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Everything Pure And Spiteful

Authors I like:

Art Inspired— Wonderful author, better friend

Bronystories— writes what he wants, when he wants, and helped get me noticed

Shortskirtsandexplosions— Unparalleled writing talent, interesting individual

Chuckward— A god amongst men [BANNED ;~;]

TheOnly— First person to gain a watch from me, his comedic skill is beyond amazing

Fiddlebottoms— He's... something else, all right

Midnightdancer— One of the most talented and lovely people on the site, personally responsible for making sure I didn't end up a complete shit

Ponky— Talent splashed all over the place. Plus, dat voice.

Ethesto— A god among Chuckwards

Authors I don't like in general: Device Heretic— He's an attention seeking asshole

Authors I hate: Mallajong1— Plagiarist and copy/paste writer of the same popular story over and over [BANNED]

Divide— Treats his followers like shit, has quit more times than a meth junky "trying" to stay clean, deleted and re-upvoted his stories more than once, and used alts to upvote his stories.

Authors I despise:  Kingofsquirrelz— Complete asshole, terrible writer, surrounded by an even stupider plethora of fans [BANNED]

Reality Check— Asshole, rides off the coattails of other people's works

Carnival of Comedy

  • Momma Kurt Cobain Momma Kurt gets a heavenly visit. by BlackSnowyOwl 0 words · 0 views · 2 likes · 1 dislikes
  • Onions Vinyl Scratch and her donkey companion must reach an onion hidden beneath Canterlot palace before it's too late. Unfortunately, princess Celestia and her swarm of guards aren't too keen on letting them in. by Ethesto is a Hero 10,567 words · 1,069 views · 90 likes · 27 dislikes
  • OH JESUS! The new My Little Dashie. by Chuckward 3,279 words · 1,856 views · 108 likes · 113 dislikes

Title Based On Followers

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600-700: King

700-800: Demigod

800-900: Hero of the Site

900-1000: Legend

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2000+: Ellimist(Good), Crayak(Bad)

Current title: Godly

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Places To Do And Shit To Be

May
13th
2013

The Hurting · 9:41am

Today I was faced with a very tough situation.

I must say, I never knew that I could hurt so much. I never knew that I could feel so much emotion for another person. Someone I love and whom I owe a lot to is in a lot of pain and suffering, and I'm helpless to their situation. All I can do is sit back and watch as everything spirals down, out of control, out power, out of... life.

And it feels so bad, so very bad.

It helped me realize something, though. I have been squandering my life away. They were not dealt a very good deck in life, but they persevered and came through. Meanwhile, what do I do? I put off my schoolwork to be with my fans, and lie about a tragic life I pretend to lead.

I suppose now is when I'm going to come clean about something I have lied to about on several occasions. I do not blame you if you unwatch me after this, because in all truths, I am a liar and a thief. I steal from others' tragedies and make them my own, and lie to people who supposedly care about me.

In any case where I have told any of you (my newer watchers might not know about this) about my friend being shot, or my other friend dying in a surf accident, those were lies. I lied to gather attention, because as many of you may already know, I am simply a giant attention whore. I am so sorry I lied to you all, because if I treat my watchers like this, I'm no better than device heretic. I hope you all can forgive me for that.

However, in the past where I've brought up my depression, that is all very real. At times, I'll just be washed over by a great feeling of sorrow, and wonder to myself where everything is going. I haven't totally screwed myself over yet, so I still have to to get my academic life back on track. I need to make it a priority over my ponywords, because this won't last forever. Not that my academic life will either, but that will impact my life far more than this site could ever hope to, unless somehow I land a job getting my original fiction published through someone on this site, but that probably won't happen.

I don't know why I'll be happy one moment, then feel crippling depression the next; maybe I'm just done with filling out my "No Surprises" life where I do the same routine day in and day out, waking up feeling empty and going to bed feeling like I did something wrong; maybe I'm tired of staying awake every night dwelling on the sorrow of others and how I dare to feel bad for myself when far better people than I are being shot in the face by life; maybe I'm just tired of living on an island in the middle of the ocean with no one around who wants to be with me, in a culture that is so repressive intellectually.

I feel too much, and I think too little. To quote Kurt Cobain: "I really haven't had that exciting of a life. There are a lot of things I wish I would have done, instead of just sitting around and complaining about having a boring life. So I pretty much like to make it up. I'd rather tell a story about somebody else." That's probably why I became a writer, to distract myself from the soul crushing bordom of the every-day. I used to adventure with my friends, we used to draw and play games and climb the ivy, but now I'm left with fond memories and the taste of nostalgia in my mouth. Which isn't so bad, I guess.

