The support means the world to me, and thanks to your kind contributions I was able to go and visit my boy in Britain. I'll try and mock up a proper recap blog—though I am notoriously terrible at doing those, I don't think I've ever managed a proper recap blog for any of the various conventions I've gone to over the years. I guess there wasThe Loneliest Birthday · 11:22pm Nov 29th, 2016
Today, I turned 19, passed out in my room after a night of Mimosas and Xanax
how befitting of me
First Birthday away from my family, didn't realize how much it would suck being alone 3000 miles from everyone who would give a shit enough to celebrate with me
San Francisco is a lonely, cold city
wish I hadn't been such a cunt when i was younger and had appreciated all the nice birthday shit my family and friends did with and for me
I also hate getting older (which sounds stupid coming from a 19 year old), but I feel like I wasted a lot of my childhood being miserable and irritating, so until 18, I felt as if more and more of my childhood was leaking away with every birthday; and now with 18 and 19, I feel myself getting further and further away from childhood
that probably pisses off the older amongst my followers but it's just how i feel
here's to 19, the nothing age
EDIT: at least one of my friends cared enough to send me this ahah
I'm 19, 2 weeks from Thursday....plus I have school! Imagine how my day'll go. (similar to yours except I'll hitchhike to Canada.)
4322690 sounds fun, don't get kidnapped
4322699 I'll keep that in mind. Besides, Canada's legal drinking age is 19...Purpose= Explained!
I turn 23 in 4 days. I'll probably be doing the same thing as you except even more pathetic since I'm ancient. I hate getting older too. Happy birthday though.
Poppycock! I'm 41 and I still act like I'm 5.
Except for the nonstop profanity and narcotic medication and masturbation, etc., but you get the idea. It may be cliche, but "you're only as old as you feel" is totes true.
why are you mixing alcohol and benzos
welcome to the club
next year we'll be 20, holy fuck
time really does pass fast in this autism-filled site, huh
edit:
nice avatar
You only have one year left to be an angsty teenager, spend it well.
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Oh shit. I hadn't noticed that. That's disturbingly close to "subconscious suicide attempt".
Hopefully subconscious, but still.
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4322881 don't worry, it was just to accelerate the feeling of the Xanax; I made sure to carefully measure everything out beforehand and my friend and I hid the remaining alcohol and pills in a place where we couldn't find them.
As much as I hate myself, drug OD's are some of the most painful ways to die, so I always crosscheck shit before I take it, especially when mixing two or more things.
4322911 I mean, it's still super dangerous, but I can't stop you and I suppose you know what you're doing, but I'd still recommend against it.
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That's not a "don't worry" rationale, hon.
People who think they measure carefully still die from mixing alcohol and benzos. The reaction can be unpredictable, especially since it will depend in part upon what you've eaten recently, your blood sugar, and several factors of which you can't possibly be aware at the time.
If you need to boost Xanax, you need to see a doctor. You're probably dealing with depression more than anxiety, and there are solutions that work for both of them. This is something I know a lot more about than you, because I've struggled with it since before you were born. Please seek help as soon as you can: you have a deadly mental disorder (one that I share).
It can be especially difficult to advocate for yourself medically when you're depressed, which makes it particularly challenging to push for a cure. You need people like your friend to help you fight this. You have our support here as well.
This is bit late, but happy birthday!
The age we live in, everyone grows up much faster. a generation or two ago, they wouldn't notice they're getting older until well into their 20s, a generation ahead, I'm already seeing 4 year olds spelling out multi-syllable words that I could barely pronounce at age 6. I'm still feeling the regret of wasting my teen years too but I'm slowly starting to get through it and move on to a bit wiser maturity. If you take this information into account, it's entirely possible you'll be young enough to actually act on the time and wisdom spent through the first few decades of your life.
Hold on to whatever you can and work your way through the pain and depression that might possibly kick in. You never know when life might suddenly become amazing again.
