I was only a baby, then. I had to grow up someday.
Here, at Pony Joe's, I hope to find something. Closure, maybe, or I could just be trying to delay the inevitable. I'll have to return someday soon and face what I've done.
Twilight assures me that every creature, pony, dragon, or anything, goes through this. It doesn't make it any easier to live with.
Maybe one more doughnut will erase everything. I can only hope it does.
Cover art made by the fabulous FlamingPizza, who may or may not still be around.
Chapters (1)
Predicting use of the word "ponut".
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Not one usage the entire story!
You would be incorrect.
How are there only two comments..?
There is nothing here.
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This went live about 10 minutes ago.
5464161 You're fucking Scootareader!
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How did you know I was sleeping with myself!?
Interesting, very interesting. I liked the concept of exploring teenage feelings and desires; good job overall.
I can't decide between face palming myself or slapping Spike upside the head.
Though I'm still hoping for a happy ending.
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Whoops, forgot to mark it complete.
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Thank you for the kind words.
Celestia knows I did some really stupid things due to my being a teenager. I'd imagine Spike would be just as fallible.
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5464246 ... I can see why that faggot title came from.
Think long and hard Spike. Don't start thinking that your friendship with the ponies is a lie as well. Remember what Twilight told you the last time you thought that.
Nice exploration there. Have a like.
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Kinda shocked, to be honest.
My penis is disappointed.
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Perhaps the sugar overdose will muddle his memories of the events, perhaps it won't.
The most we can hope for is that he remembers the blue doughnut that tracked him down and went all the way from Ponyville to Canterlot to tell him something silly.
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We can only hope that he comes to his senses in the end. I guess that's more reader interpretation of the ending than anything else. 
Thank you.
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It's a hard fact of life that you're not allowed to sleep with whoever you want, is it not?
I thought about the possibility of this being a clopfic, but I don't even like clop, let alone write it.
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B...but that's why I need escapist entertainment: to help me forget the fact that my life is only shitty because I made it this way!
I know, I'm incredibly subtle.
little confused about what's going on.
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As teenagers, we feel a lot of different emotions... not all of them wise, and not all of them sensible. We do crazy, stupid things, act out for attention, can't control our inhibitions... it's a very confusing time for all of us.
Spike became a product of his body's natural urges, basically. He is reflecting at Pony Joe's on the crazy, stupid things he did over the last three days while consuming high amounts of sugar--which is the Equestrian equivalent of drinking alcohol, based on Spike's behavior in The Best Night Ever. Chances are, he'll never be the same, and they won't look at him in quite the same way, either.
Life is tough in those trying days. You never know what you're really doing, why you're thinking what you're thinking, or how where the light at the end of the tunnel may be... you're mostly just feeling your way blindly through the strange bodily processes puberty sucks you into. I was trying to convey that sense of, "I'm really not sure what I'm even doing anymore," that I distinctly remember having for about 2/3 of my teenage years.
I shudder to imagine Spike acting like this in the actual show...
Teenagers can indeed be willfully blind and stubborn in the pursuit of romance, but I would say this is an extreme example. Interesting interpretation of Spike, at any rate.
5464412 good thing I wasn't like that.
And visions of 1969 dance once again in my head.
Anypony thinking "Words like that are never, ever exchanged in real life" can stop thinking that right now.
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I agree, this is an extreme example. Teenagers can, indeed, be quite extreme when hormones course through their bodies. Whether or not their words make sense, they intend to make their feelings known. Perhaps not the most common demographic of teens, but actions like these are taken by many who are confused by their feelings.
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I am currently a mixture of curious as to what happened and afraid of what I might find out.
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She was twenty-two; I, um, wasn't. And it was never meant to be. Not that I was above screechy teenage histrionics or anything.
Well that's something, ain't it? It goes against my tastes, but it was certainly put together well and the presentation wanted for very little.
7.9/10: favorited and marked for future observation.
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Despite my efforts to make this a serious exploration of teenage desires, those I read it to laughed most of the way through my reading it to them. It's certainly one to be taken in a certain mindset, open to interpretation rather than given structure and linearity. I totally understand.
Normally I'm not a fan of a character being overly angsty. It's often used by young writers as a cheap way to try and make 'drama' that just ends up making me want to face-palm at how stupid the characters are acting.
However this is the kind o story where angsty is not only acceptable, but demanded. Spike is a young teenager and prone to this kind of behavior, Most importantly though is that unlike a lot of angrty teen drama fic's that have only teens in them, this includes adult who are understanding but also point out how stupid or unreasonable the character is being.
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I am glad you enjoy Spike's angst in this.
Yes! Thank you.
Wow. Never did I think there would be a story where I would like it, yet dislike Spike. This is a first.
The story itself was great. Good grammar, nice prose, and excellent expression of teenage hormones. However, I couldn't help but dislike Spike immensely in this fic. How he acted was the most annoying thing in every part, from his jealousy, to his sudden interest in Twilight, and especially the ignorance he had of Sweetie Belle's almost confession.
You have made me dislike my favorite character, and I hate, yet thank you for that.
5 out of 10 for Sex
7 out of 10 Romance
10 out of 10 for AU
10 out of 10 for Slice of Life
10 out of 10 for grammar
8 out of 10 for overall story.
A like and this shall be added to the yellow star folder.
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Indeed. That was largely what I was attempting to convey. Bear in mind that Spike, like all of us, has little control over some of his urges. The manner in which they were portrayed was a little unrealistic in that they were more extreme than how most of us act, but I distinctly remember some of his justifications being used by myself when my teenage hormones were still a fairly new thing.
I was trying to make him annoying because I remember myself being annoying back then, too.
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Well you portrayed it very well and it made for an excellent story. Bravo.