finally provoked a reaction in her as she finally turned around to face you. Her eyes were slightly red but she wasn’t crying, it still hurt you to see her like this though.
“What about you Anon, do you still love me?” She asks in response
“Of Course I do! I mean... That’s why I’m here... Celestia I need you,” You spoke.
“B-but how can I know that for sure!?” She says, her emotion now truly evident in her voice. “How can I know you won’t leave me aga-” You cut her off by pressing your lips against hers. Her warmth spreading throughout your body as you made contact. She didn’t pull back, she just stayed in the same position.
The moment you pull back and take a look at her, you can see a lot of different emotions present on her face. Sadness, a little bit of anger, slight disbelief.
“Please give me another chance Celestia.” You spoke softly, cupping your hand around her cheek. It seemed like she was thinking in her self for a moment as you both fall silent. She was staring at her hooves the whole time.
“O-only if you P-promise me you won’t leave me again.” She says coming a bit closer to you. Her eyes were slightly teared up now.
“Never again,” you say as you embrace her. You came here to ask for her forgiveness, maybe talk a bit about what happened. Actually having her in your arms right now felt so good. It felt so... Natural... Like it was the way it was supposed to be.
“I’ve missed you so much, Anon.”
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The next couple of days passed pretty uneventfully. You and Celestia had made up, but weren’t sleeping in the same room yet. You both decided to take it a bit more slowly this time. It didn’t mind you though, as you were already happy that things worked out the way they did. You have no idea what it would feel like if she would have rejected you at that moment.
Luna was happy too that the both of you had made up, and even wanted to throw some kind of party to announce you and Celestia being together, but this also was something you both were against. It didn’t really fit in with the ‘taking it slowly’ part of it all.
You did start attending Celestia’s duties with her again, and even the boring parts felt like the best time of your life if you could spend it with her. If you weren’t mistaken, it felt like that for her too. At Least, that’s what you hoped.
Still, it did feel lonely in the night without Celestia. Even though you had actually only spent one night with her in total, she was always there nonetheless. Right up until the moment you both went to bed.
Today was yet another of those lonely night as you turn restlessly in your bed. You couldn’t sleep, you had no Idea why.
Suddenly you could hear your door slowly creep open, and to your surprise, Celestia sneaks in.
“A-anon, are you awake?” She whispers softly.
“Y-yeah, but, what are you doing here?” You ask a little confused.
“I can’t sleep...” She mutters softly.
She looked so adorable right now. You quickly shuffled to your right giving Celestia some space to lay down. The moment she saw this she happily took a leap straight onto you, not even onto the open space, just onto you. Luckily she did land softly.
She quickly put the blankets over her and started nuzzling your neck.
“Look at you, sneaking around the castle to get in bed with me.” You tease her as you put an arm around her. She doesn’t respond and simply gave a nibble on your ear instead.
You both stayed in this position for what seemed like eternity, and you were finally starting to feel a little tired. Right before you were about to fall asleep you could feel Celestia’s lips press against yours.
“I love you..” She spoke softly
“I love you too, Celestia.”
THE END!
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5 minutes later ----------------
“Oh Celestia, why couldn’t you sleep by the way?,” you ask out of curiosity.
“I don’t know, every time I thought I fell asleep I would wake up right before I would start dreaming.”, Celestia responds.
“Oh that’s odd, I had the same problem.”
You were experiencing exactly the same, every time it felt like you were about to dream, you would just instantly wake up.
You both look at each other as you both realize what was happening.
With your mightiest battle cry you start charging towards the guards.
“WULULULULU!” The guards visibly flinch the moment your cry commences, but soon put themselves in a battle stance, ready to retaliate the moment you get close.
“This is for Celestia, it’s my only choice!!” You keep telling yourself in your mind as the gap between you and the guards keeps getting smaller and smaller. You prepare yourself for your first attack, a flying dropkick would be a nice opener wouldn’t it?
It didn’t come to that though, as you were brutally interrupted by a sharp pain striking you in the back as you instantly fall to your knees. You try to turn around to look at what hit you, but fail because the movement proved too painful to do. The pain had progressed through your back towards your stomach area, looking down, you are horrified to see what had actually happened. There was a spear point sticking out of your stomach. You had been impaled.
You could see a bloodstain growing larger on your shirt, a feeling of panic is starting to well up in your mind. Your breathing becomes faster and heavier, and you suddenly don’t feel so well anymore. You fall down onto your side, a light taste of iron present in your mouth. Your vision starts fading but you manage to whisper one last thing.
“I’m.. sorry... Celest...” And with that, your vision fades completely.
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2 days later
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You hear voices but can’t understand what they are saying, slightly distorted visions of ponies against a white background walking towards you and then back from where they came from are all you see. You couldn’t count how many, everything was blurry.
Where am I? A feeling of cold numbness was present throughout your whole body. After attempting, and failing, to move your body you notice that you’re arms and legs are strapped down. Looking to the left, you see a distorted image of what seems like a heart rate monitor. Am I in a hospital? For a moment you wonder why this was the case, until it all came flooding back to you. Oh, yeah.. Right...
Thinking back on what you had done, maybe it wasn’t the best choice after all... Still, the binds that contained you were incredibly tight, even painfully so. You attempt to get the attention of one of the blurry ponies by making some noise. Your first attempt fails as you try to inhale deeply, but are stopped by a stinging sensation in your stomach. The pain makes your vision go black for a split moment, and your heartbeat instantly goes up making the monitor go crazy. This manages to catch the attention of some ponies as you could see some of them turn around. I was so stupid...
