I am still here, just having some technical issues.

That whole business with the iPad really knocked me on my arse, I was upset and angry for a long time. Eventually I moved on and have since replaced the iPad. I’m slowly getting back into doodling and whatnot again.

On the subject of FDTL? My Mac upgraded itself and now LibreOffice won’t WORK. If anyone is a pro with macOS, pls halp. I can’t even open the document!

https://www.deviantart.com/pixel-spark/journal/Urgent-News-Its-all-GONE-847945177

I’m through, no more.

Very bored.

Wanna go out, for something that isn’t just groceries.

Windows 10 is being a huge twat, won’t run half my games. Wish I hadn’t upgraded, but I had no choice.

Still haven’t written anything; my mind is blank. I think my brain escaped quarantine and doesn’t wanna come back any time soon.

Ugggh...I wanna play RE7, but it’s broken. Stupid W10.

Can’t seem to draw ponies today, maybe try people?

How are you all?

How do I even begin this?

I’m sorry.

I’ve been agonising Over this for some time now. What to say, what to do. I kept silent- hoping this barricade would collapse if I just found the right way...

But the guilt is too much, I can’t do this. I owe you all an apology. I sincerely thought I’d regain my footing in my writing someday, but not even writing the short story helped.

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Hey, for all of you who follow FDTL, I’ve written a short (haha) story, a companion piece to FDTL. I was stuck for the longest time, then someone suggested I try writing a one shot to get back into writing FDTL again.

I hope you’ll enjoy it!

I’m not sure how familiar any of you are with the education system, but I thought I’d ask anyway.

The last month or so has generally revolved around attempting to make some kind of an attempt at a future for myself. I tried applying for a foundation degree course, all hopeful and excited until-

I found out the benefits system in the UK (and possibly the US too if what I’ve been told is correct) doesn’t allow for education courses if it’s full-time.

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Just a quick entry to say I am still trying to work on MLP stuff, but progress has been hampered the last two weeks by both the absence of my iPad (in for replacement) and a severe allergic reaction to some medication I took. I’m pretty much worn out and seem to drift between sleeping and curled up on the couch trying to focus on the TV. That and occasionally flopping like a lethargic fish from either rest spot to the kitchen...

I be writing.

I apologise that I must put cancel/everything on hiatus for the indeterminate future. FDTL and CatK...

I’m in the process of losing my job, being told to resign because yet another company can’t handle an autistic person. I can’t do it again, can’t trust a world that’s this fucking hypocritical.

I have next to no hope for a future in work, and I think something fundamental has broken after all these years of blind faith.

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Hi everypony,

I know it’s been awhile, I suffered a pretty bad depressive period the last three months. Things are getting better, my head feels like it’s reconnecting itself. Looking back over the parts I’ve written for FDTL so far, it’s missing something. A wonderfully helpful talk with Hail-King-Sombra came up with the suggestion that I ask YOU guys; the people thatve been supporting this story in it’s crazy path.

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