To Lose it Back
Twilight sat at her desk, the dusk light flowing through the window. Her ears were flat against her head, and her eyes were puffy from her sobs. She had lost the only one she had loved, and she had pushed her away. She told her that she didn't love her. That was all wrong though, she loved her more than anything. She was the only one who had ever made her feel whole, no matter how silly or immature she could act at times. Pinkie had come to her with confidence, and she confessed to Twilight her undying love. She probed her mind of the events of the hours before, trying to figure out why she did what she did, and where she went wrong.
'Uhm, Twi? I have something that I really, really, really need to tell you, but I'm not sure I know how to do it or even where to begin really but all I know is that I really need to tell you!'
Pinkie stood in the doorway to Twilight's home, her eyes filled with nervousness. Her she couldn't help but rub the back of her neck, not knowing how Twilight would take what she would say next. She could only hope she gave the same back to her.
'Twilight, I love you.'
Twilight stopped dead in her tracks, the books she was levitating to the uppermost shelves of the library crashing to the floor. She turned to look at her pink friend who was staring onto her very soul with her baby blue eyes. Pinkie looked over her with worry, she didn't know if she felt the same way about her, but she knew that it was time she confessed her emotions to her.
'You don't mean that as you love me as a friend, do you Pinkie?' Twilight asked her, her voice a soft melodic tone.
'No, I'm so sorry Twi! I just had to tell you and I wasn't sure how you would react but I just new I had to tell you and you don't even know how scared I was when I told you! Its just that you've always meant a lot to me, but I would like to see you as more than just a friend. But if you don't want that I get that too I can still be a good friend even though this just happened, just please take some time to think this over.' She sat back onto her haunches, her mind reeling at that fact that she had just made a complete fool of herself in front of the mare she loved. She was actually using logic, and it felt so very strange to use it.
'Well... I, uhm... Pinkie, I... I'm not sure what to say. I want to say I love you too, but I'm not sure how I feel about this and you, and I don't want to hurt you by saying it and not really meaning it.' She spoke, but soon regretted the words that she spoke. They had been more brash and blunt than what she had originally meant to say.
Pinkies eyes began to tear up, her mane went flat, and her mouth formed a disturbing frown on the normally giddy pony. 'I'm sorry Twilight... I didn't know... I'm sorry I said I loved you, I just wanted to let you know.' She disappeared in a flash of pink, going somewhere else where her sobs could not be heard by any of her friends. After all, all she wanted was for them to smile.
Pinkie eventually came to a stop far out of reach of anypony, and that was exactly what she had wanted. She just wanted to be alone, and she just wanted to think over what Twilight had said.
'I don't think she said that she loves me back, but she also didn't say she didn't love me,' she mumbled audibly. 'But she also had said that she didn't know what she felt, so that could also mean that I still have a chance!' She smiled, her poofy cotton-candy mane bouncing back to life.
She continued to trot a bit farther down the road to a cliff where she could look over Ponyville and just sit and think. The sky started to turn various hues of orange and yellow, the magnificent sunset slowly falling behind the horizon, leaving the land of Equestria in the dark.
'Only if you were here to see that, Twilight.'
Pinkie then laid down on the grass near the edge of the cliff side where she had a view of Ponyville. She rested her head on her hooves, closing her eyes and smiling at the thought of having Twilight as her own.
'I love you...'
Twilight knew what she had done wrong now. It was all so clear. She had let the one she cared for more than anything leave her most likely thinking she didn't feel the same way about her. She knew she was feeding Pinkie a lie when she said it, but why didn't she stop herself? What held her back that she just couldn't pass?
Fear.
She feared losing her, even though Pinkie admitted to her love first. She feared that even if things did work out between them, if they fell apart that she would lose her forever. She feared the unknown. She feared love.
