Well then... · 12:08am Oct 18th, 2016
As many of you may recall, I put this story on an indefinite hiatus following my coming out and the initialization of my transition. I cited concerns that anything I might write following that event in my life might come off as using the story as a soapbox: something I didn't want to be seen as doing.
It's been a number of months since then, and today, I found myself going over A Blouse Unbuttoned. I started to get a feel for what I was writing, and where I was going [even if I may have been closer to my mental 'end point' than I initially thought]. Hell, I even opened the unfinished/barely started Chapter 10 and started going over what I'd already written, and couldn't find anything worth scrapping. So after going over the time-skip that I'd already written, I started writing, and writing, and suddenly, I had a nice interaction between Scootaloo and Dee going.
I'm nowhere near done the chapter, because I've hit a bit of a block. I feel like this Scootaloo's unique outlook opens the possibility of some 'just sex' to 'blow off steam'/let Dee experience it from the stallion's side of things before her stallionhood is completely useless, but herein lies the problem. Given some of Dee's issues, I'm not sure she would, or should accept [especially the morning of the day she meets her mother].
The other problem with the writing I did tonight is that it had an effect I somewhat expected. As someone transitioning, I felt like some of my feelings were beginning to bleed through into what I was writing. It didn't feel like I was soapboxing yet, but this did have the unexpected result of provoking my own dysphoria. As it stands right now, I feel like crying, but I don't want to cry over something stupid like this, even though the rational part of me is telling me that there is nothing stupid about my feelings.
So I suppose this is just an update to remind you all that I haven't given up on this story, and I do want to see this through to its end. It's just going to be hard.
Glad you didn't give up on that story, I really love it so I give you hope and luck for getting though your block.
I am also glad you haven't given up the story. I hope you you can find a way around your block, and find the direction you need to continue. Good Luck!
*GASP* Seven finally came out?! When was this?! I missed it. WHY DID I HAVE TO LOSE INTERNET!!!
As someone who's also transitioning, i want you to know that your story is wonderful
I'm super excited to see where it might go next! When I first got into it, I was more in it for the sex, and still am, but now I'm really into the story and emotions with it as well!