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Lightning Dust wakes up late, to another grey, gloomy day. She's cold and tired, and she's never felt so terrible in her life. But really, all she needs is to get back into a routine, or to see her friends, or to sleep a little bit longer... then she'll be fine.



"Jesus, man."


"I'm sad now. Like.. you don't even know."


Dramatic reading by Limey Reads

First Published
24th Oct 2013
Last Modified
24th Oct 2013
#1 · 157w, 15h ago · 3 · 1 ·

Goddammit, Para.

You keep doing this to me.

And I'm just stupid enough to keep reading... :pinkiesick:

#4 · 157w, 15h ago · · ·

This mood is basically my entire life, but nowhere near to this extent. It seems our tiny insect bodies are full negativity, eh parasprite?

#5 · 157w, 15h ago · · ·

[18:44:25] Selbi: you

[18:44:28] Selbi: god

#6 · 157w, 15h ago · 7 · 1 ·


sometimes we're happy

sometimes we're sad

sometimes we're sadder

#7 · 157w, 15h ago · · ·


There's some sad things known to man,

But there ain't too much sadder than

The tears of a clown,

When there's no one around.

#8 · 157w, 15h ago · · ·


Good job, man.

#9 · 157w, 15h ago · · ·

Gloomy Everyday

I know that feeling :eeyup:

#10 · 157w, 15h ago · 10 · ·

Fuck you Para, fuck you.

I was happy, I got a A on my Spanish test... by cheating, :moustache:, today was 50 cent hot wings day in the cafeteria... I got 15. Today was a good day.

And then... I read this... and now I'm upset, sad, and I almost felt a tear.  Almost.

That's really commendable, since the only fics that make me cry are one's that have Spike dying. I don't even like Lighting dust! And this will be the only Lighting Dust story in my favs.

#11 · 157w, 15h ago · 3 · ·

"Jesus, man."


#12 · 157w, 15h ago · 5 · ·


I lawled at this.

#13 · 157w, 15h ago · 3 · ·

Goddamn it. This really brightened up my day. Thanks.

#16 · 157w, 15h ago · · ·

Damn, this actually made me feel a little sad... Parasprite, what the hell have you done to me?

#17 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


Just some minor alterations to your emotional processing unit.

#18 · 157w, 14h ago · 2 · ·


He'll tell you soon.

A few hours.



Some day.

#19 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


Damn it, I just managed to get it right! :raritycry:

#20 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


He replied.

Your predictions were false.

#21 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


deep down, he knew i would

#22 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


Is he... a prophet!? All this time, the answer to my questions has been lurking here!

#23 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


But what if he was lying to cover up the truth? What if it was too painful (or too hilarious to watch you be sad) to inform you of the truth, and he planned to tell you later? Or tomorrow? Some day?


Look at dat poker face. The small smile, and green beady eyes. You know I'm right.

#24 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


Ditt liv det har inga färger

Din själ den har ingen nyans

Du fullständigt hatar allt som lever

Du vill inte vara här,

Du vill vara någon annastans

Någon annastans

Din passion den är ogenomträngbar

För din vilja att rasera andras liv

Du önskar ingen annan någon glädje

Du drömmer om en värld i flammar

Tellus i brand

Död åt alla - död åt absolut allt

Död åt alla - död åt absolut allt

Död åt alla - död åt absolut allt

Död åt alla - död åt absolut allt

Aldrig har du sett något så vackert

Som när pulsen slutar slå

Aldrig har du skådat sådan skönhet

När pulsen slutar slå

Visst är det vackert vännen

När pulsen slutar slå

Se till att det sker med omnejd

Att pulsen slutar slå

#25 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


Or what if you were wrong? What then, huh?

#26 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


Then Lightning Dust's crushing ennui would be just a minor speed bump on the road of your life. If I were right, then we'd all be doomed.


Yep, we'd be doomed.

#27 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


So the world is cursed to damnation if you're right? Well, at least I know what the cause of the apocalypse is going to be. One day, one day, you're going to get something right, and humanity will suffer for it.