She looked through one of the solitary Library windows, out towards the night sky and the moon. The night always fascinated Twilight, and she had always wanted to learn more about it. The stars, the moon, how it all works, everything! And even the chance to study strange things in the night sky gave her a glimpse of happiness to learn something that was hopefully new. There was something off in the sky, but she just couldn't place what it was. She scanned the sky, and that's when it drew her attention. It wasn't in the sky, but it was on a cliff. And even stranger, it seemed to be a pinkish colored hue, and that was the best that she could tell from the light conditions.
She took a small pair of binoculars out of a nearby drawer, raising them to her eyes. She had expected to see something strange and out of the ordinary, but she had not at all expected to see Pinkie. She looked beautiful to Twilight with her cotton-candy mane slightly bouncing in the breeze. She was majestic. It was almost as if she was made to lay in that position.
She kept staring at the sleeping pony, a smile creeping its way onto her face. She wished upon the starts that she would get a chance to help her, something to make her realize that she did in fact, love her back. She continues to stare through the window at the young pink pony that lay on the cliff. She noticed that Pinkie was starting to stir, and she rose the binoculars to her eyes once again. The pony that was once sleeping soundly, now seemed to be kept up by something. Her eyes stayed focused on the pony, waiting to see any sign of what was causing Pinkie to stay awake when she shuddered. She must be cold, Twilight thought. She must be cold!
Twilight ran upstairs to her bedroom at a full gallop, grabbing her favorite blanket and pillow. She was gone before Spike even had the chance to ask what she was doing. She ran down the road, searching for where Pinkie may have gone off to reach the cliff. On the edge of the road, there was eventually a small path that had faint hoof-tracks left in the dirt, obviously marking that this was the way Pinkie had traveled. Twilight began to run up the narrow trail at a full sprint, her body tense with nervousness, and her mind fearing to go near her lover. The pine needles and spruce trees whipped past her face, some leaving a small kiss of pink behind to show where they had came into contact.
Just as Twilight came out of the brush, she came to a slow walk, coming up behind the bright pink pony. She pulled the blanket off of her back, laying it over Pinkie Pie gently. She watched as the blanket fell to her body, morphing to her natural curves. It was a beautiful sight, and Twilight couldn't help but lay with her. She slowly slid her hoof below Pinkies head, lifting it just enough to lay the pillow down to form a barrier between the ground and her gorgeous face.
Twilight slipped under the covers, stretching the blanket so it would cover both her and Pinkie Pie. She rested her head right behind Pinkies, filling her nose with the sweet smell of cotton-candy. Pinkie started to move, slightly turning her head towards Twilight, tears filling her eyes.
'I never thought you'd come...'
'Of course I'd come, I love you.' Twillight replied, a smile on her face and her heart at rest.
'I love you too, Twilight.'
Both ponies scooted in closer to each other, scavenging for any warmth that they could get. Even if they did freeze this night, their hearts were finally at rest, filled with the love the other had given.
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I don'r know how well this is going to turn out, never really tried a shipping type thing.
Very good
Some spelling mistakes here and there, along with a bit of grammar. Other then that, very sweet story
580929 Thanks, I'm not one to usually write this type of thing, just thought I'd give it a try. You read My other story The Final Letters?
Well written!
I was trying to think of bad points... but there are none!
Lol, the beginning was a little weird and sudden but other then that it was great!
581588 to be honest, I may have wrote the beginning in my sleep, literally.
581568 and thanks!
This is beautiful writing, a fantastic fanfic. I've never seen any Twilight and Pinkie shipfics or clopfics before so this was a new experience for me.........and it was beautiful.
.......
Meh. It was alright.
581919 IT WAS ALRIGHT?!?!
I know, not my best. But thanks for reading! 
That was a very beatiful story. I'm actually really sad that this story is complete already... I'm normally not a fan of TwiPie, but this was really good.. Thumbs up from me :D
Very well written, I like it!
It was decent at the very least. Good for a one shot ship fic so I can't really complain. TwiPie is a personal like thanks to its uniqueness, so plus for that. However the pacing could use a bit of work, and there were a few errors grammar and formatting. Also not quite sure why you went with italic's for dialogue, your not really supposed to do that.
