Everything seemed to be going better for Sunset Shimmer since getting blasted by the rainbow of light. She was learning about friendship and how to be a friend. Then Anon-A-Miss struck.
Thinking she had gone back to her old ways, Sunset's new friends walked away from her, leaving her alone.
Now Sunset cannot find neither the strength nor the will to get out of bed.
This is a first foray into attempting to tell a story from a first person perspective from Sunset's point of view.
This story is inspired in part by my own past struggles with depression.
The suicide/self harm tag is for thoughts of self harm, and Sunset's inability to eat or do anything other than lie in bed as she sinks deeper and deeper into depression.
Featured 01-13-2023!
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I usually don't read AAM stories anymore, but I'm always supportive of someone turning their own mental health struggles into something constructive. I'm glad you feel comfortable enough to share these experiences, and I hope someone reading them will find some meaning and support in knowing they're not alone. Prouda you, hon 🙏
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Thanks.
Interesting take on this.
Anon a Miss is the dumbest thing mlp writers ever conceived. I’m glad you put Sunset in the aggrieved position she rightfully is in because the Human Six are utter idiots.
Interesting, but similar takes to other anon-a-miss stories.
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Not really. I’ll admit what they wrote could’ve been handled better, but I wouldn’t say it was the dumbest thing.
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But, the original really is dumb.
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Honestly, I didn’t have much of a problem with it.
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Well, you can't deny that it is really a angst against Sunset, and make the Rainbooms look like incompetent morons and little OOC. And doing that rage-induced story set on the holiday season was really a dick move on the writers part.
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Not really OOC to me. They’ve all shown problems with communication and acting without thinking. If I remember correctly this goes on with other movies.
Thid is painful. I've been here, the refusal to move, the days on end without eating, the sense that the world, god, and family had abandoned me. I was lucky that dad forced me to eat on the second day and that I was handed Hellboy and Coffee... Being fourteen for me was hell...
What gets to me is they could asked the cops to do a wel fare check, that been so much easier and done a lot faster.
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No. Yes, they would sometimes fight or argue with each other but that's quite normal among friends. This is not. Not to mention the whole thing about MLP is learning from mistakes. But they clearly haven't learned anything from the time Sunset pulled off the same thing on them.
I saw a post a few days ago that is a role reversal idea where the CMC post Sunset's secrets and she is the one that breaks up with the girls after a few of the secrets got posted. This would actually make sense as she's still new to the whole friendship thing and she actually have a short temper.
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Interesting
HOLY MOTHER, this is dark. It hurts seeing Sunset in a state like this. The way you described her in a toxic mental state makes me want to hug her and tell her everything's ok.
whats with all the depressed sunset stories these last few months?
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It's probably a way for those of us who struggle with mental health issues to deal with such negative thoughts and emotions in a cathartic, constructive and more healthy way.
That or the brony hivemind is vibeing in a weird way.
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Sunset is like the Queen of angst by now because of her experience lol.
But seriously, I haven’t seen depressed sunset for a while. I don’t think there are many of that nowadays.
And this story is a classic way of depression that somehow I haven’t seen before. And it hurts.
Okay so Rainbow assaults her, and AJ spits at her (all based on a past distrust that proves they never really gave her a real second chance) and then they both think an apology will make that right?
Nah. Throw them in the nearest garbage can.
Rick Sanchez (From Rick and Morty): Congratulations Rainbitches, You fucked up big time!
Now I understand a bit more how depression really affects a person. I can't imagine everything you had to endure, neither I can't imagine being in Sunset's position.
Thank you for writing this fic, and perhaps you could make a sequel or side-stories with the Rainbooms trying to make up for Sunset while dealing with their own mistake. Mostly Rainbow Dash and Applejack, they doesn't manage emotions pretty well in those situations.
Damn...
I debating whether to see a sequel of this, of how Canterlot High is living with the whole situation.
I’ve never had depression hit me quite this hard, but the description of it being a grey fog that blankets everything really hits home. For me, it’s always felt like this big, empty hole right behind my heart that just sucks everything away. To the point that I’d rather take literally any other emotion so I can feel something other than empty.
So, great job with this, an absolute 10/10, and Sunset deserves to feel better one day.
Small typo
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Thanks for pointing that out.
Fixed.
I admit, I do wish we got more of what happened with the Rainbooms and the CMC, as their selfishness, mistrust (from the Rainbooms), and possessiveness (the CMC) caused Sunset to pretty much rot and she would had died if they hadn’t gotten to her.
Heck, I admit I don’t even think the Rainbooms were the ones to get suspicious at the four day mark and expose the CMC, as everything Sunset did clearly didn’t matter to them. They and the CMC got what they wanted so they had no real reason to think about Sunset until someone exposed the CMC, taking away the Rainbooms valediction.
I know it’s harsh as the Rainbooms had to see the results of their actions, but Sunset could had died thanks to them and the CMC. And I feel like if the CMC weren’t exposed, they wouldn’t had cared until it was far too late.
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Welp used this story to check if my hard drive still works