#28 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·



The apocalypse can happen some other time...

You know.


Three weeks from now.


#29 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


The apocalypse cannot happen while I exist, for I will stand before the endless tide of flame in golden spandex, and I will single handedly drive back the the end. It will be glorious.

#31 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


The glory of such an actions doesn't even touch you; what are you, demon?!

#32 · 157w, 14h ago · · 7 ·

Flames- The pain of being a former wonderbolt...:fluttershysad: I know that.

#34 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


how am i supposed to respond to this

#35 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


Then you are nought but another bringer of the end times, I shall vanquish you will the spandex of light!

#37 · 157w, 14h ago · · ·


Gah, my eyes... they burn

#38 · 157w, 13h ago · · 9 ·

>>3393252 Amethyst Shadows- If you know the same problem Derpy has.... I has it.:fluttershysad: Despite being a great flier, they didn't trust my impaired vision...

#39 · 157w, 13h ago · 5 · ·


seriously how am i supposed to respond to this


#40 · 157w, 13h ago · · 2 ·

>>3393281 Amethyst- Hell, were you in the wonderbolt academy?:applejackunsure:

#41 · 157w, 13h ago · · ·

Good god.  This hits, dude.

This hit hard.

Well done.

~Skeeter The Lurker

#42 · 157w, 13h ago · 3 · ·

hnnnf :raritydespair:


i can't

Jesus, dude. You keep doing this. Why do you keep doing this.

I don't think I've ever seen depression written so well. So viscerally - enough to feel it. Reminding you of every time you felt like that (although never to Lightning Dust's extent, at least not for me. I don't suffer from depression, but there are days. My inspiration tends to be cyclic, with me being productive for months at a time, then pretty useless for months at a time - during the latter period, I'm prone to being unable to derive satisfaction from things, stress, and moping. I usually drown myself in fic; video games don't help unless they're new and I don't know the story yet.) The hopelessness, the greyness, the lack of satisfaction in anything. Augh. That hurt. Mood = brutalized. And I was just feeling so good about myself for finishing some physics notes. Thanks a lot.

One thing that really impresses me over this - unrelatedly - is that you aren't really confined to your own headcanon when you write. You can write a story about psychotic Lightning Dust - you can write a story about depressed Lightning Dust. You don't limit yourself to your own singular views on how you think things would play out, or on how you see a character. So kudos to that.

So... rock on, parasprite. Keep brutally mauling everyone's feels. We lovehate you for that.

#43 · 157w, 13h ago · · ·

Well done on the non mature feature, man.

(It has yet to hit the mature feature side as of writing this.)

Well done on feature.

~Skeeter The Lurker

#44 · 157w, 13h ago · · ·

Great story Para. An emotional peek into the mind of the severely depressed. Damn fine work as always.

Damn, I feel sad now. I'mma go read something happy and pone pone.

#45 · 157w, 12h ago · 1 · ·

I'm not crying but I think tears are forming in my eyes, I can relate to some moments here. Well done again Para.

#46 · 157w, 12h ago · 2 · ·

The disrepair of her house reflects the state of her soul. Mare needs pillz. Sorry about yours, Para.




Either don't roleplay, or explain that you are. :ajbemused:

#47 · 157w, 12h ago · · 5 ·

>>3393629 Amethyst, a wall-eyed Pegasus, who has a brother in the wonderbolts. Hello there.:twilightsheepish:

#48 · 157w, 12h ago · 3 · ·


Who is Flames?

:pinkiegasp: Oh wait I don't care.

#49 · 157w, 12h ago · 1 · 5 ·

Am I a monster for not getting any feels from this? I mean, it was a good look into the mind of the depressed, but I only get the slightest feel of contempt. According to genetics and physicians, I should be a depressed wreck... I've never felt depressed for more than a few hours every blue moon or so. I simply beat it down with my will until I fall asleep, then I wake up fine. I can't help but feel contempt for those that allow mental issues to overpower their wills.


#50 · 157w, 11h ago · · ·


nah. I didn't expect everyone to enjoy it. Thanks for reading and leaving some feedback!

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