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He said, "Hey man, I love you, but NO FUCKING WAY."

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Authors I like:

Art Inspired— Wonderful author, better friend

Bronystories— writes what he wants, when he wants, and helped get me noticed

Shortskirtsandexplosions— Unparalleled writing talent, interesting individual

Chuckward— A god amongst men [BANNED ;~;]

TheOnly— First person to gain a watch from me, his comedic skill is beyond amazing

Fiddlebottoms— He's... something else, all right

Midnightdancer— One of the most talented and lovely people on the site, personally responsible for making sure I didn't end up a complete shit

Ponky— Talent splashed all over the place. Plus, dat voice.

Ethesto— A god among Chuckwards

Authors I don't like in general: Device Heretic— He's an attention seeking asshole

Authors I hate: Mallajong1— Plagiarist and copy/paste writer of the same popular story over and over [BANNED]

Divide— Treats his followers like shit, has quit more times than a meth junky "trying" to stay clean, deleted and re-upvoted his stories more than once, and used alts to upvote his stories.

Authors I despise:  Kingofsquirrelz— Complete asshole, terrible writer, surrounded by an even stupider plethora of fans [BANNED]

Reality Check— Asshole, rides off the coattails of other people's works

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The Hurting · 9:41am

Today I was faced with a very tough situation.

I must say, I never knew that I could hurt so much. I never knew that I could feel so much emotion for another person. Someone I love and whom I owe a lot to is in a lot of pain and suffering, and I'm helpless to their situation. All I can do is sit back and watch as everything spirals down, out of control, out power, out of... life.

And it feels so bad, so very bad.

It helped me realize something, though. I have been squandering my life away. They were not dealt a very good deck in life, but they persevered and came through. Meanwhile, what do I do? I put off my schoolwork to be with my fans, and lie about a tragic life I pretend to lead.

I suppose now is when I'm going to come clean about something I have lied to about on several occasions. I do not blame you if you unwatch me after this, because in all truths, I am a liar and a thief. I steal from others' tragedies and make them my own, and lie to people who supposedly care about me.

In any case where I have told any of you (my newer watchers might not know about this) about my friend being shot, or my other friend dying in a surf accident, those were lies. I lied to gather attention, because as many of you may already know, I am simply a giant attention whore. I am so sorry I lied to you all, because if I treat my watchers like this, I'm no better than device heretic. I hope you all can forgive me for that.

However, in the past where I've brought up my depression, that is all very real. At times, I'll just be washed over by a great feeling of sorrow, and wonder to myself where everything is going. I haven't totally screwed myself over yet, so I still have to to get my academic life back on track. I need to make it a priority over my ponywords, because this won't last forever. Not that my academic life will either, but that will impact my life far more than this site could ever hope to, unless somehow I land a job getting my original fiction published through someone on this site, but that probably won't happen.

I don't know why I'll be happy one moment, then feel crippling depression the next; maybe I'm just done with filling out my "No Surprises" life where I do the same routine day in and day out, waking up feeling empty and going to bed feeling like I did something wrong; maybe I'm tired of staying awake every night dwelling on the sorrow of others and how I dare to feel bad for myself when far better people than I are being shot in the face by life; maybe I'm just tired of living on an island in the middle of the ocean with no one around who wants to be with me, in a culture that is so repressive intellectually.

I feel too much, and I think too little. To quote Kurt Cobain: "I really haven't had that exciting of a life. There are a lot of things I wish I would have done, instead of just sitting around and complaining about having a boring life. So I pretty much like to make it up. I'd rather tell a story about somebody else." That's probably why I became a writer, to distract myself from the soul crushing bordom of the every-day. I used to adventure with my friends, we used to draw and play games and climb the ivy, but now I'm left with fond memories and the taste of nostalgia in my mouth. Which isn't so bad, I guess.

Allow to quote the genius Cobain once more: “There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad.”  And it's true. I act like I hate the world, and I hate people, but I don't. I don't hate... anyone, to be honest. I forgive easily. Even people like KingofSquirrelz I'd be willing to forgive provided they gave me the chance. The simple fact is, I hate having enemies, and I hate people hating me. My personality often drives people off because of weird sense of humor and my inappropriate timing and my arrogant nature that characterize it, but I still want to accept everyone as my friend. That's why I simply cannot bring myself to harm another. I don't want to be forever remembered as the person who beat the shit out of that one kid, or shoved that other kid into the road. You might say "Well, they deserved it! They were an asshole!" or "Better to be remembered for something bad then for nothing at all!" And to this, I say no, because I want to be remembered for something good, and people judge far too easily for me to afford having bad on my track record. Trust me, I speak from experience, which is why I no longer indulge in the public school system, as every seemed incapable of realizing that 8th grade me was not the same as 2nd, 3rd, or 4th grade me, the last time any of those losers saw me.

