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Twilight Sparkle sends a series of letters to Princess Celestia after slaying a villain.

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Nice opening chapter. You caught my attention early on, and Twilight's voice is clear and in character.

You have my interest. Tracking.

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That got dark, fast. Also, I realize murder is a horrible thing to deal with even if you do it to an unrepentant monster, but I can't help but feel Twilight's history of extreme overreactions to various situations is rearing its ugly head.

Ooh, have a love interest on top of the guilt. You have amplified the potential for drama extremely with this chapter.

Overall? All three letters are interesting, and you've definitely caught my interest.

My interest is peaked. I'm keeping an eye on this one

So far: excellent. A great job on vaguely describing the "incident" in the first chapter, too.

This is all very uncomfortable, and so very much like Twilight. Great story so far!

Sombra: you know, they killed the fuck out of me - blew me to atoms - but nobody writes a story about them regretting that.
Fan Community: yeah, but you're too silly for us to care about, "Sombrero."

Ouch. This is really emotionally raw, and all the better for it.

Wow, usually I don't go for this sort of thing... but I actually found myself with a few tears in my eyes while reading this short but sweet piece, so surely that has to account for something... right?
It's usually because I can relate to the topic at hand, but to the best of my knowledge I haven't killed anyone, so that can't be it. Unless you're talking about on MMORPGS, but I'm sure you can give me a free pass there...
Anyway, upvoted and favourited. :twilightsmile:

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Not yet...

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Hey, thanks you guys. :pinkiehappy:

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There's a free pass for vidya violence, for sure. I'm glad you've enjoyed this so far!

Dear Princess Celestia: Letter from a Murderer is something that has made me stop and think about its contents, and I have to say that I enjoy the delivery. These 'letters' though short, convey a feeling of melancholy, regret, and depression. Even though one can make the argument that Twilight is acting OoC, one can counter by stating that murdering someone and living with the consequences will change you. The emotional change that Twilight has under gone is blatant if one looks at her in-show persona compared to what is exhibited in this story. This story will leave a mark however small, but a mark none the less. Thank you and keep going.

Meh...I like the ones where she's repentant, but not too the point of suicide better. Or, the ones where she murders somepony, and looks at it like a way to advance science. And the ship is one that I, personally, don't really care for.

Hmm... innnnnteresting... Tracking for now. I want to see how TwiShy pans out.

The chapter lengths make it fell like one chapter unessicarily cut up.

I'm inclined to believe 'her' is Starlight, but there isn't enough evidence and what there is doesn't convince, so?

Twilight is sending more mixed messages than Sour Sweet on meth or Padme in Attack of the Clones when she told Anakin that they can't be together while dressed in a BDSM outfit :twilightsmile:

On a side note, I wonder if Fluttershy really visits her, or maybe she's just hallucinating...

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I like calling that one Shylight, myself.

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PTSD is a bear. And one I write about too often. Hm...

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Your hypothesis interests me.

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Yeah, I'd say that's a common topic in your writing.

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Ya, the whole collar, corset and leash combo on Padme had me going, "Oh, so that's where Leia got it from!"

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Runs in the family, just like the Skywalker Whining Gene... On a side note, she could choose her disguises better, sometimes. Like, that was her idea of what refugees wear:
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Iirc, Anakin was dressed as a poor peasant in that scene.

So, half her friend's didn't even come? That's rough.

Hmm, so why was Shining crying? I'm curious now as to who exactly she killed.

I'm increasingly getting the feeling that the pony she killed was someone close to them...

Really enjoying this story, by the way :twilightsmile:

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Maybe they're dead too.

She killed Starlight Glimmer

I love this story with a burning passion. Have a like and a fave.

I don't know what to feel with this story, but i want more of it none the less. Hope you continue.

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Well thank you! I'm glad you like it.

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I have a few ideas.

Well, that does it. Moving out of Tracked to Faved. You've got me.

Keep up the good work! :twilightsmile:

TL;DR (a little watered down but organized version) below

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Actually, i need to say some things if your going to write this, maybe more for myself than you but i feel like you could maybe gain something from it as well... Or you might not and are being vague in the letters on purpose but either way...

The way she acts, supposedly giving logical reasons to her handlers and not in her letters seems to be a cop out. The thing is that the thing driving her to suicide, to treat herself the way she does, to talk about herself like this, points to more than just the horror of her action itself. The reasons she's a monster is not "i killed someone" but that "i could kill anyone".

This way of thinking isn't the most rational but stems from a largely irrational reaction she probably developed from her fight. She was scared and angry. Those words do little justice to the magnitude and reasons but now this event has been linked to those emotions, emotions that are now harder to control because of the importance of her wanting to know why so many of those things happened and why she acted like that when there were other options.

Then, there is the most important thing to understand now that all that has been brought to attention, and that is that when those feelings flare up again, they bring up memories of that response. How she killed her, the fleeting feeling of it being "the right choice", and now these memories are overlaying the new person that sparked even a small portion of those emotions. Of course fear of one's own anger only brings into sharper focus just what she did, what she is capable of, what should could try to do now and possibly even mistake the feelings of the past for those of the present.

How do you justify yourself when killing your friends over a disagreement briefly feels like "the right choice"? The "only" choice, not logically but emotionally, that's the memory your feelings drag up.

This is just the start of the chains though. Now you feel you're not safe, even if you could stop yourself you're already thinking like a killer, have the instinct even, because "what else could that be, right?". That's what you tell yourself at least. Feelings aren't rational and now they aren't strickly under your control. Someone who values rationality and self control would be scared of this at least and to some it might be as bad as you losing your whole mind.

That me isn't me, that me would kill, that me is struggling to get out and i have to fight it, what if I lose? The future is uncertian and the fear only reminds you of what you did more. In fact, twilight is educated, probably within reason to assume she knows quite a bit on pony physiology, right? The makes it quite easy to know just how to kill someone. Even if you're above using that knowledge to shock someone into shutting up, every time you idly observe the parts you disabled in order to get your first kill you're reminded of just how easy it would be to kill again.

It's not that she would want to, but that now she knows just what to do and that alone is a little unnerving if you let your mind linger too long. "But your a monster anyway right?" And then the "righteous" feeling that you're punishing someone terrible (yourself) by inflicting that misery on them and giving them what they deserve makes things all the more confusing and scary as feeling a mix of fear, curiosity, and "righteousness" at the same time as thinking about how easy it is to murder someone tends to immediately send up red flags in the "sane" part of your mind.

TL;DR (kind of)
Anger reminds her of murder

Fear reminds her of murder (in this case)

Reminding herself of the murder reminds her of the justifications and emotions at that time

(Logic trap) justifying murder in the middle of being scared or angered is something a "monster/murderer/psychopath" would do.

(Logic trap conclusion if she doesn't catch herself) "I'm a monster who justifies killing people who scare or anger me." Evidence: the previous murder, current emotional termoil.

The more these thoughts are triggered, the more reinforced they are.

Understanding how someone is murdered may cause reminders when the opportunity presents itself to murder again.

Even if there is no intent, thinking about murder just as someone is vulnerable to it is "monsterous/psycopathic".

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Things worth thinking about. Thank you both. :pinkiesmile:

7954242 Twilight didn't murder this other pony(?), though. Murder is the unlawful, and premeditated killing of another. What she did is justifiable homicide, or I guess equicide in this case. She killed someone in self-defence and in defence of others. Twilight is portrayed here as still viewing things in black and white, and the central issue is that she's been thrown into moral grey areas.

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