So it's good, but could be improved.
582093 IF i have time I MAY continue this, so be on the watch.
Not bad at all. Was well worth the read. I look forward to more stories by you.
Well...
The whole doing this when anypony spoke thing was a little unnerving, but other than that...
It also felt a little rushed...
But it was great. I truly appreciated it for it's gleam of beauty.
It's not often you see... Pinkie Sparkle? Twilight Pie? 
I guess that's why you never see that ship. Because no pony knows what to call it.
Adorable
However it was short- excruciatingly so; You also seemed to have trouble with telling instead of showing, which ruined the experience slightly.
760478 The whole show not tell thing is a general issue I have been trying to improve on. but thanks, and I think your Dash kissy face isn't right
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OH BALLS
Here, I made up for it:
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Please tell me that you do have time?
787110 oh god... I will try to fit somettime in for an extra chapter... Since you want it.
788820 Remember though, it's if you want to
But I got to say, you managed this one really well indeed. I've also read The Fire In Her Eyes, which I read with anxiety. So waiting for that 
I was really searching around for FlutterDash stories, however I'm so glad I took a stop by this one.
Seeing Pinkie like this, somewhat vulnerable was so cute.
789271 don't expect any updates at all for a couple days at least, I'm actually camping. Random WiFi FTW! And upon my return I also have another short story that is nagging at my mind, and I can't really write on a cell phone. And I'm also glad that you enjoy my stories
I found this after searching for my usual Flutterdash stories. As it didn't clash with Flutterdash I read it and am so glad I did. It was just sooo Twilight. Scared of the unknown, just like when she first found friendship.
If you were to add more to this story I will read it as It certainly is a worthwhile read.
More of the whole show not tell would deepen the story too, but its certainly well wroth reading as your current style stands.
854729 Yeah, the whole 'Show not Tell' has been something I have been working on, and this wasn't necessarily my best work, so yeah
But glad you liked!
Story wise I think its a really strong read and well worth adding too. Especially if you want to explore the ways the local community would take to Pinky announcing a party because of her new marefriend.
854757 Yeah, but I kinda have other fics that need updating, such as TFIHE, but I do want to come back to this story sometime though.
854766 Oh I whole heartedly endorse you updating that one. Its one of the best flutterdash stories I've read. Its just good to know that you do want to come back to this at some stage.
854788 I thank you for being a reader, and am extremely glad you like TFIHE
I love it, very cute^^
It was pretty good my only suggestion is that make the story longer. prolong the events leading to the climax. cuz it kinda felt short
I have to applaud Pinkie Pie in this one, because of her acceptance of the possibility of being rejected. And Twilight...I'm so glad this wasn't another "I feel guilty because I made her sad by rejecting her so I gotta fix that!" A realistic answer to Pinkie, you made it clear enough that Twilight was attracted to Pinkie and in love with her, and it didn't end up feeling at all like she was humoring her. MOST of the shipfics I've read lately make that mistake. I'm generally a nitpicker when it comes to a story, but I can't really nitpick this story! ...I don't give a crap about the technical aspects of writing so if there are problems there, I forgot. Very emotionally moving fic. Makes me want to check out your other stuff. (after I finish my Twipie Binge, of course)
2478334 While I do thank you for you kind words, you will find that most of my other works can be rather depressing, while I do have some that either hint at shipping or are a shipping in itself.
Again, thank you - it has been a rather long time since someone has been this far back and read this story
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Thanks for the warning. That definitely wouldn't be good for my brain. I probably won't be reading stories that aren't tagged "romance" for a long time, and I think I can find out which stories are depressing by reading comments. A bunch of crying in the comments of a final chapter would be telling enough. ..Though they might also spoil a story. >_0 i'll figure out a system later.
This is why I only read completed fics.
2480406 I do have some comedies as well, but just reading a comment section of any of my fics will usually give you an idea if it is sad or not
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Twinkie pie
Super nice story! I only saw one mistake - you wrote ''barley'' wrong. It should be ''barely''.