So if any of you stuck around through that, thank you. I still am in pain from earlier, because that person really does mean a lot to me and I'm not sure if I could bear to lose them. The Hurting continues, and it won't ever truly subside, but I've got enough diversions to distract me from the sorrow for long enough.

Feel free to post down in the comments about your own hurting if you wish. Do remember this, though:

When you've suffered enough

And your spirit is breaking

You're growing desperate from the fight

Remember you're loved

And you always will be

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The Antlers Saga

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There Was Once More Here

Clown Prince Of Crime

#587238 · 37m, 46s ago ·   ·   ·    

You unlock this door with the key of imagination. Beyond it is another dimension— a dimension of sound, a dimension of sight, a dimension of mind. You're moving into a land of both shadow and substance, of things and ideas. You've just crossed over into Regidar's Profile.

All you need to know about me in one.gif

[6/4/13 11:06:49 AM] The Commander: Youre like a 7 year old, but with the looks of a steryotipical beach douche.

[7/3/13 7:26:10 AM] Apple Bot™: He's like a cockroach

[7/3/13 7:26:15 AM] Apple Bot™: Useless, but fun to kill!

[3:48:44 AM] Shaggydar: taylor swift writes songs about my clopfics

There was once text here, but it grew old and moldy, so I recycled it.

"I've been singing Fall Out boy like nobody's business and it's all your fault!  So thank you."  ~Ponky

My own personal theme!

Like, I have my own church. Cool.

Thanks to Approver!

Thanks to Osama Bin Ladin!

Thanks to Plyxe, dat sexy bastard.

Thanks to Zaid Valroa!

Awesome Nirvana Parody!

Thanks to Art Inspired!

Thanks to Ponky!

Thanks to the parasprite!

A completely non-sexual picture of Rarity and Kurt Cobain:

And just for some diversity, My Chemical Romance.

We'll miss you, Ponky.

All in all:

And just remember:



Solo · 11:43am

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No Kings

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#4,789 · 4d, 18h ago · · ·

>>1730194 Well, I'll still watch it, and I'm certain I'll enjoy it. The hype train's not chugging away too quickly, but it's good stuff for certain.

#4,788 · 4d, 22h ago · · ·

>>1730175 Well that's a funny coincidence. I mostly listen to stuff off of WTLO too, actually. Hooray for home demos and rarities!

From what I know of MOH, it's going to be one of those "humanizing, honest, realistic look at the artist" things instead of one of those "oh, angst king suicidal blah blah suicide conspiracy" kinda things. Yeah, it's a probe into Kurt's life, but at least it's a bit more tasteful than releasing his journals for cash (ahem courtney). I get what you mean about us over-analyzing Kurt is what helped end his life (It's been documented that he was suicidal even before his attempt in Rome, so I won't say that it caused his suicidal-ness. Not getting into the whole Tom Grant thing either), but it's really hard for me personally to try and take the stance that you seem to be taking. Not that I have anything wrong with it, though.

Those unreleased acoustic demos that are (reportedly) in the film are what makes it for me. Yeah, I know that they won't just stop the film for the music, but I heard that his cover of "And I Love Her" by The Beatles will be on the soundtrack. AND Morgan tweeted about a twelve minute, unreleased acoustic track (I assume this means another home demo). Nothing gets me more hype than that kind of news. That (non-sexually) arouses me.

yeah you probably dont want to read me ramble so ill just exit stage right

#4,787 · 4d, 23h ago · · ·

>>1730145 I'm mildly excited for it. Not a lot gets me excited these days.

I haven't been listening to Nirvana that much lately. Mostly stuff off of "With The Lights Out". If You Must is really cool, probably one of my favorites.

I'm just concerned that MOH will be another probe into the guy's life. I find it interesting that we continue to do what ended up killing Kurt, even 20 years after his death.

#4,786 · 4d, 23h ago · · ·

How hype are you for Montage of Heck?

Yes, I presume to be able to talk about that without context, because if YOU don't know about MOH, then life is officially over.

I live in New York, so I get access to that limited theatrical run. I'm super effing excited HOLY BLEREREGHHERGHGEHRGH YAAASSSS


sorry i cant contain myself

Kinda wanted to get into a Nirvana mini-discussion, so yeah.

I've been lurking this site for a year or two without an actual account, and I remember the first time I searched for "Nirvana" in the old weird "site search with google" thing your profile was like, the first option. At this point, when you search "Nirvana" or "Kurt Cobain", it should just redirect to your profile, because I would go so far as to crown you as the official fimfiction Nirvana authority (I'm sure most users already have). GET THIS MAN A THRONE! ALL HAIL REGIDAR!!!


yeah im done with my weird rant about your nirvana-ness kthnxbai

#4,785 · 5d, 6h ago · · ·


Glad you liked it. :pinkiesmile:

Now back to not-writing for the both of us.

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Well, He's Back · 8:37am

You wait two years for a sequel

To something most of you forgot

17,520 hours.

1,051,200 minutes.

620,072,000 seconds.

I counted.


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