it hurts, it does, i'm a fucking messI'm already feeling discouraged. Why. · 4:46am Aug 19th, 2018
Sooo coming back to the site is no easy task, and somehow I'm already feeling like I've got a mountain to climb before I feel anywhere near as comfortable as I used to be here, so I'm less of an outsider and more of a participant. I guess it just takes time, though, and I shouldn't expect anything overnight. I forget that a lot, somehow.
And it's 12:40am and once again I had meant to go to bed way earlier. Today was a tiring, somewhat downer day, so that doesn't help my attitude.
I think part of it is I need to go back into my feed (22.5k+ notifications! I still hate that knighty moved...what was it, threads? into the feed) and start checking that more often.
I think the other thing that discourages me is that I feel the site is less active than it used to be. Again, is this because I've been gone for so long and haven't been an active participant? Maybe. I just have trouble reconciling what used to be and what I need to do to make this worthwhile. Or something like that. I'm writing yet another blog when I should be sleeping, so I have no idea if this makes any sense.
I just need motivation. Or something. Idk. (Dang what a weakass ending I'm an idiot)
My guess is the site's less active than it was. The fandom isn't as big as it was five years ago. Which is to be expected. FIM has had an impressive run - eight seasons (with I think a ninth confirmed), a motion picture, and even a spinoff (Equestria Girls).
Sorry to hear your day was a downer. I hope that tomorrow (well, today now) is a better one.
Anyways, in response to your journal from a few days ago, put me down as 'still here' but not really 'active'. I moved all my stories to DeviantArt (and my new ones are only submitted there). So this is the first time I've logged in for a few months. I'm not planning on sticking around, but I read a few stories that deserved an upvote and a favorite so I logged in to do so. I'm not sure when I'll log in again, but I hope all goes well as you reintegrate into FimFiction. Who knows, maybe someday I'll attempt to do the same. Good luck with your writing - I look forward to reading some new stories from you in the near future!
On a side note, we're in the same time zone, lol. Bed is calling my name too.