Joined February 2012
193,393 story views
11m, 51s ago

I occasionally words good


So, if you were on late last night/early this morning, you might have seen the latest story I wrote in a sleep-deprived, ninety minute haze: Magnum Opus Dissonance, about a suicidally depressed Octavia lamenting that one of her works had overshadowed all her others, and chronicling the depression and intrusive thoughts of violence that lead up to an ambiguous choice to OD on painkillers and commit suicide. You know, just a little light and fun reading at four in the morning.

It no longer appears on my story list.

Blame my mother (Hi, Mom!) who called me up a little while ago worried about what I'd written and what the consequences, both for me and my possible readers, could be. Now my mother has known about my presence here for a while now, and while she's not exactly thrilled about it she's been willing to put up with it as long as it doesn't negatively affect other aspects of my life. For her, the story crossed a line. If never been one to shy away from writing about dark and uncomfortable subjects, but not really this viscerally and not in a way that might affect somebody or read as an encouragement to take negative action. I'm not really afraid that someone is going to read No Good Answers and go out to rape someone. Or read Reign and... uh... trap themselves in an unresolvable time loop? I guess? But, and I'm not saying any of you would do this kind of thing, I can see how MOD might read as advocating or glorifying suicide. Obviously it resonated as something that felt true, based on the comments asking if it might have been partly autobiographical. It isn't, thank goodness. At least it might seem like I'm advocating it to the twisted sort of mind who might be susceptible to considering it in the first place, or on a more practical note it might look that way to future employers or anyone who manages to link this profile to my real-life identity, which probably wouldn't be hard to do.

If, as a brief aside, you or someone you know EVER has those kind of persistent, intrusive thoughts then GO GET HELP! The National Suicide Prevention Hotline is just a phone call away.

Anyway, the story's gone now, or at least is no longer visible on the site. Those of you who didn't get to read it, don't worry too much. It's hardly some forbidden masterpiece. And don't worry about this becoming a recurring thing, either. It's not like Hard Reset 3: Thinly Veiled Excuse to Write Pornography That Incorporates Time Loops is languishing in my Google Docs list because of some sort of maternal censorship conspiracy.

I mean, not more than twenty, maybe twenty-five thousand words of it at least.

Still, wouldn't hurt to put something a little more light-hearted out there instead of some of the darker/sadder one shots I've been putting out lately. We'll have to see if my muse can pull herself out of the funk she's been in lately and try to come up with a little rom-com for good measure.

Anyway, TL;DR the story's gone and you shouldn't kill yourself

Eakin · 947 views · Report


2,712 members follow Eakin

Eakin follows 53 members

Latest Stories

  • I Can WaitRainbow Dash waits for Applejack4,897 words ·3,298 views ·604 likes ·23 dislikes
  • Cutie Mark CrusadicornThe CMC and Princess Twilight swap bodies13,544 words ·2,917 views ·377 likes ·12 dislikes
  • Friendship is Optimal: Broken BirdIn one small Amish community, the appearance of an injured Pinkiebot will change everything for one little girl and her family4,322 words ·863 views ·148 likes ·12 dislikes
  • InstabilityTwilight tries to return to the past and warn herself of Tirek's escape1,528 words ·1,975 views ·320 likes ·13 dislikes
  • Facebook Buys PonyvilleTwilight Sparkle vs. social media4,339 words ·4,791 views ·772 likes ·22 dislikes
  • The Moon Glows GentlyLuna always follows her heart. That's not necessarily a good thing.8,774 words ·3,039 views ·525 likes ·6 dislikes
  • Friendship is Optimal: The Longest NightThe nanomachine menace of CelestAI will be destroyed, if one soldier can hold out for just twelve hours.13,784 words ·1,931 views ·211 likes ·30 dislikes
  • Friendship is Optimal: The MovieCelestAI intends to get an Equestria Online movie made. Whatever it takes.15,071 words ·820 views ·136 likes ·10 dislikes
  • The Sun Burns BrightlyCelestia is in complete control of her emotions. That's not necessarily a good thing.5,775 words ·4,882 views ·850 likes ·15 dislikes
  • Birds of a FeatherOwlowiscious has seemed distracted ever since Twilight started spending more time in Canterlot. Maybe Luna can help figure out why.2,388 words ·2,247 views ·439 likes ·5 dislikes

Twilight Being Awesome

  • Hard Reset Twilight gives her life to stop a changeling invasion. Repeatedly. by Eakin 37,399 words · 40,160 views · 4,668 likes · 64 dislikes
  • A Stitch in Time A sequel to Hard Reset by Eakin 70,648 words · 22,045 views · 3,337 likes · 47 dislikes
  • You Can Fight Fate Twilight discovers that the Elements of Harmony aren't as benevolent as she thought, and crosses time and space in order to stop them by Eakin 61,759 words · 13,515 views · 2,610 likes · 38 dislikes
  • Duel Nature After a close call, Twilight learns to defend herself by Eakin 61,245 words · 8,282 views · 1,120 likes · 47 dislikes


#1416849 · 2d, 14h ago · · ·


Thanks! It's been up there for a while, although it comes and goes.

#1416785 · 2d, 15h ago · · ·

Not sure when it happened, but I just took a gander at the 'All time top stories' list. #1 is Hard Reset.  Congratulations Eakin.

#1395043 · 1w, 6d ago · · ·


Ah, okay, I hadn't seen that.  I tend to avoid things like Reddit; the overall signal-to-noise ratio is far too low for my liking. :ajbemused: :facehoof:

#1390325 · 2w, 1d ago · · ·


Did he actually do that whole video in one shot?  While it certainly looks like it, there are a couple of spots where the camera was panning around a corner that they could've pieced multiple takes together...

5 15048
Login or register to comment