Happy Birthday, Regi. Don't go too crazy. Or, you know, do. I'm not your dad. Just... be careful?
Happy birthday Regi!
and damn, 19? I thought you were older then me...
Regardless, I hope you have an awesome dude
oh hey, my birthday is today. Just one day apart, eh?
I also spend my birthday staring at FB feed with self-disgust.
4323729 haha i know that feeling
I told people to give the b-day wishes to my mom, she did all the work, i did jack shit
4323293 thank you
and don't worry, i was
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4323183 thanks you guys
4322790 thanks, it's my favorite picture of a horse i've found in a long time
she truly is irresistible
4323194 maybe that's true; I know I'm not like, old, or even "old". But I'm the oldest I've ever been and I've been learning to adult on my own for the past few months far away from all the people I grew up around, so it's been extra lonely and it makes me feel extra... old.
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No problem man, legitness.
Happy Birthday, to more fun times.
If it makes you feel better, I'll also be away from my family and girlfriend when my birthday comes. (No birthday blowjob, aww...)
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Been 3 years since I've celebrated my birth day, I'm turning 21 by the way. Funny enough I'll actually be celebrating my 21st in San Fransisco in January. Any way I totally get how you feel about getting older, but kinda feeling like its a dumb thing to say since your only 19. Adulthood hit me really fucking hard, it was like one day I had no care in the world, the next day I graduated college, gained debt, and started working to survive. I think everyone our age goes through that feeling of longing for childhood again. I do all the time and I havent lived at home since just before I was 18.
My birthday was a couple weeks ago. Just turned 22. I also spent it alone. It's hard.
Did you get my birthday text?
Are you coming to NJ for Christmas again? Maybe we can see each other.
Happy birthday! Being 19 was awesome.
Happy belated birthday, ya old site celebrity!
So wait.
Back in the earlier days of "Regidar is first to everything"/"Regidar is everywhere" back in S1 and S2, you were 14-15?!
I thought you were much older during those times. Those times when Swiper was highly active.
I feel ya on getting older and feeling like I should have been better or done more in the past. God, I wished that I did shenanigans or hung out with more people back when I was in undergrad. Maybe also high school.
I turned 28 this year, and the slow march to 30 is kinda scaring me since I feel like I haven't done much with my life compared to my family when they were my age, and my college friends.
My college friends have gotten/about to be married after a significant amount of dating time, are captains and majors in the military, and/or bought/about to buy a house.
Doesn't help that my 10 year high school reunion will be in 2017. The fact that a full decade has passed since I graduated high school has me feeling fucking old!
This year is the first time that I have ever had to move to a different city for a job and have my name on an apartment rental contract. I spent my birthday alone, and I didn't do anything for it aside from buy myself a couple of cupcakes. Aside from a coworker, I don't have any friends in town. From my friends and family, I just got texts and Facebook posts saying "happy birthday".
I've found that overtime, birthdays are less of a thing that is celebrated outside of a dinner out. Past couple of years, I had to organize people together myself to hang out with.
Though I guess that comes with the territory of everyone in my social circle working business hours outside of 8-5 and having more active social lives than I do.
Others I know, around my age, don't do anything for their birthday It's sort of a thing that happens as we get older.
Not doing anything of note for my birthday started to happen back in high school for me. So I wouldn't fret too hard about the lack of birthday stuff.
I'm trying to bridge the gaps of time and geography with some older friends and trying to make new ones where I currently live.
The phone is your friend. Try to keep in contact with the people you knew in the past to help you get through the future.
Also try to keep contact with your family. Kinda hypocritical of me to say, since I sort of avoid my family, but I am watching my family drift apart and starting to actually face the impending mortality of my parents as the holidays approach.
TL;DR: Happy Birthday! Don't fret about less birthday celebrations, do more shenanigans to look back and laugh about, call/text your friends, make more friends, and call/text family. Be better than me, because you still have time
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