“rrrghaar....” Low pitched grumbles were all that you could produce, You could now see one of the blurs closing in on you. .
You look straight at the pony, it was a white mare with pink hair who had a nurses hat on her head.
“Doctor! He’s awake!” She yells after you manage to make eye contact with her.
You cringe at the loud sound and accidently contract some of your muscles, sending another stinging pain through your whole body. This time the pain proves too much as you can see your vision go black once more.
“A-ahh c-crap..” You gasp as you start to lose consciousness.
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You slowly open your eyes, it seems like your vision is partially regained as this time you could see the room more clearly. You also see all kinds of wires and tubes attached your body, you had failed to notice this the last time you were conscious, or maybe they put it just now? the room was dark, and it looked like there was no one left within the room except for you.
You let out a defeated sigh.
“Y- you’re awake?” You could hear a soft voice speak. It seemed oddly familiar
Looking to your right you notice that it was the same pony that called for a doctor right before you passed out. You simply look at her for the moment as the strain of moving your neck slowly faded. The nurse pony took a few steps backward, seemingly scared that you would do something..
You decide to speak up.
“P-please don’t be afraid...” You manage to whisper. Even only talking was taking way more energy than it should as only those few words left you pretty exhausted.
“I-it was an accident...” You said several seconds later, taking your time to rest up after each word. This didn’t make the pony less cautious as she still stayed a great distance away from you.
An awkward silence engulfed the room, she hadn’t spoken and simply stared either at you or at the floor the whole time. You carefully return your head to it’s original position, and close your eyes again. It’s only natural that ponies would be afraid now, right?
A few minutes pass, everything stopped hurting again, and you wanted to attempt to speak once more.
“What’s your name,” you ask softly, this time managing to restrain the pain to only a slight stinging sensation.
“No, you know what? Just no, fck this shit. I’m done, I’m out.” You suddenly speak up to yourself as you walk from behind the pillar and away from Celestia’s room. The guards notice your presence and both have a confused expression on their face.
“I’m not going to waste anymore of my time on this” You think to yourself as you maneuver through the hallways of the massive castle. Suddenly you are blinded a bright light appearing right in front of you.
“Nop, not anymore you don’t.” You say as you simply walk around the light and resume your march towards the exit of the castle.
“Oh and don’t bother to follow me, I’m sick of this shit, no more drama for me.” You say as you give whoever popped up behind you the finger as you keep walking.
“You probably don’t even know what that finger means but I don’t care! I’m a free man!”
And with that you disappear... Or well, you walked out the door and away from the castle.
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20 minutes later
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You had arrived at the center of Canterlot, it was already late in the evening but that’s only profitable in this situation. A bar will do me good right now.
Entering a random bar you immediately take a seat close to the bartender and grab his attention.
“Give me whatever you recommend to get drunk fast please.” You ask the bartender as you slide some bits over the bar.
“Sure buddy, tough night?” The bartender asks.
“I’d rather not talk about it” You tell him as he gives you you your drink. I’m here to forget, not to regret.
Taking a look around you you notice it’s fairly empty here. It’s probably because it’s still early, or maybe this place isn’t even a popular one, you really don’t know. There was one pony that grabbed your attention though, she already had 5 bottles besides her and she had just ordered a sixth.
“Heh, seems like I’m not the only one who’s having struggles today.” You chuckle to yourself.
The bartender overheard you and speaks up once he passes you.
“Yep, that’s another one that doesn’t want to talk, maybe you two should hook up, “ He says jokingly as he starts cleaning the bar table with a cloth.
“Give me three more of these,” You say after you took a sip of your drink. “No more hooking up for me anytime soon, oh god no.”
“Ah so that’s where yer problems are coming from, what’s the name of the filly? I know ‘m all,” The bartender says, clearly interested as to what was going on.
“Maybe when I’m drunk,” You say as he gives you the drink’s you’ve ordered. With a slightly irritated grunt he leaves you alone, and goes to serve other customers.
Normally you would’ve just talked with the man, seeing as you didn’t bring anyone with you, but not about that particular subject. It’s not something you wanted to be reminded off right now.
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As the night progresses start to notice that you’re already pretty drunk, random thoughts about ‘the one we’re not going to talk about’ flood your mind, and that’s something you don’t want right now.
As you look over to the mare you saw at the beginning of the evening, she had already collected 3 times the amount of bottles you had next to her. Dayum.
To keep your thoughts off of that one pony, you decide to take a seat next to the probably drunk mare.
“What brings you here?” You speak up.
“I’m not in the mood.” Was the only answer she gave. Just like the bartender said, she didn’t want to talk either. But hey, not like you had anything better to do.
“Ahh cmon, a talk won’t hurt. What’s your name?” You persist.
The mare visibly hesitated for a moment, but then still speaks up.
“The name’s Octavia. But look, I’m not interested in talking right now okay? Leave me alone.” She chugs down her last bottle. “Besides I was just about to take my leave anyways,” She says standing up and waddling towards the exit.
That is not going to go well You chuckle to yourself. Although it is a good Idea of her to go home now, you think that decision came a little too late.
You pay for your last drink and decide to follow and see if she makes it home. The whole time this mare was walking all over the place, miraculously dodging every stationary trashcan or bench she passed.
But it didn’t take long before she was already leaning against a streetlight to not fall down. But this decision also came a little too late, a few seconds later she smacks against the ground and remains there motionlessly You decide to wait a little, but there was no reaction at all. She remained still in the same position.
“Yep, good thing I followed her. Guess I have to take her home” You sigh.