Allow to quote the genius Cobain once more: “There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad.”  And it's true. I act like I hate the world, and I hate people, but I don't. I don't hate... anyone, to be honest. I forgive easily. Even people like KingofSquirrelz I'd be willing to forgive provided they gave me the chance. The simple fact is, I hate having enemies, and I hate people hating me. My personality often drives people off because of weird sense of humor and my inappropriate timing and my arrogant nature that characterize it, but I still want to accept everyone as my friend. That's why I simply cannot bring myself to harm another. I don't want to be forever remembered as the person who beat the shit out of that one kid, or shoved that other kid into the road. You might say "Well, they deserved it! They were an asshole!" or "Better to be remembered for something bad then for nothing at all!" And to this, I say no, because I want to be remembered for something good, and people judge far too easily for me to afford having bad on my track record. Trust me, I speak from experience, which is why I no longer indulge in the public school system, as every seemed incapable of realizing that 8th grade me was not the same as 2nd, 3rd, or 4th grade me, the last time any of those losers saw me.

So if any of you stuck around through that, thank you. I still am in pain from earlier, because that person really does mean a lot to me and I'm not sure if I could bear to lose them. The Hurting continues, and it won't ever truly subside, but I've got enough diversions to distract me from the sorrow for long enough.

Feel free to post down in the comments about your own hurting if you wish. Do remember this, though:

When you've suffered enough

And your spirit is breaking

You're growing desperate from the fight

Remember you're loved

And you always will be

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The Antlers Saga

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  • Hospice Caramel deals with several very unhealthy relationships. by Regidar 9,519 words · 844 views · 128 likes · 7 dislikes
  • Cold War Caramel spends Hearth's Warming's Eve, Hearth's Warming Day, and The Day After in a state of perpetual flux. by Regidar 5,407 words · 333 views · 26 likes · 5 dislikes

The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best The Best

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  • I Need You To Be Brave Grief happens differently for different creatures. For Spike the dragon, it is an unending ache as he remembers the pony he loved best. by MidnightDancer 3,066 words · 2,237 views · 290 likes · 6 dislikes
  • Happy Ending I was pretty happy with my life. Then I got a filly. Now... I'm not so sure. by plumander 4,552 words · 617 views · 69 likes · 1 dislikes
  • Nothing Shocks Me Anymore Things get a little weird when a crazy pony starts a diary. by SusieBeeca 6,397 words · 804 views · 52 likes · 1 dislikes
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The Boy Also Writes

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  • E Sail To The Moon

    Luna reconciles her emotions with her place in the world.  · Regidar
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  • E Yearbook February

    Fluttershy treks across the frozen northlands of Arctica.  · Regidar
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  • E Ice Paved Trees

    Applejack heads off into the apple orchard after a heavy snowfall.  · Regidar
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  • E Through The Door

    Princess Luna, intrigued by the mirror in the bottom of the Crystal Palace, looks down into her own fears.  · Regidar
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  • T Growing Up

    Rumble turns seventeen.  · Regidar
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  • E Also Frightened

    Scootaloo and Rumble take a walk out into the foothills north of Ponyville.  · Regidar
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  • T Chalkpocalypse

    A chronicling of the lost land of Chalkandia and its luckless inhabitants.  · Regidar
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  • E Hold Me, I'm Scared

    Sweetie Belle awakens in the middle of the night, and Rarity rushes to comfort her.  · Regidar
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  • T Things Fall Apart

    As the chaos war draws to an end, Celestia may have to admit defeat.  · Regidar
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There Was Once More Here


Clown Prince Of Crime

#587238 · 37m, 46s ago ·   ·   ·    

You unlock this door with the key of imagination. Beyond it is another dimension— a dimension of sound, a dimension of sight, a dimension of mind. You're moving into a land of both shadow and substance, of things and ideas. You've just crossed over into Regidar's Profile.

All you need to know about me in one.gif

[6/4/13 11:06:49 AM] The Commander: Youre like a 7 year old, but with the looks of a steryotipical beach douche.

[7/3/13 7:26:10 AM] Apple Bot™: He's like a cockroach

[7/3/13 7:26:15 AM] Apple Bot™: Useless, but fun to kill!

[3:48:44 AM] Shaggydar: taylor swift writes songs about my clopfics

There was once text here, but it grew old and moldy, so I recycled it.

"I've been singing Fall Out boy like nobody's business and it's all your fault!  So thank you."  ~Ponky

My own personal theme!

Like, I have my own church. Cool.

Thanks to Approver!

