Terrifying Inspiration · 6:57am Nov 23rd, 2014
Hello all you wonderful followers! I'm in a good mood tonight, for many, many reasons.
First, progress is amazing on the next chapter of Missing Dreams. On Friday I wrote what is probably the cheesiest, sappiest scene I have ever written, and I couldn't be happier with it. Especially with what it leads into. I hope to have the next chapter out pretty soon, actually, depending on how much I get done tonight. If my plan for this chapter goes smooth enough and ends with a high enough word count, it could be done within a week.
Four is Greater is... I don't wanna talk about it.
What I do want to talk about though is the future. As most of you who read my blogs should know by now, my hope is to become an author. Full-time, not beside a second job. I can hope eh? Anyway, my plan has always been that I would wait to start planning/writing my first actual book until I was out of highschool, for many different reasons. Mostly because I don't think I'm good enough to get published yet. So for the most part, I don't even think about what I want to write for actual publication.
Then I got an idea. It's an awesome idea, one I can't stop thinking about. I haven't even written anything down for it yet, but it just keeps bugging me, nagging me to do something with it. So... I might start planning my first real novel. It is an exciting, terrifying prospect, if I'm being honest. I have less than a year left in highschool (as long as I pass all my courses, otherwise I do an extra semester), and it's time I start seriously considering what the hell I'm gonna do when I get that diploma. I have a basic plan, and I've had it since I decided I wanted writing to be my career, but the closer I get to enacting that plan, the more it seems... flimsy. The closer I get to trying them, the more my goals seem unreachable.
But no matter what I think or hope, it's coming, and I can't stop it. So I must prepare for it and be ready. With this idea for a novel, maybe I can be ready. Maybe once I get some actual planning done for it I might share a view details, but... for now I'll just keep it in my head until I have a solid grasp of what I want for it.
Also, wanna know where this idea came from?
A dream.
I am not even kidding. I hear people a lot of the time say their inspiration comes from dreams, and I never bought it; never once have I had a dream that I can take anything usable from. I've also had some pretty.. disturbing, concerning dreams. Some have made me even question how I see myself... yeah I can have some pretty intense dreams. But I woke up a few days ago, and I was at that stage where I knew I was waking up but I was still dreaming, and I really didn't want to wake up. I could actually feel myself forgetting the dream, and when I woke up, I could only remember just a few details. But as I laid in bed, my mind went "Yep, we're thinking about this. What the fuck could that have been about?" And built and entire scenario to explain what little memory of my dream I had left. And... well, that scenario has been slowly growing and building in my mind to the point where it's about as well thought-out as Twilight's Rainbow was when I started it, and way more thought out than Don't Give Up.
So yeah, if you're ever struggling for inspiration, stay up till 5AM playing TF2 and see what happens. It's how I did it... unintentionally.
Anyway, I really kinda wanted to talk about that, because just typing that out makes the idea of actually considering writing something for publication a little less daunting. A little; it's still downright terrifying.
I shall return to Missing Dreams.
Until next time,
Kodeake out
I believe you'd make a great author! Your stories are actually really well if not perfect grammar-wise.
i want more Four is Greater.