To everypony! · 11:09pm Apr 28th, 2016
First off, I want to apologise for the lack of anything related to FDTL. I was stuck for a long time, and didn't know what to put into it, scrapping three versions until recently. With the help of a friend (how's the Somby plush doing? 
), I've made a start of the next part.
I'm sorry it's been so long...it's been many months. I haven't been coping well with the rest of my life, the depression came and went, insomnia popped up for awhile, and things got messy. All this meant I became so bogged down I didn't know what to do. I've been posting material for UAI, which was written ages back, and mostly just needed pacing and correction. I was afraid if I didn't get FDTLs next part just perfect, well, I didn't want to think what'd happen. There is SO much I want to put in there...
I don't think I've expressed it enough, but I've loved every kind comment that story has received. I know I didn't always reply, in truth I didn't know what to say, but I love the comments, and I love all of you. You are made of so much awesome, and thank you!
It came to a head just an hour ago, when I finally hit breaking point and had a breakdown over the silliest thing, sitting at my PC. The culmination of two months of family, financial and various other nightmares was me bawling my eyes out at my keyboard.
I've been trying to write as much as I can for FDTL, but I think I've been overdoing it. I'm spending so much time typing in notepad I barely play games anymore, and I found myself actually cleaning my kitchen to avoid turning the PC on. I don't want to keep you waiting any longer, I feel terrible it's been six months near enough, but I need a day or two...or seven....to just be an idiot. A total vegetable. Be outsmarted by my microwave, that level of thinking. Autism means my brain runs like a rally car with no limiter on its engine, or an overclocked PC being pushed past maximum. And I think my engines burnt out... The rest of my day centers around looking for a job lately, that or family business. I always hated using the autism as an excuse, but somebody made me realise that it's a very real part of who I am. I have to take care of my brain, ignoring my problem won't make it vanish...all it'll do is wear me down, make my immune system crash again.
I haven't forgotten the story, my friend and I have shared many ideas, and she talks me through many of them. Even if I'm still a little shy at promoting my stuff, I get flustered and run out of words. Or I start talking and don't shut the hell up. And talk total bollocks.
So here's a little tidbit for you all: Bright Spark has practically adopted Sombra as her role model. Is there a way he could be even MORE of a part in her life? Leave your answer in the comments, I'm clapping my hands and giggling at the idea of writing it soon! (Just gotta put in a few preceding events to set things up~)
Thank you for reading!
Just looked at my reflection my monitor. I'm smiling again, a proper smile...
Pineapples.
Hi down here...
I know the feeling. Burnouts are normal. You won't believe how many of those I've had in the past month! But it's understandable and I hope things work out.