Thanks to Osama Bin Ladin!




Thanks to Plyxe, dat sexy bastard.


Thanks to Zaid Valroa!

Awesome Nirvana Parody!

Thanks to Art Inspired!

Thanks to Ponky!

Thanks to the parasprite!

A completely non-sexual picture of Rarity and Kurt Cobain:

And just for some diversity, My Chemical Romance.

We'll miss(ed) you, Ponky. Welcome back!

All in all:

And just remember:

Sexytimes

May
23rd
2015

Gilda: Holy shit! Your teeth!

Pinkie: Oh, don't worry! It happens all the time! *closes her eyes and concentrates real hard, her teeth shards falling out and regrowing perfectly* See! Ta-da! Neat, huh?

Gilda: [soundless scream of horror]

This episode was the first one apart from the premier that had any real "Adventure" elements to it (unless you count the Appaloosa incident, which I don't), in addition to being the first that used the cutie map again, and I gotta say...  I'm impressed. The new writer for this episode really did a fantastic job. I hope they get assigned to more adventure episodes, because this was fucking incredible.

This episode was also one of the darker ones, although more subtly. I can easily see someone in the target audience freaking the fuck out from that giant goat-cyclopes. But the visuals and world building, as grim-ish as they were, were fucking incredible. And showing his skeleton on that ledge, on a small pallet of grass, with flowers growing near it? That was fucking beautiful.

I also love how the message of this episode was delivered in a much more toned down and realistic way. They didn't solve all of Griffonstone's issues—they set it into motion. This has to be the best redemption episode, hands-down. Way better than that fucking "let's shame Trixie" and even a bit better than the Discord one in the fact that it was handled with so much more tact. Granted, it's an easier job to reform Gilda than it is to reform the spirit of chaos, but all the same, this episode did in a less heavy-handed, more believable way.

I do love the greediness of the Griffons; it's a nice little character trait of their society which I find both interesting and hilarious. In the episode, the extortion did get a bit tiresome, but it was pretty funny how the griffon guide tried to get bits out of Dash for an answer about whether or not she'd keep squeezing her for shekels. All we were missing were the yamakas

However, one bit of the episode did fucking annoy the shit out of me, and that was... how Pinkie broke the god damn fourth wall. AGAIN. FOR THE SECOND EPISODE IN A ROW.

Regardless of my unreasonably autistic reaction relating to that, the episode did more right than wrong, overwhelmingly. Even if this rookie writer made that mistake, it hopefully will not become commonplace. a boy can dream Only other real complaint I have is some of Gilda's dialogue in the beginning was cringey and... poorly handled, both by her voice actor and the sound team. It got better though, and only 2-3 lines were really "ruined".

Other small things that were awesome about the episode:

-everything Gummy did

-Cub Gilda

-Gretta

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got myself a new griffon gal, sorry Gilda

Overall, awesome episode.

The Cutie Map pts 1 and 2

The Lost Treasure of Griffonstone

Make New Friends But Keep Discord

Castle Sweet Castle

Appaloosa's Most Wanted

Tanks For The Memories

Bloom and Gloom

source

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No Kings

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#4,921 · 2d, 11h ago · · ·

>>1829143 this is unacceptable

#4,917 · 6d, 11h ago · 1 · ·

>>1822600 That makes sense. Having a ton of attention on you isn't always a good thing.

#4,916 · 6d, 20h ago · · ·

>>1822594 Yeah, that's true but I got most of them the wrong way hence the reason a few people saw this >>> (Link)

Not saying I want the whole site to know my every step, haha. But if it were some like Akumogetstu (or however you spell his name) or Penstroke a good amount would have noticed ya know?

And if that's for the blogs, then it will be a little a difficult getting attention for everything else, like stories and such.

But then again I'm not even sure if I really want much attention. I guess I just like big numbers. That's probably it. :P

#4,915 · 6d, 20h ago · 1 · ·

>>1822582 you have a lot of followers for the stories you've written

#4,914 · 6d, 20h ago · · ·

>>1822227 Well it's good to know that you're here still. I still wish I had a bigger audience, lol ;)

#4,913 · 1w, 8h ago · · ·

>>1822216 mixed. I've been doing okay for the past few days.

#4,912 · 1w, 9h ago · · ·

>>1822156 Yeah, it has. The amount of stories I have to catch up on as well as write is amazing. So how have you been holding up?

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Feb
9th
2015

Well, He's Back · 8:37am

You wait two years for a sequel

To something most of you forgot

17,520 hours.

1,051,200 minutes.

620,072,000 seconds.

I counted.

Yay

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